What is this ....

This feeling I cant explain


This feeling I get

Every time I feel something worth while for anything and it gets taken away


Why ?


I don't know ..
I don't ******* know


Its seems I am Destin  to mess everything up

Everything worth something





And I thought you might be different


That you might be the one thing I was capable of feeling something for without ******* it up


.....


Maybe I was wrong

Maybe you are not different or maybe I am just the same


The same guy that ruins every thing one way or another


What is this ?

This feeling I get every time I **** something up ?


Hahahaha
Haha

If I had to describe it .

I would say nothing

But a nothing that causes pain in everything that I do


Because no matter what I do

My mind always runs back to you


And then this nothingness returns


Cause I ****** up .....

Sorry for what I have done to you and what I'm about to do to you can't live my life anymore live in all the this pain anymore just need a break from this so I'm going to leave for awhile I may never come back but just know that your everything to me you are my light your the reason why I have a true smile now know that I care for you so much more than I do myself....well this is a good bye for awhile