If I shared with you every thought I think,
If I shared with you every dream I dreamt,
If I tried to see you each time I blink,
If you’re the meaning of each word I meant,
If yours were the heartbeat inside my chest,
If yours were the voice I hear speak to me,
If my need for closeness gave you no rest,
If being yours is all I want to be,
If some part of you is what makes me whole,
If your hand were all my hand ever held,
If your love alone inhabits my soul,
If you were the only grace I beheld,
If all that I have is my love for you,
I have enough if you feel that way, too.

My tears owe themselves to delight,
Flowing feeling I cannot fight,
Same tears that were sadness at night
Blur my eyes in elation’s light.

My tears owe to feelings so strong,
A heart that’s been toyed with too long,
Same tears for no love to belong
Celebrate that I was so wrong.

My tears owe to struggles with fate,
Lost loves to which none can relate,
Same tears cry alone while they wait
Flow from the joy of my soulmate.

My tears owe to emotions raw
Convinced I was creation’s flaw,
Same tears of shame as I withdraw
Thankful I embrace love with awe.

If he resists his tendency
To inhabit his fantasy,
Would he welcome reality,
Over his made up tragedy?

Open to let his eyes be true,
Perceiving real as something new,
Made to feel life like his dreams do,
When dreaming is all that he knew?

To live for real to no avail,
His fantasies would never fail.
He kept the world behind a veil,
No real people matched his tale.

You’d say all his fantasy does
Is fantasize imagined flaws.
He’d love the real him because
He was fantastic as he was.

An end to war
The world is free
All sickness ends
The blind can see
These hopes have less
Futility
Than hope you’d fall
In love with me.

To never sin
To never die
Go back in time
To learn to fly
Those hopes can’t match
Futility
Of hope you’d fall
In love with me

To hold the stars
To swim on land
To outrun light
Count grains of sand
Not even their
Futility
Match hope you’d fall
In love with me.

If I had one
Ability
I’d use all my
Capacity
But it would be
Futility
You’ll never fall
In love with me.

Isn’t “love” more varied than “snow,”
For which there’s more than fifty words,
In language of the Eskimo?

No two loves are ever the same,
It’s the greatest understatement,
Two loves should not have the same name.

Love’s a unique organism
With its own character and traits,
And not by nominalism.

Love. A word so insufficient.
For each time I say “I love you,”
It feels horribly deficient.

These poems come from dreams,
From places where there are no rules,
No conventions,
Where there is more rhyme than reason.

These poems come from dreams,
From random scattered images,
No connections,
Where things just allude to what’s real.

These poems come from dreams,
From a way to communicate,
No clarity,
Where feelings overtake the mind.

These poems come from dreams,
From a desperate need to be heard,
No filtering,
Where raw emotions author words.

She looks at me enchanting with her eyes,
Oblivious to how she stirs my heart.
The passion she creates is her surprise
As is the sorrow felt when she departs.

She laughs and I long to be by her side,
Each story makes me blush with puppy love,
Is she aware of how I feel inside?
She occupies each thought I’m thinking of.

To hear her voice transports to fantasy,
Where love could never be as real as this.
Without her love I can’t live happily,
When she’s away I dream about her kiss.

What I mean to her there’s no need to speak,
While I feel that together we’re unique.

The moment came quite suddenly,
Belied by how momentously,
I let your soul inhabit me,
When I first knew that you got me.

No warning what would come to be,
It came so unexpectedly,
I let you give yourself to me,
Somehow I knew that you got me.

We met and I had certainty,
But how is still a mystery,
That I would let you close to me,
I knew someday that you’d get me.

I gave you my love instantly,
No fear you’d turn your back on me,
I let you change eternity,
Because I knew that you got me.

We’re an improbability,
We speak together inwardly,
Communicating silently,
That I got you and you got me.

An autumn leaf, once so green and so full
Fallen, dried, trampled in broken pieces.
A blade of grass, green, slender and alone,
Uprooted, lifelessly floating away.
A flower, once bright and full of nectar,
Wilting, pale, petals heavy on the stem.
A ravaged elm, as tall as it once was,
But hollow, gray, refuge for emptiness.
A shell, home to life, spit out by the sea,
Cracking underfoot, dead, a mere object.
Me, strong in spirit, alive and grateful,
More dead than those things, if not for your love.

