Take all your emotions and throw them away,
try to keep your feelings at bay.
I know you never want to feel this way,
one day I promise you...I'll make him pay.
Please don't let your mind stray,
I know your emotions have gone down this dark alleyway.
You feel like that day was your doomsday,
I wish I could tie him to a ******* railway.
And maybe even push him down a stairway...
I'm sorry that he made you feel this way,
please just take the thought of him put it on a fishing line and castaway.
Darling don't pay attention to what people say,
because his time will come on judgement day.
So just wait because this rainy day
will pass and the sun will rise making it feel like Friday,
and all the feelings that you feel today
will be better than the ones you felt yesterday.

Before I met you I slept with a light,

A way to protect myself from all the darkness in my life.


Then with you I did not need a light,

Because you protected me from all the monsters in the night.


Now that you are gone,

All I have left is empty darkness and no protection, just me and my will to be strong.

I hate what I have become
Someone incapable of love
Never long lasting
I've been emotionally fasting
You've changed who I was
I will never be the same because
Of you....I'm no longer that hopeless romantic
I'm now that girl who wish she never had it
Being in love was a myth
All those months proved it
With all your lies
Now my heart is lower in size
It's hard to trust new people I meet
Because there is nothing I can do but keep
Remembering everything you put me through
Now I can't move onto something new
As I stare into space, standing quietly and still
I don't think anyone can save me or ever will

I don't know what you see in "her"
You ask me to come over at 1 am
I go cause it feels familiar
But every time it ends
I say I'm never coming back again
Now it feels wrong
You say, "it's okay"
But I'm slowly becoming a ticking time bomb
And I really don't want to stay
Too many lies, and I cry
Cause with you I feel numb
I've never felt so dumb
In your arms
While there's alarms
Ringing in my head
Reminding me that I should leave instead
But I wait and wait till I'm kicked out
And theres something I hate about you without a doubt
So why do I keep doing this to myself
While you're out I'm avoiding everyone else
I don't understand anything anymore
I'm always left hurt mentally, emotionally, and physically sore
Maybe I'll know
When I finally have the courage to let you go

Time keeps ticking in my head
As I think of all the beasts
hidden beneath my bed

The tight space in my skull
makes me feel claustrophobic.
Out of breath,
to rethink every thought is aerobic

Wasting minutes as I reacquaint
with every regret  
Wishing I could breath and finally forget


But here I am,  listening
to that clock in my head
that keeps ticking

I'm stupid
I'm a nuisance
I'm useless
I'm sad
I'm angry
I'm ugly
I feel as if my life has brought a tumor into the lives of those around
I'm a leech for affection but I give none in return
I let myself be stepped on to feel useful to others
Use me
Use me
Use me
I can't do anything
A punching bag will do
The idea doesn't sicken me
Bury me under a tree
Make use of me
At least I'll be finally doing my part
In this world