Fine,
I'm fine,
everything is fine.

Even though my world begins to crumble and fall
and even though my heart shatters and breaks...
All while my whole being becomes smaller-

I am fine,
I'm perfectly fine.

Even though my once flickering flame has dimmed
and even though my heart slowly begins to stop...
All while my whole being begins the fatal decline-

I promise I am fine.

Even though my flowers have died
and my heart has finally stopped beating...
I promise I am not lying

when I tell you I am

*******

fine.


And even as I dangle my legs over the edge,
and even as the pills rattle in their bottle...
As I hold the gun to my head -

I

am

perfectly

*******

finefinefinefinefinefine.


I am fine.

The curtains close
And leave me in suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
As I scramble for some semblance of safety.
Only once the curtains have lifted
And the light shines through
Am I able to see the extent
Of the chaos and destruction that I’ve created
It’s like a dissociated nightmare
And a lucid front row seat
To the brutal and ugly aftermath

The same lonely walls
Sterile rooms
And dead eyes

The loneliness
Is swallowing me
Whole

The sky is crying
And so am I

Who am I?
Oh, why, I haven't a clue!

Do I have an identity,
do I have a personality,
or a soul like you do?

Am I defined by Him?
Or am I defined by Me?
Do you decide who I may be?
Oh, my, who am I?

And why can't I
identify that
which makes me me...
My talents
or my failures,
my past or my present...
Do either or neither
determine me?

But, oh, I cry,
is it too late now
to find out how
to become me again?

But oh, who am I
to say I can't begin
to make my name.
When now may be the time
when now could be my time
to make me shine,
and make my self
whole,
new,
and me…

Hopefully...

It’s an odd thing
You know
Having a front row seat
To my own self destruction.
Being so mentally broken
Yet so painfully self aware

Little lonely ghost,
Sitting there all alone

What's got you in
Your head?

The world may be
Burning, but know
I'll be your cover

And protect you from
Burden.

Little lonely ghost,
It's okay to feel
Less than okay.

It's not your whole life.
It's just one day.

Little lonely ghost,
Don't be afraid.

Just know that
I'll protect you until
The end of my days.