Tick tock real talk
How do I get pass this mental block?
I know
I'll have some of this white rock
Crush it up like its white chalk
Up my nose you go
My brain you have to unlock
Pop a pill to get loose
I mean, why not?
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Tick tock real talk
Where's there's smoke, there's fire
Or a couple of stoners getting higher
I wonder who’s their supplier
Maybe he got what I need
To satisfy my desire
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Tick tock real talk
I can hardly walk
One shot
Two shots
Three shots
Four shots to many
I can hardly see the door
How did I end up on the floor?
I think I had enough
But there's this voice telling me
"You'll be okay, drink some more"
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And that's when it hits me
I'm intoxicated to my core
Inside my head, its war
Control over my body
That's what we're fighting for
No more
I want all these substances gone
But it’s too late now
I'm already torn
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Lowkie

Lost in my own reality
Cursed to live in this fake world,
Where models wear make-up
And man kind always afraid of something.
Where mistakes turn into regrets
And pain turn into hate.
No wonder everyone looks upset.
Where broken morals turn into bottles.
Oh how the game has changed.
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Lost In My Own Reality.
Where women are referred to as "*******"
And concerned citizens are "snitches"
Is this the best we can do?
Huh, talk about "gifted".
Streets is funny out here,
Seeing a 12 year old crying
"What do I have to live for?"
While downing his sorrow with a bottle.
Is this how we live?
Huh, talk about "evolved".
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Lost In My Own Reality.
What happened to the Transparency?
Or is that Transgender too?
What happened to Trust?
Because nowadays there's only Lust.
Everyone looking for a quick bust.
Forgetting that they're ruining someone's future fast.
What happened to commitment?
Lemme guess, it went suicidal too?
Seems like that's the best way to escape every problem.
But what you're actually doing is avoiding a trap to fall into another.
But I guess that's what happens when you're "psychotic"
Is this how we live?
Huh, talk about "matured".
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Lost In My Own Reality.
I guess this is why some people prefer never to wake up.
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Lowkie®

Lately I've been having some off days
Lately I've been feeling dazed
Physically I'm here
Mentally I'm in a different space
Walking around with a blank face
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Socially awkward
I don't mix well in a crowded place
They ask me
"What's on your mind"
I tell them
"If I told you, you'd be left with a bitter taste"
Cause the truth is a hard pill to swallow
So, I keep it in a case, just in case
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Leave me be
In my head space
It's my safe space
Although my depression and anxiety
Took up most of the space
I still think of you when I look at that blank space
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Lowkie ®

I'm a poet, but not a conversationalist
All these thoughts going through my head
But really, I don't talk a lot
"Why you so quiet"
My tongue is caught in a knot
I'll probably turn into a different person
After another shot
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I'm a thinker, not a speaker
If you want to get know me
You'll probably have to dig deeper
Analyzing my every response
Before finding a simple one
That might hopefully reach you
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I'm a poet, I'm a thinker
I'm not a conversationalist, I'm not a speaker
If you approach me
I'll probably keep it brief
Maybe it's a blessing or maybe it's a curse
But if you want to get to know me
I'll have to let you into my conscious first
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Lowkie©

I don't perform my own rhymes
Personally I feel I don't have much time
People tell me I'm good at poetry
Man I only do it to unwind
We all need a break sometime
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After this then I'll be fine again
Until the voices come knocking on my door again
Roll some **** up and get high again
Pick up my pen and write my train of thoughts again
So much for an escape plan
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I talk but no one is really listening
So I write these words down
Hoping you'll hear my voice as you're reading
Hoping you'll get a sense of how I'm feeling
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This is just my way of dealing
Calm down, stop worrying
This is my way of healing
My thoughts haunt me at night as I look up to the ceiling
But my heart is at ease
Because I know God is seeing me
My soul is at peace
Because God is still blessing me
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Lowkie©

Excuse me while I get this off my chest
You packed your bags and left
That was probably for the best
You probably moved on
And I probably can't be compared to the rest
I guess love isn't really love until you put it to the test
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Today I had nothing better to do
But to sit here and think about you
Believe me it wasn't something I planned to do
It just happened out of the blue
And it got me wondering
Do you still think about me too
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We both went our separate ways
But the memories still haunt me
About how close we were back in the days
Don't mind me because I'm just going through this phase
Where old memories start to replay
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Lowkie®

Feels
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Human emotions are not toys
To be played with.
Trying to fix a heart
That someone else broke.
Waking up at 3am to a text saying
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"Baby I can't take it no more
I know I promised to be strong
But I don't want to be alive anymore.
You tried fixing my broken heart
And for that I will forever be grateful
But the memories still replay
And they are painful.
I'm sorry I'm as strong as you thought I'd be
You gave me hope
And that means a lot to me
But this is goodbye
I wish you find love in this cruel world."
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With tears in my eyes
And fear in my heart
I rushed to her place
Hoping that this can't be how we depart
Every minute we were apart
I prayed that you don't follow what's in your heart
But you did
And I feel like it's my fault
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I hope you saved a seat for me
On your chariot to heaven
I promised to always be by your side
Like Romeo and Juliet
This is the part where I die
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Lowkie©

Me
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In a world full of billions
There's only one me
To some I'm fake
To some I'm real
But really I'm just me
Now I don't mean to sound full of myself
But to some I might be a need
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I don't make life about me
But my life does revolve around me
And since there's only one me
I'm in my own league
I'm unique
Just like you, her and him
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Don't focus on your flows
Rather focus on your glow
Because looking up to people
Can make you feel low
And your more than that
You're what the world needs
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Lowkie®

"I'm Okay"
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Woke up today
With a smile on my face
Life was moving at a steady pace
And I was in my "happy" phase
"Today is going to be a beautiful day"
Until you came out to play
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See I thought I was okay
And that I finally got you to obey
But I guess you were patiently waiting
To escape with your sneaky ways
You've always been good at that
You always seemed to get your way
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Don't ask me how I'm doing
I'll just say "I'm okay"
When really I'm trapped in my own head
And I being tortured on most nights while going to bed
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Don't ask me how I'm doing
I'll just say "I'm okay"
When really I don't want you to become sad
When I tell you that things upstairs are pretty bad
But that's okay
Because tomorrow I will wake up again
With a smile on my face
Hoping life moves in a steady pace
While I enter my "happy" phase
And carry on
On my Mary ways
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Lowkie ®