I am going insane.
Oh wait, I already am.
I see the demons already,
I see the floods.
At least I don't see,
crimson blood.

.



she walk on egg shells lost in fear

//

Oh she

In her dying world

•

She writes to a lover who ain't never there !


He didn't want to die with her

She doesn't have the will to love

So she just pretends

And writes her poems for imaginary friends


In her dying world


;:;


Oh yes


On egg shells !

Playing games impossible to win

//


She opens her door but no one comes in

Cause she never opens her heart


||


Walkin in fear

Begging for love but won't let no body come near


//


Lost in her dying world


Lovely little girl she is



.

.



Reading the poetry of the dumb *****

Trying to cram a boy

Into the steel trap vacancy

Of their meaningless lives

While I probe into the lines

Hoping to find a remnant

Of something human



/////
//              //

||

the gentle power

( creation )

The saint in celestial wisdom

Gazes into the pulsations of grace and humility

That linger amid

The countless assassinations

That are the mark of the world's depravity

•


dumb **** life !

The loveless pretensions !

( no one is really here at all )

)(

Just a bunch of kids

Getting ready to be *****

//

By others

And by themselves !

//

The stream that flows by the cabin door

)(

The pure maiden !


//

Alive in the healing magic of her art !

)(

The tenderest memories !

)(

And we ALL are there

::

The young boys and girls !

The sacred words !

The wealth amid the poverty

)(

We DO understand !


////

Along the broken dream streets

We stumble

Some

Trying to escape madness into the

Hearts of each other


Most trying to find solace

In the exicitment of pain

And the herd mentality

Of terminal indifference

•••


Child !

Be ready to choose


Even l am mortal

And will be here for only a little while more !

|||

So

Don't get slimed by a dumb ****

And their promises of numbness

As a form of peace !

We are the warriors

;;

The stream flows by the cabin door


See the pure maiden !

Find the love that is true


You are ALWAYS welcome there


.

.



A loveless Nation

( everyone claiming to be so much .... " in love ! ")

)(


But then :

All the movies are about zombies and vampires !!!!

( our true selves appear ! )

)(


The only thing we do

Openly

Is to destroy ourselves

We do it openly but not

Honestly

)(

We call our immaculate hatred

" LOVE ! "

•

All the better to hurt someone

•


Despite all the claims to love and respect for

All our fellow poets here

The fact that we purposefully distort Reality

in our works in order to confuse each other

Is a sign of total disrespect and hatred !

This disprepect and hatred

Is our real feelings for each other

•


Why should a poet give a **** about what your so called lover feels about you


When obvously he or she

Don't give a **** about you )????

Such is our daily dying in the public square !

Muddy ****** uselessness

!

I love you


(?so ******* what?)

•


We only talk of love for a purpose !!


Sick and demented !!


But a purpose !!!


( to cause and spread pain )

Yep

that's as ugly as we are

•



.

i'm breaking
i can't be fixed
i'm missing
but i wont be missed

still shaking
from what i fear
i can't let you in
so, don't come near

i guess you are right
i'm way too difficult
& i'm fighting a battle
that i will never win

i have so many flaws
i don't know where to start
from my messed up hair
to my messed up heart

so, what's the point
to continue this fight??
when my restless days
turn into restless nights

this life hasn't been fair
i can finally say
that nobody care
& it hurts like hell