I’ve come a long way to get to where I am
but the daemons keep on pursuing me
for every step I take towards the light
the dark ones are inches ahead of me

I’ve been down many a rabbit hole
and climbed back out in tatters
I’ve run towards the morning sun
until my feet were heavy and weary

I climbed to the top of the mountain
I worked my way up there
and in the faraway distance
I saw the promised land

I kept running towards the city of light
I ran with all my might
the closer I got to it, farther away it was
seems like it wasn’t meant to be

But giving up is not an option
Where will I go if I give up?
I have nowhere else to go
So keep trudging I will

When you wake up tomorrow
if I am not around, will you miss me?
If you never see me again
how much of a void will I leave in our heart?
Will you know how much I loved you?
will you truly know how much I cared?
nothing in this world mattered to me
more than being my best for you
I loved you with a pure love
that sprang up from a flawed heart
from within a flawed man
but my love for you was never flawed
But now this great gulf divides us
and it keeps getting wider
will I ever be able to reach you
to tell you one more time
that I truly love you
that I truly care
How I wish I could turn back time
if only I could start again
if only I could go back to the start
I would make it count
But what’s the point in worrying
about what can’t be changed?
I’ve already lived my life
If you could call it ‘living’

Now the only thing l can do
is to offer you the only gift I can
and that is my absence
hope it will bring you joy

I have come to the door so many times
and placed my finger on its latch
gripped it tight and then… stopped…
terrified of what’s on the other side

What’s on the other side?
would be good, or would it be bad?
would it be bliss or would it be sorrow?
I could only guess

Not knowing what lies beyond
I could never gather up the courage
to open this mysterious door
and enter through to explore

But now, after all these years
I am finally ready to open the door
no longer am I afraid of what lies beyond
this gateway that’s been my tormentor

But before I go, I must bid farewell
for this is a one-way door
everyone who’s ever walked through it
has never been seen, nevermore
for this is a one-way door and death is its name

People have said I used to be embarrassing
Little me way different from me now, Emery
She couldn’t dance, couldn’t sing
But that little girl is still inside of me

And you said that she wasn’t smart
For walking into the trap of a *******
And when you all ignored her and her broken heart
Only she was there to stay a while

So when you insult her, you insult me
Even though she was a little embarrassing
I’ll show her the whole brilliance of the world to see
Because I love her more than anything

Truth without love becomes cruel.
Love without truth becomes enablement.

Sometimes, my mind is a clear summer sky
But when life gets tough, it turns into a noisy beehive
Yet, on courage, not my fear, I shall rely
Because I don’t just want to survive
I want to finally be free and alive
I would rather keep trying
Than have my fear intensifying

-Currently listening to “This is me trying” by Taylor Swift.

I will rise
After every fall.
I will rise
And stand tall.

I will rise
Over the wall.
I will rise
Above them all.

Like the sun,
Which never dies.
Though sets every night,
Every day it does rise.

Like the ocean
Whose tides
Many times they are down,
But invariably they rise.

Like the trees,
From seeds they arise,
And heights great
They rise and rise.

After falling once,
Twice and thrice,
Again and again
I will rise and rise.

I will rise
After every fall.
After every fall
I will rise.

Doing the same thing twice
and expecting a different result
Some call it courage
others, foolishness

Why do we believe we’ll emerge new
Same script, same actors, same bait
But a new will, a new mind—
suddenly making all the right calls?

Will we stare into what once blinded us
fight what numbed us—or
shake off what sticks,
(still) fall into the same holes?

Perhaps when nature softens-
A degree warmer (against blitzing wind)
A letter that arrives (right before desperation)
A word that didn’t drop (as the last straw)

You’ll find a way again
to give like how you’ve self-taught—
remembering that forehead kiss
as a trace of being loved.

Or perhaps the truest thing  
is how courage and foolishness
are two sides of the same leaf,
lit by a different light.

To take or not to take
To change or forever be?
Never know til you take a step,
Trying better than regret.

The open window lay,
A calling to be heard,
The heart drumming to a beat,
It aches to learn.

Fear comes creeping in,
You halt and dare not sin.
You live the same,
day in and out.

Trap inside the same routine,
Too much doubt and insecurities.
You put a limit, on ability.
Believe my friend and you will see.

We need not great strength,
Wisdom or wealth.
Just a piece of courage,
Belief and help.

A leap of faith,
To trust our God
In this journey we take,
He holds us up.

He takes our hand,
And guides our hearts,
Harsh may He teach,
Like a father to his son.

He loves us so,
We need not fear,
For the journey ahead
Tis already clear,

He gave us His son,JESUS CHRIST.
Through Him there is the way,
The truth and the life.
So believe dear friends and do not die.