Dear anger, frustration, denial, and fear,
I don't want you near.
You weighed me down like a lead balloon,
So I'm letting you go to find a new home far away, like the moon.

Hey..
Sorry and thank you
I have so many words but none to explain what you do to me
Or should I say did to me

Thank you for the times, I never realised how much I needed them
Thank you for being by my side, when no one else cared
Thank you for filling the gap humanity created
Thank you for the laughs, smiles, stories and long nights I awaited

I would never forget or replace these memories
But I hope time takes them away
And I hope someone else comes my way

Im sorry it didn’t go anywhere
Im sorry I never reached you like you did to me
Im sorry for overthinking

Im sorry your folder wont open again cause I don’t crave to see you
Im sorry your messages will wait cause they don’t race my heart like they used to do

Im sorry you aren’t the centre of my world anymore
Because I found me again
So thank you for making me realise who I am

When the Cockerel  doesn't awaken


our slumber..

              We shall know that the world
is but a memory.

And we shall never awaken,

                               to the sunrise once more.

I lost so much weight
Struggling everyday
I’m so tired, very tired and I have no idea why
Staying home is boring but going out bring me anxiety and makes me feel like going home.

I miss my friends so much but I’m just too tired to get up, I want to tell them how I feel but it will sound ridiculous

Am I just sick or I have depression?
Who can I seek help from?
My world is so dark everything seems so meaningless, just so tired.

When I’m finally asleep please don’t wake me up
I’m happy there, I just want to sleep forever.

Here you are
*******

water ways
you reached the gate

but broken strings
and boken wings
left no coins upon your eyes.

Oh I'm sure you're not
to blame.
I'm sure you'll say
you're not to blame.

Can holes break
like hearts
or are you just
the waves
swerving
moving
claiming mysteries of
the moon
but predictable
in patterns
with fits
not far apart;
your spill fills
holes
but do they break
like hearts?

Or are you here
to pull him down
sailors sail but
sailors also drown.

You feel so low
so you pull them down.

No rest for the wicked, so
no rest for the rest

I know you say
you tried your best

But even the river
moves on
in the end.

Sucker hole
stuck at the gate.
Now unpaid
blank eyes
always.


The cost of the world you alienate
is now you're gone;
just wakes of hate.
no one cares to pay
your toll.

No rest for the wicked, so
no rest for the rest

I know you say
you tried your best

But even the river
moves on
in the end.

Even the river moves
on.