It was may
We met
It was june-july-august
We match
It was september-october
Great longing and craving
For sure got closer
It was november
At the airport we met
New city
Adventure we‘ve had
It was december
You left

You win
You lose
You move on
And there are times
You lay next to this one soul
And wish
This moment
This person stays for a long time
Maybe forever
And if not
You‘ll be calm
Because you know
Maybe not in that moment
But you know
More of those moments
Are yet to come
To let you shine
Like the brightest star in the sky

My fear became real
My love for you gone
My eyes dry
You disappear
In my mind
I hold you tight but
The feeling I feel
Deep inside me
No one should know
My biggest fear
As a secret
I keep it
My dear
I don’t want to lose you

I‘ll wait,
I‘ll wait for that morning
My mind not filled with you
For that evening
Not thinking about you
Till only a memory is left
Only a little piece hidden
And till then
Till then I‘ll be fine.

With the rain and the cold
I let you go
Out of my mind and my soul
Knowing, us not being where I want
But knowing
Our hearts will become
The best version of ourselves
When we reached the place
We belong

My dear
You made me blind
Am I crazy to still believe
You are one of a kind?
I lost the sight
Can't express the feelings I feel
But maybe this
Will be a good start for relieve
I let you go
Out of my mind and my soul
Before I drown
In the deep water of love and desire

Day by day it gets more clear,
You‘re about to disappear,
With every breath,
With every morning,
There’s no more longing,
No bitter-sweet tear,
You‘re more far away,
It gets more clear,
What I have in my heart left,
The deep memories I’ve kept,
The laughter we’ve shared,
The giggles,
The joy,
The sparks and shines we‘ve had,
Surrounded us,
Like the milky way in its galaxy,
Besides that,
The dark grey shimmer you’ve left,
I let go,
I let go of that,
So day by day it gets more clear,
The shimmer left,
The sparks kept,
You‘re about to disappear.

Gave you a gift of mine,
My soul, sparkling and shimmering,
Like the sea with the moonlight on,
I poured my heart into yours,
Sensitive and introvert,
Into the lovely hands of yours,
Expecting you to keep it save,
I whispered your name,
With every breath I take,
Over and over again,
And only by the very moment you left,
I fully realized,
My soul is dull,
My heart is numb,
My breath is thin,
You took everything.

Like a soft cloud
It is surrounding me
My thoughts far away
My heart warm and save
A state of mind
Where happiness and sadness
Cross each others way
And are able to live in peace

Don’t come back
Promise me that
Stay where you are
Stay where you at
I can't lose you again
If you do come back
Promise me
To stay and not leave
I'm not able to lose you again
And I know
You can’t give what I desire
So at least
Promise me
To not come back
Stay where you are
Stay where you at
I don't want to lose you again

And for a short time baby
You made me believe
That in reality
There can still be
A fairytale lived

I catch myself
Skipping the songs I can't listen to
The ones
That ship me too close back to you

And if you find yourself lost sometimes
Look up in the sky
Cos we‘re both looking at the same stars
The same moon
In the same world
Maybe at the same time
We‘re connected to reality by the same line

Forever missing you
Oceans away
Forever longing the taste of your lips
Over the sea
Forever asking myself
What could've been
As I stand by the shore
And the wind caress my skin

And with every cigarette
My mind is filled
With more pictures of you
With more memories
Keeping me up at night
How will I ever get through this
Knowing the words you said as you left?
Should I wait or should I let it pass?
None of it will ever last
Because with every cigarette
There will be more
Get out of my head
Get out of my soul
This isn‘t what I have asked for
This isn‘t what I have pictured
But with every cigarette
There is more of you
And less of me
Maybe stop smoking
Would be the best for me.

For some reason
I still believe
You are one of a kind
For some reason
I still want you
To soften my downs
And decorate my highs
But most of all
I‘m holding on
To the reason
To be able
Living without

Talking to myself in the third person,
Like I‘d listen,
Like I‘d care,
But somehow it helps,
To sort my mess and get clear.

I find myself
Walking in the dark
With tears in my eyes
And a numb feeling in my heart
Thinking about everything that changed
Thinking about the wish I‘ve made
Under the shooting star we saw
Realizing now
That this one
This one
Is never gonna be fullfilled

Sometimes
I find myself melting in this place
Where everything around me mutes
Where nothing matters
Nothing exists
Where nothing counts
And everything petrifies in silence
But yet so loud
That only you can scream me out

Let me lay next to you
Let me hold your hand
Let me kiss your neck
Your chest
And the face of yours
Let me feel your skin on mine
Your breath
Your heartbeat synchrone to mine
Let me whisper
How much your lips
Remind me of my future
You are complete , you are my light
Let me hear your voice
Silent and warm;
Let us melt into one
And stay forever, be mine