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3.7k · Dec 2013
I love myself
Shafira Dec 2013
I love myself
because
not you
not him
not her
not them
not we
not us
nobody
would
ever
love me
the way
I love myself.



December 1st 2013, 11.45 p.m
2.0k · Oct 2014
Loneliness as a room
Shafira Oct 2014
Loneliness as room is just an endless big white room
with nothing inside
everything is white
We've been trapped in this room
for years
yet we're still trying
to find the exit
Loneliness as a room will eat you alive
they eat you from
the inside
slowly
making your inside
turns to stone
Loneliness as a room makes you hear nothing
but your own voice
see nothing
but your own shadow
they make you deaf and blind from
outside world
they protect you from the creatures
that trying to hurt you
Loneliness as room  makes you blind
makes you deaf
because it turns you
into a stone
a blank page
a ghost
so you don't have to feel
to see
to hear
anymore.





October 8th 2014, 12:32 a.m
1.9k · Mar 2014
Swimming
Shafira Mar 2014
Your love
is like
an ocean
a very deep ocean
deeper,
deeper,
until
I can't swim
anymore
and I started to
sink
and never
afloat
again.



March 13th 2014, 10.54 p.m
Shafira Mar 2014
We are just like this poetry
unflattering
unappealing
unappreciated

unfinis—


March 15th 2014, 1:15 a.m.
Shafira Nov 2013
I'm like a bad
haircut
I'm like a cold coffee
you spilled
I'm the maggot
to your garbage
I'm the parasite
to your plant
I'm the tears
to your sadness.

Here I am
every single thing
I do
always makes you
suffer
more
even more

I really wished that
one day
I will be diamond
to your crown
cure
to all of your diseases
genie
to all of your
wishes

I'm sorry
I'm not perfect enough
to make us
perfect
together.


November 26th 2013, 8:33 a.m
1.2k · Dec 2016
A Faceless Man
Shafira Dec 2016
I saw a faceless man on the hallway today,
on the street the other day
also on my dream when I drift away
it's funny, I couldn't see his face lately
but I could remember
his fragrance
his voice
his laugh
his hands
his touch
his touch!
I could remember everything,
every single thing
every single inch of him
every single of his sweet words
except his face
I swear, his face used to be the last thing I saw before I fell asleep
or when we exchange our feelings on his bed
and now I couldn't see or remember anything about it
but I think I've figured it out,
the reason why he's now a faceless man
it's because love always have a face
and that's the reason why I couldn't see his face
anymore.
anagapesis
(noun) A rare and dead word, anagapesis is defined as the loss of feelings for someone you used to love. It is the process of falling out of love.
Shafira May 2019
“I love you” I confessed to him,

“I can’t do this,” he answered,

“it’s already morning.”
1.1k · Nov 2016
Down, Under
Shafira Nov 2016
people always pray to find the right person that will love them
with their hand
between their
thighs.
980 · Nov 2013
Wonder Man
Shafira Nov 2013
I was wondering,
keep wondering,
can't stop wondering,
and still wondering,
if you are worth all the tears I shed
every night
or all of my prayers to God
or all of my grades at school
or every page on my diary.

I was wondering
how in the world your smile
could save my entire day
or week
or month
or year
or the rest of my life.

I was wondering
why did God separate us apart from
each other
thousand,
even million miles away.

I was wondering
when will you are going to
sit next to me
on my sleepless night,
rubbing my back
and tell me that everything will be alright.

Because,
after all of these wonders
all I can do is praying
wishing that
you will always be happy
out there
and I wish I will always be happy
in here.

But,
I also pray
and wishing that one day,
we will be happy
together
for the rest of
our life.



November 24th 2013, 2:11 a.m
764 · Oct 2014
Blank Empty Page
Shafira Oct 2014
I don't have any words left
in my mouth
Life has take it all away
I don't have any tears left
in my eyes
Life has take it all away
I could still
remember
when life take it all away
everything that
I had
to the very last
to the very end
I'm a hole
I'm a hollow
I'm a ghost
I'm the undead
do not fear me
because I have nothing left.


