They have difficulty keeping eye contact
Because she says it's like everything stops,
Including time,
And it was just so precious.
As if they didn't know if they should smile
Or say hi or give a nod signaling a hey,
But she ends up panicking and runs away.
As if she was Cinderella.
When it was *almost midnight.

I want to be deliberate
with my eyes
mouth
feet

I want someone to see a solid
person when they see me
and not the uncertain
wavering figure
that I am.

By the time,
I finish staring.
and take time to
visualize,
what you are wearing.
I internalize with my eyes,
your body language vocalize.
I focus, as I, verbalize, by
saying something nice
and polite -- on the outside.

But,
  on the inside. . .

our eyes meet:
i caught my reflection in the corner of your eye
but I looked away
it was like a glimpse through our eyes into our souls
it happened too fast
I didn’t want to look you in the eye
don’t even ask why
I don’t want to lie
but I don’t think it would make a difference
I even think you know why
we both understand
but some things are better left unsaid.

I looked around,
you caught my eye.

I wish you hadn't.

There was eye contact,
It was strange.

At that moment,
I regreted looking at you,
but I couldn't stop.

With anger and hate,
I kept staring,
at your beautiful,
dark brown eyes.

My heart was beating,
it wanted to get out if my chest,
run away and hide from you.

I didn't listen to this pure *****,
I ended up in this situation.

I was still staring,
as I began panicking.

I looked away,
and then closed my eyes.

You had won.

But the reason why I looked away,
wasn't because I was afraid,
or because I was weak;

It was because;

I couldn't handle,

the confrontation,

with my own reality.

-a.s