Something  doesn't seem right..  Maybe im hopeless..  Oh well goodnight.   Miserable  intensely to the point you wish you never felt. My problem is what surrounds me drowns Me. Maybe the person I met than doesn't quite exist there now.   Here in the moment when im looking..  In your heart.   Looking to see if there quite any parts to put together.  Bu im afraid not.  Is is worth it. Or to turn an let what really means everything any literature  or   emotion can Stand for fade with the rest. From the start we stray from the heart but when you find you way back it to late with everything torn apart.  Honesty these days drag on..  They say its a new begining but where do we pick of from were we left off...  Honestly I know should be equal blame an mutual understanding  but doesn't seem like you nor anyone of the sort understands truly from within what it means to be without.   Rebuild to destroy..  Heal what it may..  But honestly if this is what your feel comfortable with.  Than acceptance will be my absence.  I just believed everything you said an I guess its all in my head. -marty

Thought we were close.
When everything I enjoyed you propose but I assume you oppose.  
Maybe your dangerous.  
Nature  that once was.
***** it guess I open all there is.  
No bliss.  
No fairy tail ending.  
Guess​ there nothing exactly  im defending​

Sometimes letting goes how you  all you chose...
Even you felt use.  
Thought I found myself in you with control..
But maybe they are apart of the flow.
Proving all they said were lies.  
I can't deny
May lie to myself on my behalf.
While you have the last laugh when  im writing  this paragraph

To many thoughts invested with the reflection of It all in sight where I know my affirmation won't reunite..  Tell myself marty what the hell is wrong with this picture...  But with the liquor was the last glimpse  of her,  an now your a ghost in her reflection​. ..  Due to such immature aggression   instead of your true intension..  Now that hands of another will soon behold your entire world while your here to wonder if being strong the only option is exactly worth the time..   Pretending its all fine..  Seeing your whole purpose behind your existence is missing due to your pathetic  excuses..  An mistakes..  Now everything you love forsakes you. The painful truth In whole. . so everyone is else take this advice..     Take her or him to greatest heights. . cause it worth the fight dont do what I did..   Cause there are only so many chances until its all gone. An i buried myself alive until I die.

they say that’s out. No dice. Preposterous. Absurd. Went completely unheard.
That was then; this is now.
Now is sober reflection in direction.
Now is routine. The rest unseen.
Now is habit falling into havoc. Now is empty.. whats your trend? To apprehend ****.

They  say I should  smile but it's quite not my style but I have to admit it's been quite the while.  Miserably painted, but not quite tainted.   Precisely  waiting. When the whole scene quit hating on fragile  things as it seems.   The strength to stand, to understand the reason how such events may occur revolving all you thought you embraced, faced. Without a trace you erase the value of what it could be worth deep within.    Beneath the skin. Where a majestically  beautiful world, a universe lies.  Many disguise, other wise to harmonize what shines that intertwines  at the core.  That they ignore, how extraordinary with the things behind the eyes.  My concept may be  in ordinary of what truly lies beneath your surface.   The thing we call purpose instead of a limited burden inside of him.

what is it when every time witness your image.. minutes feeling like forever, when i know everything is finished.   reflections may not be as vibrant as they use to be, you know everything seem to  turns translucent.   lucid, but losing what it exactly meant to an extent. lingering  somewhere rather known dwelling deep inside. let alone all i confided just a piece is missing, when it comes to reminiscing. i know it doesn't make any difference. past tense to present.. the  significance lost its value.. its not a coincidence. just dont  misrepresent

I try to revive a design i chosen this moment, to stop on my self-erosion. but in this moment that is falling apart i keep thinking.. i wont let the past confine me, Is the path I chose where I should start?I keep sinking further, drowning  in silence.  its timeless.
all is deceiving.
im leaving.
                       others grieving for everything their not        
                                                                                 perceiving  
the weight of my decisions                    are impossible to hold.
                           keep me behind your dead eyes
            your not that disguise,               you externalize
                             all these words played out cold
                
                     trap me in your          broken mind
                      i know i cant  pretend, i wont find
                              exactly went wrong this time
                                  and i wont ever be the
                                    same again and i
                                      know your pushing
                                                me
                                              down  
                                to get the upper hand
                      You don't divide, you blur the lines
Destroy yourself and start again    the walls you build kept you in