It was like a poker game
Cards were used
Games got played
But she'd do it
All over again
Just to feel like
She meant
Something
To the one
Who got
Away

Lace wrapped corpse
In a diamond encrusted tomb

Champagne, anyone?

Darling sugar is going to Heaven

Let there be shine, glam & whole lotta love
Up present in the sky above

Get ready for some dis-function
Lights, camera, action!

I hope you're sober now
Before the night...

So I can take you downtown!

Temple of thought
Spark my imagination
Concentration
Erase my doubt
And the shadow cast
Upon me
In all honesty
Your portrayal
Is beyond
Normal

Weak like porcelain
Easy to break like bone
I'm stuck on the fast lane
Wanna escape to another world
Lost in confusion
Alcohol is sinking in
And I am feeling
Like I could
Lose control

Pill, smile, wine glass
Feeling like upper class
With my cigarettes
Feeling like a coke lover
On a detox diet
Stuck on repeat
I skip meals
To feel it
Like I can survive
This tough life

It's so hard
To feel good
When I am
Misunderstood
I am lost
In a daze
Stuck in a craze
I really wanna get out
I wanna scream and shout

We're alive and drunk
On love and pain
We reach high
We sink low

Rock bottom
Very often

We sink our teeth
Into the flesh
Which is
Our flaws

We pick out
The good
The bad
The ugly
The tragedy

Dust ourselves off
For another day
To take a deep breath
Before we think
Of the rest

We struggle
To keep
Emotions
From seeping out
Which is why
We drink
We smoke
Until it
Knocks
Us out

Not a morning person
Don't tear away
My covers

Struggling with this
Can't seem to eat
All I think about
Is collarbones
And thigh gaps
I'm obsessed
With the loss
Of body weight

With every breath
I take
There is a
Bittersweet
Consequence

While I'm whole
My heart is not
Lost one half
When you left

Dreams were shattered
Heart was battered
Bruised and broken
Scars were open

But I still went on
To fall in love again
Even though
My love for you
Remained
In tact
As if you
Never went

ever since I set my eyes upon you, as a whole
the moments seem short but full of joy

a minute of happiness is worth more
than a hundred empty hours

sights beautiful are tainted with regret
but those are the ones I love
in terms of content
and heartfelt value that
cannot be erased
nor replaced

Chapped lips and bruised hips
Left the car keys on the desk
If I can't go right
Why should I head left?
Feelings are like dynamite
If they **** up
Then they explode
Leaving me
With a headache
From the loud bangs
And they fade soon
As I look at the moon
It's missing the sun

******* your mind
Like it's a body
Stripping you of
Your weaknesses
Like it's poetry
Running through
Your veins
Like I'm your
Blood cells
Caressing
Your soul
Like I am holy

new york city, la
******, sunshine
champagne
& fine wine
we drink and dine
like we're young
but make love
like we did
when love
was gold

Champagne tears
Ruined my dress
Dressed to ****
With a smile
To match
Deadly forces
Are within me
The devil speaks
Like he's beside me
I always tremble
Tried not to stumble
Upon the hands
Of trouble

Drank from a poisoned cup
Which had no effect
Thinking I was saved
By my own God

But my sinning
Wasn't too holy
And my sins
Ultimately
Killed me

Slowly and surely
My addictions
Set me free

Memory lane
Is really frightening
Every memory
Keeps me
Longing
Hoping
Wanting you
To want me too
It keeps me whole
When I am through
And I'm without you
I pick myself up
But you're the bullet
And I'm your gun
When we fell in love
I was star

I like the car I'm in
Chauffeur driven
Luxurious
Paid in cash
Dollar bills
To be exact

Take me to the City
where boys were gentlemen
and girls are ladies

Take me to the Era
where men knew the limit
and girls knew the classy

Take me back to the time
when alcohol was soothing
and cigarettes were calming

Take me back to
the years of blues
the jazz that made it through

Black and white
Photographs
On the wall
Before I tore
Them all down
In this house
Empty space
Full of pain
Locked in vain
To keep the memories
Contained and untouched

They say sadness,
Is a silent killer,
Momentarily seen,
As a soul destroyer.

It drains you,
It comsumes you,
It also drives you,
Into the arms,
Of bad habits.

Touch, so cold,
But effective too,
Sadness always remains,
And one day,
It will ruin you.

Energy gets lost,
Tissue gets wasted,
Your eyes will shut,
Your body left sedated,
Stuck in a trance,
Which gets stronger with time,
It's only a matter of,
Walking the line,
To the other side.

Don't tell me what to change
These are my feelings
These are my emotions
That I'm bleeding out
On a page
The pen replaced my razor
The words replaced the blood
That used to release
Whenever
I felt like
The world wasn't
My oyster