Jessica Lucas

Jessica Lucas Aug 2017

Eyes

The light from your eyes it's gone?
How?
Who gave anyone the right to take that light away?
No one did but then again no one took the light, you let it dull by yourself.
People will stare, your family will be ashamed of you.
Friends will become enemies,
But in the end the only thing they see wrong are,
Your eyes

#eyes #light #family

Jessica Lucas Aug 2017

Believe

You could say I don't believe,
You tell me that what I believe is wrong and untrue.
I believe that we are stars,
The iron in our blood once made up a star,
The atoms that had built us come from the sky.
We are all forgotten, I find comfort in this,
The world is so big and we are merely nothingness.
When we die, we return to being stars and everything you know is forgotten.
If we are stars, we shine the brightest when alone and dark,
We do not wish to be happy and cheerful,
We wish to be forgotten
We are forgotten, we are stars at night

#stars #night #alone

Jessica Lucas Jul 2017

The truth

Locked into a place where I can't escape,
The bitter unknown that hides behind doors,
But these doors have been opened,
And the unknown monsters have been revealed,
And they don't scare. They should…
I was scared because the unknown is unpredictable,
And the unpredictable is the truth,
And I always thought I knew the truth,
The truth didn't shock me either,
It was the bitterness of the truth,
That made me realise everything I believed in,
Were in fact true, all the things I hated about myself,
They are all true.

Jessica Lucas Sep 2017

Feelings

We are told what to say,
Not what we want.
We feel the feelings people tell us too,
Not the ones that we made ourselves.

Jessica Lucas Jun 2017

Hurt

I have never had anything hurt as much,
I let myself believe and turn away.
I thought I was the only?

Yes it was a hookup,
But really I helped you cheat.
Now I sit here broken,
Knowing that your girlfriend will be even more broken.

I had feelings for you,
Always have.
And now I don't know what to do,
You were the one I wanted to marry.

why don't things happen like fairy tales?
Because darling in the end we are all forgotten.
No one lives forever...

#fairytales #teen #teenage #hurt #forgotten #boys #broken #hookup #cheat #cheating

Jessica Lucas Jun 2017

I love you.

I want to be touched by you again,
I want to feel your fingers against my skin.
I want to feel loved again, just once.

I want to tell you all the things I'm scared to say,
I want to tell you I love you.
But this would be a lie,
We weren't in love,
You saw me as an object, nothing more.

We don't talk anymore,
It's probably better this way,
But as I sit here wondering..
Should I have let you get so close?
Should I have let myself listen to the words you whispered?

It's in the past, that's what you all say,
But this pit of guilt inside my stomach has not left,
It follows me like a cloud...

#teen #teenage #love #hookup #guilt #left #object

Jun 2017

NicoleRuth

Hookups

After all was said and done
He wrapped himself around me
In a tightly formed question mark
The answer to which I yet do not know

I spent the night tossing in confusion
His midnight kisses further puzzling my thoughts
A random hookup wasn't this to be?

No feelings
No attachments
No anything
Wasn't that the unsaid plan?

Then why did I feel this growing fondness
For a boy I barely knew
Whose one and only connection to me
Were the stupid investments our fathers had made

Why did I want to hold him back?
Kiss his cheeks with the same gentleness he showed me
When the plan was always a physical one?

This monthly ritual of his I succumbed to
My mind overthrown by multiple questions
While my body gave to him every part of me I could

Until on a lonely Friday my eyes opened
The metaphors I had discovered
Now lay dead around me
The reality lying startlingly naked ahead of me

It was not care that brought him close
It was not any symbol of love he saw

A woman's body is all he acknowledged
My soul never receiving the gratification it dreamed for
There were no metaphors to this story
No hidden secrets waiting to be discovered

Just a girl who hoped for more
Settling for a boy couldn't ever see more
Than her naked waist
The tickle of moving hair
The flutter of her lips in ecstasy
The sigh in her heart as he moved away

#love #feelings #metaphor #life #reality #emotions #confusion #musician #hookups

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