Its been eight months and three days since i last saw your face.

I've been dreaming about this day since then.

I felt something in the pit of my stomach, bubbling to the surface, similar to butterflies. Im not quite sure. It felt more like my organs decided to burst at that very moment. And my lungs caved in, as if somehow in that two seconds of blindly staring, I was brought out to sea.

And you walked right through the front door.

My expression was dull, and blank. But inside it was a hurricane, rain storming from my eyes, blood tsunamis flooding my insides, my thoughts twisted and turned until they formed tornados, my finger tips charged with electricity, my heart was thunder pounding harder with each beat until it was ready to explode.

But my face was slack, completely untouched.

You lifted your head, the way you sometimes do, as if to say hello.

I was completely numb.

Its been eight months and three days since i last saw your face.

there are dreams that you grab
and drag behind you
leash pulled tight
apparently i am supposed to believe
these will all be fullfilled
but how can i know
people tend to ignore the threatening undertones
because the majority of my dreams
are nightmares

such a nice, easy, going day
it seems way to chill to be going away
it's quite and peaceful, haven't had that here for a while
I know that when I leave, it's going to end up
with tears and a smile
I'll miss the memories and friends, the small comfort I found
it's scary, I'm going back home, where disaster is all around
but it feel's so good knowing it's only hours away from leaving
I hope I don't do anything stupid like going missing
I've thought about this day since the first day I came
but now it's crazy thinking that out there it's no game
I've got skills and talents and know how to put them to work
but it's up to me, to see, if I use them, so I won't get hurt
my mind and emotions are about to burst
because I'm hoping for the best, but expecting the worst
it's only hours away, it going by real fast
it feels so great to finally say, at last!
I'm happy and nervous but that's not bad at all
I just hope that I don't begin to fall
I'm ready, everything is packed up
I'm just like a volcano, ready to erupt
I thank the ones who were always there, never turned me down
I'm glad I made friends that never let me fall to the ground
I'll be leaving real soon and it's exciting as hell
to my brothers and sisters I wish you farewell