suicidalsmiles

Oct 2014

Hbt

My hopes

I hope when you're in bed, it's night time
And you feel alone..
I'm the first thing that comes to your mind.
I hope you wonder what I'm doing
I hope you wonder if I'm ok
I hope you think about that time we were in your sisters car
I hope you think about the time I fell asleep in your arms
I hope you remember when we climbed on that building and I scraped my leg
I hope you know you were the one
I hope you know im thinking about you right now
I hope you remember when you first said you love me
I hope you remember what you promised

#love #depressed #remember #me #separated

Oct 2014

Nikhil Batheja

Remember Me

Remember Me when I'm gone
Remember Me when you are all alone
Remember Me when your dreams go home
Remember Me when lights break out
Remember Me when love is lost
Not many are like me
Not many are so brave
Not many keep up till the day break
Not many follow what i say
Not many know when to say
All Can Lie
All i Can play Trust me with whatever i say
I put my heart all out, I know the rules But i don't know how to play, they say.
Remember Me, Remember Me Is all i pray

Oct 2014

Third Legacy

Do You Remember Me?

—Do You Remember Me?

while the warmth of the sunlight's kiss
in the ascent of the blissful morning
approach the beauty of your crimson lips?

Do You Remember Me?

in the rise of the bright moon?
like your eyes when you look through mine
the pair I hope to see soon

Do You Remember Me?

when floods of rain starts to pour?
like my eyes that shed endlessly
with tears of pain I cannot endure

Do You Remember Me?

have you ever even thought of me?
or was I just another moment
to pass on by so carelessly?

Help me remember to forget

#love #sad #life #heart #hope #thoughts #sorrow #remember #you #me

Oct 2014

Monika

do you think the stars will accept me can i become one of them

I'm trying to make it all feel okay again.
These days, even smiling feels like drowning.
The scars on my wrists are starting to fade
but it isn't any easier to burn the memories from my brain.
My therapist says I need to start laughing again,
but the only thing that doesn't make me want to cry
is the way the leaves curl and some days
I can't even feel the warmth of the sun hit my skin.
My body doesn't really feel like home anymore.
My mom keeps asking why I've been skipping so many meals
she says I must be crazy to think that she doesn't notice
and maybe she's right. It's getting bad again.
My chest aches and my hands have gone numb.
I keep telling myself to be strong,
that I've gone five months without hurting myself
and I don't want to look in the mirror
because all I see is a dead girl walking.
I don't want to go outside because it reminds me that
the trees are happier than I ever will be.
I want to be weightless, I want to float away.
Let me go up there. I want to swim with the stars.

#pain #personal #selfharm #recovery #woah

Oct 2014

chloe fleming

in the morning do you think of me?

I STOLE A LOOK AT YOU WITH MY BURNT EYES AND FIERY TONGUE
I WOULD **** TO SEE YOU CRY ACID TEARS THAT POURED LIKE RAIN ON METAL
I STILL REMEMBER YOUR BUBBLING TEMPER BURNING BRIDGES WITH STICKY SWEET LIES. ALL MY LIFE ALL I NEEDED WAS A FRIEND AND ALL YOU WERE DOING WAS GETTING HIGH. YOUR MIND WAS LIKE THE NIGHT SKY DARING A SHOOTING STAR IN YOUR GLASSY EYES. I DON'T KNOW WHATS WORSE, MY ADDICTION TO THE PAIN OR YOUR BREATH ON COLD GLASS WHISPERING SOFT I LOVE YOUS IN MY COTTON CANDY DREAMS. YOU WERE ALL I NEEDED YOU WERE ALL I NEEDED TO MAKE MY HEART GLOW LIKE A GEM OR BURN ME LIKE THE FUSE WE LIT WHEN YOU DECIDED TO TAKE ME HOSTAGE TO YOUR EARTHQUAKES. I WAS THE GIRL IN THE WALL AND YOU WERE PLAYING GOD IN THE CLOUDS. BUT TRYING TO LOVE YOU WAS LIKE TRYING TO SWIM IN THE DESERT AND MAYBE I GAVE UP TOO EASY BUT THE SCARS I OWN ARE LIKE GRAFFITI SO I WROTE AND I WROTE AND I WROTE THE STORY I THOUGHT I KNEW THE MOST BUT NOW I SEE THE CRUMPLED TRAGEDIES WE'VE BECOME AND IT KILLS ME TO BE THIS NUMB. YOU CALLED ME ARMAGEDDON AND I GUESS YOU WERE RIGHT CAUSE ALL WE EVER WERE WAS 2 VINES TANGLED UP IN A FIGHT, A 10PM PUNCH AND KISS GOODNIGHT. SO DON'T CALL ME A LOVER IN FACT DON'T CALL ME AT ALL.

#love #poem #hate #******* #boys #dumb #myself #bye #suckiness

Oct 2014

Courtney Snodgrass

I wonder, do you think of me?

I wonder,
If you still lift your head,
From whatever held
Your attention,
When you hear my name.
And I wonder,
If you remember
The love we shared,
Until something else,
Grabbed your attention.