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Ember Evanescent Dec 2014
I as much as I hate to admit it,* I honestly love him more than the sun.



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I absolutely despise the sun with fiery loathing...



So I suppose that leaves him in the *
*"I really hate you" slot...
It's not like he "broke my heart" or some **** I wasn't "in love" with him I'm not even totally sure I believe in romantic love anymore after him and everything else, but he DID hurt me either way and I DID like him. :/ Idk. Whatever. It's just that, he is a trigger for me when something negative happens involving him, one of my "moods" kick in where I feel so worthless and ugly and horrible.

Don't ask why I loathe the sun. I know, I know it gives me life etc. etc. blah blah blah I KNOW. I know I tend to enjoy my life more with the Sun in it, but I still hate it. Actually, same goes for him too.
You left
and all that remained
were memories that lingered
in the back of my eyes
and a tingle in my nose
that waited for the worst moment
to pounce.
Nicole Jun 2014
The unknown holds to so many possibilities;
Our mind can create whatever outcome it desires,
Despite our own.
Negativity destroys everything in its path,
Burning hope and summoning depressed feelings,
Offering no way out of the madness.
I want to be positive,
But I just feel like I ruined things again,
And it hurts trying to imagine how she feels.
To go from her escape
To someone she can't even talk to anymore,
A lot would have to change.
So if I'm that much of a ****-
I keep singing I'm an ******* baby-
I'm truly beyond sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you
Or cause issues in any way
I just hope that your ok.

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