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Nobody Nov 2024
Slice
Slice
Slice
I told myself i wasnt addicted
Cut
Cut
Cut
I was doing so well
Scrape
Scrape
Scrape
Got in a fight with my friend
Bleed
Bleed
Bleed
Why do I do this to myself...

Blood bleeds through my jeans
Red blotches, displaying my shame
My pain
Yet they still believe me when i say im ok
I got in a fight with my friend. She and i had a lot of rough patches through the last couple years. I admitted to her i made some mistakes but she refuses to recognize that she literally left me with trauma and says that i was just being a *******. She refuses to see my side of the story. We just finished the fight over text and i got the urge to... yeah. I was clean for 5 days. Haha thats a personal record for me since august. How dumb of me to think that i could go a week without it. Am i the problem??? Did i make the mistake??? Also for context this isn't what i meant by my main trauma source, just part of it. Not ready to talk about the other part yet
Nobody Nov 2024
fake
like plastic
left me alone
to cry
and die
and deal with my own problems
didn't care
that i was struggling
didn't care
that i was hurt
didn't care
about me at all
didn't care
you never did
you are just a piece
of useless plastic
in the junk yard
worthless
making the earth worse
harming
hurting
haha i hate you so much
Nobody Nov 2024
sometimes i wonder
if you even cared about me
i wonder if you there's anything about me you know
i wonder if you can see

sometimes i wonder
what goes on in your brain
maybe "i'll use him for a joke"
or maybe "i'll make him go through pain".

sometimes i wonder
if inside me, there's something wrong
if inside everyone who knows me
there's something about hate... a song

a song
a melody
saying something's wrong
something's wrong with me
i can't see
you treated me like ****
but i wanted to be your friend?

why
why did i want to be your friend
you were awful to me
was it my fault?
haha toxic friends are awful
Wordsu Nov 2024
I watch the thunder in your eyes,
Like darkness rolling deep and low.
I tell myself these are just lies,
But still I cannot help but go.

The lightning splits our fragile peace,
Illuminating all my fears,
Yet still I beg the storm to cease
While drawing closer as it nears.

They say that I should run away,
Seek shelter from your raging storm,
But in your chaos I must stay,
For in your cold I still feel warm.

Your love strikes like a hurricane,
That leaves me gasping, torn apart.
I know this pleasure mixed with pain
Will someday break my foolish heart.

Between the crashes of your mood,
There comes a gentle, summer rain,
And though I know it won't conclude
Well, still I weather your disdain.

Each morning brings another chance
To leave before the tempest starts,
Yet here I stay, locked in this dance,
As thunder echoes through our hearts.

Your anger crashes like the waves,
That pound against my crumbling shore.
I've built my home among your rage,
And somehow still, I ask for more.

Perhaps I've learned to love the wind
That tears my world apart each night,
For though this love has surely sinned,
Without your storms, nothing feels right.
About someone who is in love with someone toxic but cannot leave because they are so enamored
Nobody Nov 2024
Icy stares open
Eyes that have been touched by pain
Yet freeze ones left warm~
Toxic friends **** 😅
Gerry Sykes Nov 2024
DDT
The drab
brown butterfly
sits on a white blossom
incautiously drinking honeyed
poison.
The darker side of our relationship with nature isn't always visible – a metaphor for our relationships with other people.
phoebe Nov 2024
too much history.

i remember you claimed you wouldn’t be able to come back, to show your face due to the fact that everything reeked of us. i was a permanent tattoo on your frontal lobe — the itch you cannot stop scratching, and the ghost you keep trying to put to bed so you don’t have to admit you have blood on your hands that doesn’t belong to you.

you claimed everything was too much, too spine shattering. my backbone had always been a phantom, how can you shatter me when there is nothing left to shatter? some questions don’t make sense, you never made sense, and i question now if you ever even did. i can go on about how you’d dilute my blood with saltwater while i got intoxicated by your fermented words but i’d rather devour my own heart again before my thoughts even graze you again.

you claim there’s too much history
why are you trying to repeat it?
phoebe Nov 2024
don’t say you love me, not when i have the flesh pieces of my own heart stuck between my teeth after you shoved it back into me. when will i learn that i cannot force someone to let me love them? when will i learn that just because i feel the chest-caving need to save someone, doesn’t mean i should?
phoebe Nov 2024
it feels like a cruelly sick sense of humor, a twisted joke and i’m the punchline. how does one explain the irony, the contradiction of running from you yet chasing after you all at once? i’m chasing down your memory and the what ifs like malt liquor, it burns my throat and i mistake it for your hands only for the taste to settle in and i push ******* down my throat because i need to purge you out but i should have known its not like that, you arent food, but i’ll try anyways because your residue is haunting me but i can’t help but keep visiting your grave.
mjad Nov 2024
compulsive liar
like a faucet with water
on and off
oops
a lifetime later
didn't mean to leave on the water

drip




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