rest easy sweet soul
i love you, i miss you
you will never ever be forgotten, you are one-of-a-kind
your beautiful face when you’re sleeping
your beautiful voice, singing in the car with you
your humor, and how you made me laugh so hard i cried countless times
you are my brother forever
the tony to my effy
i’m going to miss your aarbear hugs the most
your laugh and your perfect impressions/quotations of our favorite lines from our favorite shows
i will miss the way you get under my skin
so many people loved you buddy..
it’s crazy, because you thought nobody would show up to your funeral, but so many people did
maybe, hopefully, you knew deep down how loved you were
i'm so so sorry for all of my shittiness
but for as hard as we fought, we sure loved just as much and more
i know you would have hated some things about your funeral, but i hope you appreciate the ***** breaking bad and ooof maddon stickers, and tony soprano gold chain and medallion we put on you in your casket. it looked amazing on you
i’ll love meadow and see you in her, and feel close to you when i’m walking her
this wasn’t meant to happen.. i still expect to see a message or tweet or update from you when i wake up
you are forever in my heart ♥️ rip grains

Try to be happy

You have to pick the Elements of Life

You ask yourself what they are the answer is quite easy you just have to sit down and think about and comprehend it.......

Before it's too late.....


Life is a Gamble.....



Because humans are playing dice to make it to the top......


Everyday we have consequences .. and choices we have to... make.... and this hollow world.....

Sacrifice is the only way to live......
Because you can't have it all.


Because someone will always have it better than you

Even if you gave it your all


Troubles will always find a way to hunt you


And to you dig your own grave.....

Mind and body it's fragile........

Like a porcelain doll....

Because everyone breaks in little bits pieces at the end......and turn into decay because humans are like dirt trying to grow into a spout ......



But if you can think courageous.....



All of your worry and doubt can go away for a period of time......



If you take the wrong step

They could find a way to attach to you like a spiders trap.....


Think resilient....


A wise human can defeat deaf for a
Shorts period  Of time if they only clear they mine from the devil's grass....



always remember

Laugh at the ones who think they can harm you with guns and bullets because ideas can be Bulletproof........



You can make a mockery of my words as you will.....


But it has been proven before beginning of time it happened proven ideas are true devastation.....
Words are just a plus and the mix....

So here's a gun and aim at me and pull the trigger.....

So I'll say my prayers for this December night I will not miss his world because I sleep underneath the stone......


Enjoy your petty politicians....


We are obligated

To vote for a man and a suit and tie with blood on his hands.........

That's a joke everybody laughs.....



Just a Pawn trying to rebuild a empty Relic does not even exist anymore..... the 50 states equals blood..... the stars mean tears from the Fallen and the Forgotten....
You do not have to be a soldier marching out for war. Every human is a soldier
And their own type of way....

Because every soul is rare....


Just walking a different path.....


If you're going to try and give it your all.....


Or don't even start.....

Failure is not an option...

But watch your step......


Because this Valley it's filled with snakes slithering in the valley of Sorrow

you got your back against the wall son situation takes ***** but you find yourself looking at the man in the mirror it looks like he's falling apart....

You stare at yourself with disgust....

Because you are starting to come the monster you say you would never become

You can't defy the things you have done to people you love....

You pushed them away and they pushed you back...

Now you can't go back to them now...



they gave you chance after chance but you denied it with no hesitation...

Now you have burned that bridge and you can't repair ashes..

now you are alone to walk a New path...
but you have questions to ask yourself....

the big question is are you really alone...

it's a woman in your life she says she loves you....
she said she will always have your back...

but you don't know who to trust...

if you leave yourself vulnerable
will she leave you in the sand to die

will she keep her promise...

some promises are meant to be broken....

but you love her too you told yourself you will never love again

you have  lie to yourself again....

now you have a new choice to ask God but he is silent just like usual...

you wonder why he doesn't answer

now you start second-guessing yourself should you try the patch things up with God maybe he might answer.....

that leaves you with two options....


Walk through the tunnel of darkness
Or walk to the light
You don't have to make the choice alone


💞So I will listen to my heart ❤️...

If you break my heart I will die dear beloved..

My dear friend

I know how you feel

Life has so many twists and turns leading you
In the wrong direction

but you have to keep strong don't give in to your demons they will **** you

I'm so broke


All the cuts and bruises on my arm could tell a story
But that is the path I have chosen to walk


Sitting here in this dark room waiting for the end

It is so complex I know
But I cannot fall



but I must live another sunrise for you my dear beloved friend


but some days it is hard to breathe

like a dying man who's so far away
trying to fight for every last breath


those days are the worst

some nights I find myself talking to The Man in the mirror

clearly it looks like he's falling apart

I tried to help him pick up the pieces he keeps pushing me away

now I don't speak to him no more


that's another friend I have lost

who do I talk to now....

now I fine my self outside this November night to Greek the Man in the Moon

he is silent just like usual

looking down at me with disgust

but I cannot judge you because you are alone just like I am

I would like to wish you a good night my dear old friend....

my dear Isabella pro

my life my heart and my soul
like a  dying black alley cat
and the alley light  darkness and this work was city I call home

to me life is not worth living  

without you by my side

like a lonely Cub without his mother

to mean you are not just a memory
you are something more

you are my light
at the end of the tunnel of sadness
you save me from myself
I would like to thank you

I will give up anything

to hold you again
and here you giggle
rest in peace dear
Isabella rose

He could feel it
His body turning to dust
Like the others around him
He didn’t wanna go
Not now. Not when they’re almost done.
He could do nothing but feel pain
         I don’t feel so good.
As he stumbled over to the man who helped him
The man who shaped him
His hero, mentor, father-figure.
It wouldn’t be long before he too was gone
So he fell into the man's arms
And in a voice holding nothing but fear
  I don’t wanna go, please, I don’t wanna go.
He fell to the ground his feet turned to particles
Continuing until only his head remained.
He managed to get two words out to the man
Before the dust took him like it did countless others
The man with eyes stricken with grief and despair and anger
The man who could only watch as the boy left this world  
            I’m sorry.

The gold fish named Tony (a poem)

Happily and freely
Does the fantail goldfish
Named Tony
Swims
With out a care in the world

Tony thinks
The world is a peaceful place
Yet he does not know
Much of what goes on
Beyond the fish Bowl

But it is better
Then hearing and seeing
The bad things
That happens outside of the
Fish Bowl

So freely and happily
Tony swims
Ignorance is bliss
When you’re a fantail goldfish
In your little slice
Of paradise

She's missing, they're sure of it now.
They thought it strange no one called,
not a word, not a sight, not a sound.
We fear for her, missing overnight.

They're searching, asking questions now.
Locals helping, no one sleeping.
No word yet, family weeping.
Headline news, tension rising.

It seems like a week has passed by.
Police announce an arrest,
unspoken ******* fears.
Volunteers asked to stand down.
Missing, she'll always be missing.