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Feb 2020 · 1.5k
even more unspoken words.
emi Feb 2020
I struggle to click the keys, watching the cursor blink. Everything in me feels heavy. I feel you crawling around inside my bones. I've asked you to leave hundreds of times. But you stay in my head and ignore my wishes. You ruined another good day. I feel myself trying to reject you from my thoughts, but the more I try the more I think about it. I feel myself tense. I feel my body grow tired. I don't wanna fight. I don't wanna think. I don't want it. I don't want you. I find it kind of ironic that it's been a decade and we still play that game- where you don't know. You don't know about that one day. I'm stuck here picking up the pieces you dropped since then. *******. I wish you knew how much pain you cause. You were supposed to hug all my pain away, but this pain you created can't be tamed.
yet another letter to my brother
Feb 2020 · 298
Truths No. 3
emi Feb 2020
i beg for air,
and you still wont let me go.
Feb 2020 · 227
Someday.
emi Feb 2020
and she could have been a flower if her petals hadn't been plucked.
but she will bloom once again someday.
Feb 2020 · 309
The pain you bring
emi Feb 2020
You planted a knife in me,
ten inches deep
almost a decade ago.

and I can't get it out.

you can only push it deeper.
and you still do,
without trying.
Feb 2020 · 292
Truths No. 2
emi Feb 2020
I don't blame you; the truth hurts.
Silence must have been better than admitting your son was really a monster.
Feb 2020 · 375
Truths No. 1
emi Feb 2020
The white pages are smeared with ink and tears.
And I never tell a soul what's written on those pages.
Feb 2020 · 1.7k
Inferior.
emi Feb 2020
Inferior. That's what I am compared to him.
He can do as he pleases while I am the mere thing he used for his own gratification once or twice.

But that's what happens when you give someone everything, and they degrade you after turning you into nothing. That's what happens when you're inferior. That's what happens to scared little girls. That's what happens when you're meant to fend for yourself. That's what happens, when from the start, you're nothing.
(An excerpt from my new years)

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