I have something to say.
It's been running inside my mind.


I've been meaning to tell you this the whole time.

Just 50 steps away from your doorsteps

A nervous young lad forever ill be,
along with this words that you might never hear.

I dont know where to start,
Im so near yet so far ..

But still, i have to say this now...

I love you...

Way back then till this moment now..

My dearest Anayla,

My brain does not work quite well tonight. I have this odd feeling inside that makes me lose my mind.

Lost in the sea of thoughts, I feel like im the protagonist of the movie "life of Pi". The only difference is he got stranded at sea and I on this blank sheets.

Im diving within my thoughts, swimming across these different words. I have swam deeper and deeper until I realized Im swimming farther from what I really feel.

I do not have the right words tonight and to confess in this manner does not feel quite right.

I know you are very much busy to hear this through. That is why I must tell you that I have loved you and this is very much true.

Lilahk

Am I a fool?
For staring at our picture for so long?
For waiting at your text on my phone?
For missing you as I lay on the floor?
For loving you even more?
Am I a fool or am I just a normal dude,
Lost in this room, and thinks he's a fool?
Am I a fool?

Staring at the windshield at 12:34 in the morning
I turn on the radio, our song played and now I'm mourning

I kept reminiscing of what we used to be, what we could've been, what we should've been.

Now rain pours down like there's no tomorrow
Im quite unsure how, but it entered and soaked my face

When will this rain stop, it burns and tires my eyes now

I love you,
but Im too scared to admit it.

Tonight I dance,
You called once,
I took that chance,
Waiting for a glance.

Tonight we walked,
You never talked,
Since then i thought
"I waited and rot".

Tonight I listen,
You had suspicions,
And gave me conditions,
In the end you left me

Because of traditions

An act not shown,
A scent not smelled,
A food not eaten,
A voice not heard,
A gift not given,
And a love not returned,
I could have done more.
If only she stayed a bit longer.

The note that states the future goal, friend of friends is all we know.
Then soon we grouped and understood, at old alabang and mercy's peak
The night of bond we shared ideas, a veil removed to hide the truth.
Feelings planted, watered and cared, questions asked but left unsaid.
A test of strength for knowledge we took, We bathe, rejoiced, and fought at noon. Traveled we did like a one-way-day trip, the plant of feelings evolved once more.
The day has come for us to learn, you passed, i failed, for that we learn.
A test for patience always came, you and i whom they declined.
We stayed, we run, we fought, we hide, side-by-side we really thrive.
Trouble came and made things worst, we tried and still made things work.
The love of ours is so unique, that no shakespears could compete.

I don't know you
But you dance and you sing.

I don't know you
But you loved poetry.

I don't know you
But you weighed 43.

I don't know you
But size 4, that's your feet.

I don't know you
But your height, is it 5'?

I don't know you
But you were born on december 8.

I don't know you
But i think your waist is 28.

I don't know you
But you had secrets that I kept.

"I don't know you,
I really don't."

That's what I said,
you said you'd believed me though.

I don't know you,
But something tells me

You already know,
That i really do.

Leaving you was never my choice.
It was a neccessity.

A red circle appeared on the screen,
An unknown friend request it seems.
Accepted as an unknown friend,
And checked the timelines end.

A red circle appeared on the screen,
An unread message is received.
Opened, read and seened,
Then later we exchanged greetings.

All night stalking and talking we did,
Until unsure feelings were hid.
To meet and greet, we agreed.
One glance is all we need.

The world soon revolved slowly,
As perfect strangers love grew strongly.
We imagined a life so lively,
A life that is so happy.

Under these wireless connection,
Always a goodnight conversation.

A hug so awkward
With hands held together,
On a cold night weather
A love story was discovered.

Moments like this should be cherished,
As both hearts reached that line called "finish".

Trials along the lane  ade then ill,
Until one felt pain and chill.

Alas hope came back,
But another got stabbed,
All those feedbacks and backstabs one heart held strong.

A hopeful heart still waits,
Hoping an understanding and honesty,
And ask the other to please not choose another.

And the pther heart still waivers,
Losing slowly to uncertainty,
And ask the other to please wait a little further.

What do i love? . . . That
Who do i love? . . . You
When did i love? . . . Then
Where did i love? . . . There
Why did i love? . . .

Arguments that almost end us,
Teased by me but not offended,
These words not heard much often,
"Tu es belle......mi amour"

I don't remember yesterday,
I can't redo it today.
I don't see any big change,
I can't even recall my original age.

I kept thinking of the past
And I realized time moves fast.
All memories trapped in a glass,
A reflection of that past.

I have captured many moments.
People placed it in portraits.
I'll forever be your mini time machine,
Along with my partners, the films and the batteries.

Yours truly,
Camera