When I was...

When I was...

When I was 18!

Back at it again, mind doing loops, going through a bend, wading through a field of blood but all I needs a friend, feeling like I'm starting to decend, down a path I'm never coming out of, feeling things are a lil bit intense, and I'm next, but ain't no nobody do it like I do, and in the end, I'll be the one everyone, everything, and nothing will never ******* comprehend, it's this I'm chasing, they might hate it, Ill act like ya'll get it and the game isn't ready, but I am

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between

Now I'm starting a new expansion, flushing out everything I use as a distraction, feeling like things are becoming too much; I need to take action, need to go ahead with this, this kinda life I need to abandon, if I go to far now we got a real problem, it's no mistake homie, use your glasses, nevermind my status, this is my ride and I'm captain, I know it's hard to imagine, showing my compassion, no matches to action, I'm no fake for real passion and now it's feels like I'm crashing...

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between

I'm full of surprises, how would you discribe this, never too late to realise, how far I'd go to unto demise, yeah now I've got a place to divise, no respect for these lines, ya'll have no idea what I'm going through but ya'll ready to criticise, suppose I should release something more often, and now it's me you've forgotten, walking round looking like a big shot, how long until it's ya'll I haven't got, like to act like a hot shot with a free thought, struggling away last couple of months, sorting out my life and I wonder if I still got it, showing a bit of spark like a megawatt, electricity's not my game but whose to say I'm not shocking, all the little ******* taking their shots, saying I got a case of writers block, so we gonna cut the small talk, they think I've got the writers block, acting like I've hit a road block, that's how you feel well then go ahead and **** my...

...I know it's a joke, a bad one at that, but it's who I am, and it's why I'm born to rap, been wanting to do this since primary, and to all the offended *****, you don't like my music just fire me, oh wait you can't cause ya'll ******* can't touch me, I'mma follow my path to be who I wanna be... this path I thought would stay uncharted, it's just this, this is my beginning, hate this, but I am just getting started.....

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between...

Know you'd be better without me here
Make it harder for you to adhere
To goals, one thing is clear
The "us" we are sober is what we fear
Hold you dear, love who you are
Treat you bad, keep you far
Further than the most distant star
Scared to hurt you and leave a scar
Hurt you and I don't know why
It doesn't matter how hard I try
Only make things worse for you and I
When will you call it quits and say goodbye?

HOOK:
Try to make it right but I always do you wrong
Say I will change but taking far too long
You're sick of hearing me sing the same song
Can we turn this back around, or are you already gone?

Most of the time wish I was someone else
Try my best to be happy, it never seems to help
You always tell me to be myself
I'm not good enough, that is easy to tell
I will never understand what you see in me
You think I am amazing, I disagree
I am drowning, dragging you into my sea
My life a mess dark and ugly
Two words I shout sometimes "Go away!"
Off-guard, you can't find the right words to say
The same day, ask you please stay
Must be hard to love a girl who never is okay
When this ends will you miss me like you said?
Travel across oceans to be by my side again?
I touch you in all the right spots in my bed
But could never let you see inside my head

HOOK

Your soul is inspiring, balanced, real
I left old pain behind, wanted to heal
Your trembling hands decided to steal
Aching thoughts and unease I no longer feel
Just like a magician you put my pieces back into place
Anticipation filling the gaps and leftover space
I am starting to think I'll win this race
Is this only a dream? Will I wake with no trace?
If we are really here right now let me know
Leave me with a reminder to hold when you go
Lately my mind likes to bounce to and fro
One second feeling high, the next feeling low

HOOK

Listen, everyone who out in crowd, the people who heard me sing so loud, playing it out loud, my life is one with no shroud...

We start off without our cheques, but like I love to say "that's just life I reckon"!, Now I'm on a whole other spectrum, they don't see it coming, coming through looking like the A team, so don't waste your life, choose what you wanna be, and guess that happens when you go and handle business yeah, I've switched from style to style until I have no style left, work for this to work out, love with no theft, chasing the feelings until there's nothing left, ParCellio's my name, it's how I'm to be addressed, spend my days, my ways are blessed, and I'll move to the west so my words can't be suppressed and I'll float with the waves, I'm so immunosuppressive...

