I wasn't supposed to love you.

But here I am.

Barely able to breathe because your words were nothing but empty promises.
Silently crying as I scroll through months of old memories that once seemed perfect but are nothing more than bittersweet dreams.
Feeling the numb emptiness in my chest because I was too scared, because I wasn't enough.
Hating myself because I have no right to feel heartbroken over our situation.
Begging myself to stop because I know better, so why can't I do better?

I wasn't supposed to love you.
You were never mine to love.

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
I know where you come from
Why you bleed

How you still laugh
How hard you cry
Why your still here
Why you still try

Don’t give it up
Don’t give it out
Just stop and listen to me now

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
I know what your feeling
How it’s hard to breathe

What your doing
Who you are
Where your going
And how far

Don’t give up love
Don’t give up faith
Know your purpose and your place

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
There is hope
And that’s all we need

Run out of bad luck,
This is something else

Was never enough,
I could slowly tell.

Our hearts pump bad blood
A cultivating self

I thought I could trust
You with all I felt.

But I feel nothing..
When you're so far away.

No I feel something..
I feel okay
Without you
I'm sorry to say

It's me
Was me
Has been me the whole time.

Disease
What eats
At me
And fuels me with lies

I see
What is Beneath
And what's inside

I bleed
I feed
And need
To save my own life.

Goodbye

I may not be
The smartest girl,
I may not be the happiest.
I may not be the apple of
Everyone's eye.
I may be more broken
Than I am beautiful.
But I promise I
Am
Still worth
Loving.

I let you in.
You are free to go
But please
Don't break anything
On your way out.

I gave you
The whole world,
The sun,
Moon,
Stars.
It wasn't until you left,
And I sat in the sunless days
And the moonless nights,
That I realized you took
Everything
And gave
Nothing.