Felt swaddled like a newborn child,
Slept peacefully in dreamy bliss.
Those were the nights before you smiled.
Can’t sleep without your goodnight kiss.

My pillow perfect for my head,
Could fall asleep so easily.
Now roll back and forth ‘cross my bed,
Can’t sleep without you next to me.

My empty bed would hold my dreams,
My silent slumber had no fear.
But you, my love, are real it seems,
I lie awake if you’re not here.

Could close my eyes just ‘ere the dawn,
And feel refreshed throughout the day.
But dusk to sunrise with you gone,
Restless longing won’t go away.

I used to sleep below the sun,
Despite the light down from above.
Though darkness needs another one,
I’ve traded sleep for all your love.

I have a question of philosophy
That bears directly on humanity.
Are the feelings I feel so soulfully
A result of my physicality?

Are my emotions incorporeal?
If I had no body would I still feel?
Feelings may not be the pure soul ideal.
What I sense does make my emotions real.

And if emotions are ****** bound,
Love and compassion now seem so unsound.
Feelings are stirred by what I see around;
I think my spirit world is earthly bound.

We’re taught ****** drives are so impure.
I find comfort knowing that’s not so sure.
I shall no more resist the world’s allure,
For true love on earth is the only cure.

I keep trying to forget you
As impossible as it seems
But from the first time I met you
You’ve been a fixture in my dreams.

There’s no moment when I see you
I don’t pretend we’re together
Or you felt the same for me too
That your love was “when” not “whether.”

Each time I look into your eyes
I see so much love reflected
But it’s all mine I realize
And I come away rejected.

Although you effortlessly smile
To draw in my adoration
We’re separated by a mile
Of futile anticipation.

I’m going to keep loving you
From first sight until forever
I’ve tried to stop and wanted to
Even though you’ve told me “Never.”

If my eyelids were a canvas
Upon which I could paint your smile,
I'd never open them again,
I'd sleep forever and a while.

If I could see in every cloud,
The gentleness of your embrace,
I'd leap from the tallest building,
And try to float away in space.

If the sparkle of each snowflake
Shined like the glimmer in your eyes,
I'd get buried in a blizzard
Until my frostbitten demise.

If I could find a piece of cloth
To hold me close the way you do,
I'd have to mummify myself
So I'd be always held by you.

If there were ever such a mind
In which you were its only thought,
I don't have to imagine it.
That's just what loving you has brought.

It makes change irreversible,
It’s powerful and terrible,
It moves a person’s soul to act,
Not even strength is left intact.

It forces unexamined fears,
It’s the most common cause of tears,
Once it’s alive can’t be undone,
Unstoppable once it’s begun.

You can’t resist when it arrives,
You only hope that hope survives,
In its wake are broken pieces,
We can’t avoid its caprices.

A weapon not to be deployed,
But one that no one can avoid,
To make a change you can’t undo,
Risk telling someone “I love you.”

I’m sorry this is
How it has to be
It hurts just to say
It’s not you it’s me.

I know you can’t see
A reason to end
But how I’m feeling
I can’t be your friend.

It’s wholly my choice
You are not to blame
It is not your fault
You don’t feel the same.

I’m stopped dead by hope
Each day I live through
That you’ll feel in love
Like I am with you

I did not know when
I made you my friend
That I’d fall in love
And make this the end.

I feel so guilty
I’ve tried to be true
Now I’m selfishly
Abandoning you

Know that I love you
Though you feel betrayed
I need to find peace
From this mess I made.

I’ll fall out of love
Or move on some way
And I just hope you
Forgive me someday.

With what fingers have I caressed your skin?
With whose open arms have I let you in?
What lips did I gently press to your cheek?
With what eyes beheld the beauty I seek?

What heart beats now next to yours in your chest?
What arms pull you close when I lie to rest?
What nose inhales the essence of your scent?
What eyes reflect what the look in yours meant?

What hair stands on end when it feels your touch?
What spine feels chills from loving so much?
With what ears do I hear your every word?
What tears of joy have made your image blurred?

Who is this man who you’ve so affected?
Whose whole body has been redirected?
The first time you kissed me is when I knew—
I’ve lost control of my body to you.