another sleepless night
spent worrying about everything and nothing at all.
instead of living in the presence
I am lost in my thoughts
worrying about what might be.
what might be.

whoever you are
wherever you are
i want you to know that
it is okay not to be okay
it is okay to feel salty tears on your cheeks,
traveling down your face.
reaching out can be scary
but it is okay to ask for help
although you may not know now
there are people that care about you

show up and do it.
i love you.
just keep going.

breathing in.
streaks of sunlight beaming
on the mirroring pond.
unnatural looking azure blue depths
surrounded by the often-seen tones of grey and brown
forcing you into a liminal space
between reality and the so-called fairy world.

breathing out.
looking around seeing trees,
higher than any skyscraper built,
some individuals, some families
discovering this magical place you want to keep to yourself.
scared that every breath taken around the blue fountain will cause its disappearance.

imagine all your worries lifted from your shoulders
locked away from your mind
the key buried in a garden full of roses

take a deep breath
and know
everything will be okay

through the good
through the bad
through love
through pain
you are my constant.

that one person.
you know they will make you happy and destroy you.
longing touches, spilt secrets.
warm smiles, silent hypocrisy.
I need you.
I fear you.
love me.
please, just love me.
hold me and tell me
everything is going to be alright.

do you trust easily?