1) It's not your fault
2) You did nothing to deserve this
3) It's okay to cry
3) It's okay to cry for hours
3) It's okay to never stop crying
4) the alcohol will not help
   You'll just see them in
   everyone else
5) It's okay to hide inside of yourself
   Just don't dig too deep
   You just find them again
6) They do not control you
   They do not control you
   They do not control you
7) The leaves moving behind you
   are not them
6) they do not control you
7) If you need to run,
   ******* run,
   run until you can't breathe
   run until you can't see
   just run
1) It's not your fault
   It's not your *******
   fault
   don't you dare let anyone
   tell you it's your fault
1) It's. not. your. fault.
2) You did nothing to
   deserve this
   this isn't karma
   biting you in the ***
2) you did nothing to
   deserve this
3) Cry
   cry until you can't
   breathe
   cry until you can't
   see
   cry.
4) The alcohol will not help you
   they are not demons
   you can't drown them
   in whiskey
5) It's okay to get lost in
   yourself
   Try to find yourself again
   I understand they tore down
   everything that was
   real
   just don't dig so deep
   that you lose everything.
6) They don't control you
   I know you still feel
   locked.
   They do not control you
   They don't ******* control you
7) Run,
   find release
8) Don't forget to breathe
9) Build yourself from the ground up
   your legs are strong
   your torso is the exact image of power
   your arms can lift buildings
   your pinkies can pick
   up cars and you
   don't even blink.
   You are strong.
10) Pick yourself
    back up.
    These pieces are yours
    put them where they
    fit
    put them where you want
    them
    put them down
    throw them away
    leave them exactly where
    they are.
    Pick up yourself
    This rubble doesn't
    mean you're broken.
    These ashes just mean
    you are a phoenix and
    you will burn
    who hurt you.
1) This isn't your fault
2) You did nothing to deserve this
3) Cry
4) The alcohol will not help
5) It's okay to get lost inside yourself
6) They do not control you
7) Find release
8) Breathe
9) You are strong
10) You are a phoenix
11) Everything will be okay, you are your own

There is anger
vibrating through your bones.
There are explosions
bottled inside of you.
when will you feel whole?

I feel like me being loud mouthed
and wide minded
sets you off.
And in a matter of seconds
I'm the target of your fire.

I'm in love with a bomb.
There is no way out
with hatred.
There is no way out
with anger.
There is no way out
with fire.

When he is angry
it is his hand
on your hip. Squeezing.
When he is angry
it is his hand
in yours gripping.
Air-tight. There is no getting away
from a nuclear bomb.

Studies show
that a woman
will look for a man most like her father.
Which explains your temper.
Which explains why I can't look away
when you go off and pop like a firework.

I am in love with a bomb.
And I sat down
and locked arms with it.
When I decided that I wanted to love you forever.
When you went off
you obliterated me.
and gave me eternal youth.
Taking away every strip of innocence
clothing
and skin.
You set my world on fire.
Made me feel alive
while dying.
And I have no way to thank you for that.
I don't even know if
I should
thank you.

but here I am on my knees
begging for your forgiveness
for something so stupid.
For something so pathetic.
While you continue to belittle me.

I am in love with a bomb.
And when he went off
he engraved so many words into my mind
and "I don't love you"
were only some of them.

I am nothing new
just another small
girl with a big
mouth.
Just another blonde
with a loud music taste.
Just another **** that
you don't allow to shut
her legs.
Another shrinking woman
squeezing her waist
begging the number to
go down.

I am nothing new
chained to the floor
some force pushing
the toothbrush farther
down my throat.
Gagging, reeling.
Falling deeper.
Enslaved to an
eternal hunger.
Hating myself is
what I do best.
And I am nothing new.

For the world to see, it's real as can be
No fake, or shake in them authentic divinity
The world can only wonder maybe ponder
But never truly comprehend or understand
Our intensity, God's serenity, truths infinity
If they never felt spiritual, can feel jealous
If they never felt his beauty, maybe desire it
If they never felt what we felt, how can they
They are in no standing to judge but love
Appreciate, his works and glory, honor him
No need, for haterz or nonbelievers
They never felt his true love I guess
But babygirl don't worry at all cuz we have <3

Me: take me with yous hahaha jk
Him: yeah sure haha :)
Me: oh yay :p
Him: yay


Movies yay :) :)

I'm Fustrated
At myself
Mostly
In you
A little
I want to tell you
I like you
A lot
A **** load
Okay
Like yeah
But
I can't
I'm fucken scared
Scared it'll ruin what we have
Already
Fucken scared
It'll ruin our friendship
What do I do

I can't sleep
The insomniac back
I want him
I have him
But not quite
He doesn't know I like him
Idk if he likes me
I'm stuck
Idk what to do
I'm upset
Fustrated
Sad
Angry
Messed up
Verge of tears
This fucken ****
*****
I hate this *******