October 9th, 2014. 09:25 p.m
554 · Feb 2016
This is How It Ends
Shafira Feb 2016
It all started with your face,
when I saw you at the hallway that day with one of your friend
funny how everything feels like déjà vu when I first met you,
it feels like I saw you from somewhere else before
but not here,
not there,
or maybe not in this life,
but I've met you somewhere.
I remember I couldn't stop looking at your face,
that sharp jawline,
that pointy nose,
that stubble,
that long lashes,
that face that I probably couldn't forget for the rest of my life.


It all started with your body,
how I want those arms to hold me tight
on the sleepless night,
or when I'm crying,
or when you're happy,
as you linger your arms around my neck.
I want to hear your beating heart as you hold me tight,
I want your hands to softly caress my hair and my face,
I want your fingers to intertwined with mine,
I want your body as a whole,
as it is.


It all started with you eyes,
those pretty brown pair of eyes,
that day when you saw me at a crowded place
at first glance,
there were a hundred pairs of eyes around you
but yours were locked directly at mine
or the day when I cut my hair so short,
you were staring at me,
observing it,
quietly,
for a distance
as it's something you never saw before.
it was your eyes that made me realize that
maybe I have a crush on you.


It all started with you lips,
oh, how I could I will ever forget your cheeky grin,
your smirk,
your smile,
wishing that lips could kiss me
in my cheek,
lips,
nose,
neck,
every single inch of my skin,
everywhere,
it was your lips that made me realize that
maybe I have fallen deeply for you.


It all started with your voice
they are so soft,
your words are so sweet and warm,
like a caramel
funny, because you never said some thing that sounds sweet to me
but that made me realize that,
maybe I love you.


It all ends with your heart,
because it beats for someone else,
because your eyes falls for someone prettier than me,
because your body choose to collide with others, not mine,
because your lips prefers to kiss someone with a softer lips,
because "I love you" wasn't something that meant to me, after all

This is how it ends,
but that's not how my love ends.
I just wanna kiss your right in your ******* face.
474 · Mar 2014
Mute.
Shafira Mar 2014
You are all the words
that
I have
in my mouth
But then, you left me
alone
and I become
speechless.



March 13th 2014, 10.42 p.m
Shafira Nov 2013
You are like the sand
I can't held you
I can't let you go
either
because you are
easily blown by
the wind
and just
disappear.

Loving you is like
salting a sea
pointless
meaningless
time wasting
but still, I did it
because it's you.

But,
one thing you should know
I would still love you
even when you are
never know
if I ever existed in
this world
or not
or when the oceans
and the continents
separate us
in different part
of the world
or even when you are
marry each girl
in this earth
except me.

It doesn't matter
it's not a big deal
I'm not a big deal
but
you are

I do not care
I just love you
so much.



November 25th 2013, 9:38 p.m
403 · Dec 2013
Her, not me
Shafira Dec 2013
I am not magnificent
not her

I am not a finery
not her

I am not a carcanet
nor a diamond
not her

I am no angel
not her

I was not made from all the
good things in this
world
not her

I am a ghost
not human
nor any living thing
not her

I am hateful
not her

I am angry
with me
not her
not you

I am not her
that's not your fault
she's beautiful.



December 2nd 2013, 10.58 p.m
364 · May 2014
Stay
Shafira May 2014
He left.


I stop believing.
I stop living.




May 15th 2014, 1:33 p.m.
359 · Dec 2013
-
Shafira Dec 2013
-
I am a mistake
I am a dissapointment
I wish
I wasn't
born
at all.



December 13th 2013, 5:54 p.m.
356 · Dec 2013
You are all the dream
Shafira Dec 2013
You are all
the dream
I ever
asked
for

to exist.



December 1st 2013, 11.32 p.m
326 · May 2019
Where Have I Been?
Shafira May 2019
I’m stumbling my way home
and tripped on my own backyard
I went astray
inside my own home
but I’m not home
this is not a home
there was no home

I stumble accross so many nights
and got lost
in the break of dawns
over and over
again

but it’s dark outside
where am I?
how long have I been here?
can I go home now?
I long for my childhood days, but it’s gone forever

— The End —