"I'm tired. I want to give up."
"If that's what you feel, then okay."

*****.
When I've been holding for too long because I don't want to give up on you no matter how hard it is to love you and when I told you how I feel, this is how you're going to respond?

You always say that you love me. But why are you letting me go this easy? I tried so hard for us. There are so many times that I almost tear my heart out for you. There are so many times where I cry on the cold floors of my bedroom because of you. There are so many times I almost gave up on you because I know I need to save myself from drowning because if I don't do it now, I'll die. But I didn't! Because I love you!

Did you ever really love me?
No. You don't understand. You don't understand the pain I'm going through because of you. You don't love me. You don't care.

I always ask myself, "Is this what I want? Am I just going to be okay feeling broken like this? Until when?" I can't. I can't let myself feel this pain every night anymore. I can't bear to feel this overwhelming pain in my chest because you're hurting me again and again and again and **** it.

I love you but I don't want this anymore.

You don't love me.
And now I'm going to leave.
And I know every step away from you will be so hard but I have to.
Because this is what I deserve.
Not the insecurities, longing, unanswered questions, taking for granted, tears and pain you always give to me.

I deserve to walk away from you.
And I hope that it'll tear you apart when you realize that I'm gone and you lost the one who'll give everything for you.

Because I deserve that, too.

It ******* *****
when you've given your all to someone
and get little in return
when you thought you're special to them
or worse
they don't care at all

When I realized
That you make me happy
My heart broke
And I cried
And I became afraid
Because if you are my happiness
Then you have the power
to hurt me
And I know
That you're going to hurt me
Because that's what happens
Every time I love someone
And I'm tired of it

your arms are just arms
until they enveloped me in an embrace
your hands are just hands
until you touched and clasped it with mine
your laugh is just a sound
until i looked at you and my heart raced
you were just you
until i needed and wanted you
and you were just my friend
until i loved you

"What would you do if you miss someone so badly that it hurts?"

"Nothing. You just have to endure missing them until you don't."

My heart's in agony
And I can feel it pulling itself away
From the veins and wires
Of my body that keeps it from running to you.
It wants you
It reaches out for you
But it can't do anything
Except for missing you
I can feel it crying
It's screaming your name
Oh you don't know
How much I want to wrap my arms around your waist

**** this fail poem. I just ******* miss you. So much it hurts.

I'd write stories for you
Where you are my character
And how you made me
Fall in love and made me new

I'd write poems endlessly
About the way you smile
And the way you sing
And how much I love your eyes

I'd write songs to sing
About how my heart beats
About how my heart sings
Your name in a beautiful melody

I won't stop writing about you
About how can you make me feel blue
Then make my day
By just passing my way

If words are the only medium
On how I can tell the world
How I love hearing my name on your lips passing through
Then stopping in writing, I won't

If this is the only way
To say how much you make me feel
Then through night and day
My pen and paper will be in contact still

If these words will
Make the world hear
Of how special you are to me
Then writing about you it is