i still fly
with tired wings

I want to lay my head on your lap
having you pet me and play with my hair

Sing for you an old song,
that reminds me of you

And then talk to you about the random-est of things
seeing you smile and laugh over my silly thoughts

I hope to see you happy then,
as my consciousness slip away and drifting to sleep

I saw the moon and all the stars
in your gorgeous eyes.
I flew away from hell to chase heaven by your side.
I’m left to ask, “Is this my demise?”

You ripped me apart,
tearing down my shields and walls,
removing every bit of flesh wrapped in darkness.
“Is this vulnerability?”, I asked

When I was finally with you,
everything changed.
Then a flame ignited, strange yet so familiar.
I felt the fire in my veins,
wanting to burn,
dying for a taste
of the untamed flame.
As I had a taste of heaven,
I remembered and asked,
“Is this love?”

You took my breath away,
threw me right off the tracks.
I left everything I knew and now
I’m out of my mind;
You really got me this time.
You got me doing things I cannot explain
Maybe I’m just going insane

But I fell in love with you.
And for a moment of time you loved me too.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

And over time,
My pen stopped bleeding
But my heart didn't

Break my bones;
cut my throat.
Pull me open,
learn the ropes.

Breath me in;
taste the fear.
Shank my skin;
stand and cheer.

Kick my head;
let me bleed.
Unbolt my veins;
enjoy the read.

Gouge my eyes;
punch my face.
Wrap me up
in your embrace.

You were always loving me "despite"
I needed you to love me "because"