It’s okay that you never put me first
Because I will
It’s okay that you never let go
Because I will

Someday you’ll be someone that I once knew
Someone who someday might become someone that’s worth it to know
But I will never
Know that it could have been great
You and me; imagine that
For now; it’s been too late
I was worth it, you know
You held onto your pride and me; you let go

It’s okay, though
I forgive you
And maybe someday
Even today
I’ll miss you

That's how I remember it
It was self destructive
It was a problem
I was problem

That's how I remember it
I never meant to
I never wanted to
I hurt you

That wasn't how it was supposed to happen
That's not how I wanted it to go down
But that's how I remember it

Uncanny how it fell into place
But I still recall
The look on you face
I wish I couldn't remember it

To forget is to insult
To shed responsibility
To own up to my mistakes
Is to establish nobility

It’s always another day
Always another season
Always another year
I still feel the way i felt
I’m still unclear
About how it all went down
How it all crashed and burnt without a sound

I swear to god I'm sorry
My heart breaks to the sound of yours
I'll remember you in 2 months
I'll miss you in 20 years
I know it sounds as if I'm martyring myself
I know it doesn't matter that I shed a tear

You're more broken than I
But my dear, you'll repair stronger than I
Be a better person than I
Theres always a downward spiral
Until you hit the ground and put yourself back on your feet

I'll always love you
As much as you don't understand
You were my best friend, my lover, my confidant, my world, my future husband, my future father to my children
I'm sorry things ended this way
Eight years not wasted, but held dear
I'm sure you'll find another
Who will always cherish you
See your worth
I hope the best for you
It's what you deserve

He might not love me
He might not care that I long for him
But to sit there and pretend it's only you on my mind
Dear, it's such a sin

I'll be in the past
Wondering what could've been
What would've become of us
If I hadn't fallen for him

I wanted you to notice how I felt
So I destroyed myself
To put myself back together
To turn into somebody you’d like

My friends have friends
Friends they turn to
Friends that turn to them
My friends have a best friend
Friends that hang out all night
Friends that laugh until their last breath
My friends have friends
So where does that leave me?

Lonely and empty
Envious and yearning
Jealousy churning

My friends have friends
My friends dont need me