This is how I'll spend my days...
Ride my thoughts like these waves...
Life onto the west coast ways...
And now seen it all...
Before I hit my grave...

A paradise, to be realised, and be with my kind, up all night to see the sunrise, lead a life of surprise, days gone by with no lies, everyone who lives put hands to the sky, everybody just go with the flow, no need to analyse, you know my ego could do with a downsize, you know I'm **** at singing but ya'll know I can harmonise, had a pretty ****** life but there's no need to sympathise, put my soul into this music it's something I prioritise...

This is how I'll spend my days...
Ride my thoughts like these waves...
Life onto the west coast ways...
And now seen it all...
Before I hit my grave..

Our waves, our breathing, our time, our cheating, this life, my dreaming, our lies, your thieving, now just imagine you caught your wife cheating, and stop thinking, look after that feeling, all you gotta do is trust me, you knew her actions were misleading, but you can't stop breathing, these thoughts are appeasing, one to one I'm believing, sleeping for long you almost left your dreams, these are the lessons I'm teaching, these are the hymns I'm preaching, the followers I'm feeding, this music keeps my heart beating, and my body keep bleeding, giving my life meaning, it's the stars receiving, and it's all I want, help me...

Sitting for you, ears to the confession box,
Praying to the Lord, how did this happen?, it's all I can ask. I gave my everything, now it's a funeral, I can't take this anymore, I am the tribunal. Sleeping these workless nights, working this worthless life, play along like it's alright; hate me, hate you, all these lies, there's always two sides of the fight, I wish you wouldn't say things, counting my time at the edge of a knife, but why am I complaining that's just life.

That's just life, my lifestyle
I not complaining you've been gone a while,
And through this ****, I just smile
Now we're out of time but I guess that's life.

I know it's not the real you but don't get me wrong I feel you, by the time you forgive me I'll be up in the clouds, blowing up my phone, but I wanna phone home, and after I've run with it, I'm done with it, done with this ****, don't even say it, you think im different, it's *******, you feel it, your flat line, this story's mine, you won't steal my lines, and if you ask me if I'm fine I'm a just say "consider our lies". But let's just keep our disguise, but all I ask is you stay the **** away from my family, it's my mistake, and now it's too late.

That's just life, my lifestyle
I not complaining you've been gone a while,
And through this ****, I just smile
Now we're out of time but I guess that's life.

I've already passed you, I'll stop at nothing keep these clowns away from you, but now I'm done playing, time taking, Lord praying, move away an, I got no brakes, no faking, **** stating, sweet caking, ***** slaying, disobeying, blow weighing, I'mma blaze it, it's crazy, and now I'm the one who blew it, she knew it, I'll admit, I've split, if I say something I will do it, talk no ****, musical misfit, who don't listen to hypocrites, and they're *******, we knew it, she knew it, I knew it, but now done with it, my face you'll never see it, don't look for me, there's no need, I'm the only Identikit...

Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone...
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone.

Now they see me praying at the world's edge, I've come to realise, hanging from the words you said. You say "being a musician is pointless". Is that you how feel, is that how you picture me, I'm guessing that success is something you and I look at differently.

I don't care what you want, I don't care what you think, the ice we walk on is getting incredibly thin. Think about that for one minute, I'm praying to the horizon, don't judge me, I've seen it. 5 months straight, all this time I was feeling nothin', all those times I told you I loved you, you should've guessed by now that I was bluffing. I knew full well I'll leave you broken hearted, we know we shouldn't have done this, but ***** don't get me started.

Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone..
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone.

Hey now leave it to me, my life, a life you'll never see, before you open your mouth just know I'm trying do this respectfully, so this is my message, and I swear it's a blessing, I don't know how to do this without it me being the one you're  blaming, how can you ******* treat me like your the only one who is being affected. So I stand strong and I won't be quiet; **** all the replying and I'm the one trying to keep this **** in the private, but just so you know I'm not gonna sit here in silence.......

 Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone, alone...
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone...