Dissolve me
With a soft kiss
On these hardened lips
That have been betrayed time and time

Return me
To a place without time
That I cannot reach
No matter how hard I try

I’ve dreamt of you
Nights on end
Of that day where you and I will meet again
No sorrow, no pain, where we will be taken away
To the ends of the earth

May we live and die with each other
Alone
Forgotten
Profound

A battered heart
Laid bare by a storm
With gnats and vultures
Picking at the outer layers of skin
How can one expect to heal?

My lungs, covered with tar
Feel much the same
But we are both still breathing
Still living
Still healing
Still imploding
Barely staying afloat in the waters of a swelling ocean

Wretched persons
How dare you hurt my love
Who can’t shake the feeling
Of being torn apart from the inside
Trust me love
I too feel lost, unloved, confused
This isn't how I envisioned it!

I pictured love and happiness
Fulfilling my every desire!
Hurt escaping from my grasp
Love flowing freely from my heart… To yours
From yours, to mine
I imagine loves everlasting divinity
Gushing forth like the great rivers and waterfalls in this world
What I got instead, was a light trickle
Like a dying stream in the middle of a desert.

Forsaken, forlorn
I throw myself at your mercy
That you may find what you seek
The strength that resides within,
The strength I see.

For I am a maggot
A parasite
A fiend
I search for life stronger than mine
And feed off it
But now I realize I’m neither of those things.
A saint in disguise
Trying to play the demon.

I know when to tread softly
To move gently
To wait till hearts can mend
But then, I realized that there is nothing to mend
Or to heal.
Incomplete from the start
Cast aside
Unbreakable hearts
Succumbing to the infinity before us
Feelings fading
I gasp for one last statement
Before we lose anything more
My heart screams out into a cold night saying:
I
Love
You

I told them that what bothered me was
Everything and nothing in particular
Shoud it provide comfort?
To not have a demon?
To not have a cause?
To not have an answer?
Questions and tears are all that’s left

Broken hearts, broken bottles, broken lives
Tear and Tear and Tear at the very root of my soul

No one knows the future,
And even less know the past.

We just sit here,
Stationary
Plagued by those momentary thoughts of hope
Only to realize, that hope is fleeting

Love
Fear
Death
Cries
All succumb to the nature of what it is to be:


Human

How do you know when something has died?
When the breath stops?
When the blood stays still?
When the heart shatters in two?
Is this death?
It lingers constantly
Like I'm constantly sinking
The weights will not be removed
Please let me be
The stench burns my eyes
It makes my throat lock up
Tears that won't flow
I'm forgotten again
And I did it to myself.

Lobotomize me
Make me dumb
Take my voice away
So I’ll never hurt again
The less I speak
The more I feel apathy
Its in trying to connect
That I feel distant
No point trying
To clear these gaps

Lobotomize me
Out of necessity
So I won’t lose any more
Can’t be happy
Can’t be sad

Lobotomize me
So my desires will fade
And I’ll be left drooling at my bedside
While the beasts congregate around me
Ripping my flesh
Replacing my memories with their own

Lobotomize me
So I can be happy not being the protagonist

There was a time I dreamt
As most people do
That the moon and the stars could be ours
But time passes, just as dreams are forgotten
Revealing the darkness I burrowed in my heart
No moon
Nor stars could ever be mine
Gifts of nature so distant
The river that cleanses
Erodes my once esteemed castle
The dam I built to stop its flow
Broke in the storms
My passions, and desires float away
Down the stream

I no longer dream
I gave them up for reality
That maybe nothing would ever be mine
O world of dreams
How I long to have you back

A poem is a testament to my soul
Words that mean nothing

Composed with sincerity and love
Things that I can hardly grasp
Yet I try to express them with my
Limited vocabulary
Yet I know in my heart
At least one person knows my joy
Knows my happiness
Knows why I suffer so much
From abandonment
From the truth of beauty
I can't break away from the people who put me down
They strengthen me with their insults
I rearrange my priorities
And instill a sense of wonder


When I look to the mountains for guidance
I see snow covered tops
Filled with tears as the seasons change
Breeding life a new
Just as I reach a depth of despair
Staring from the valley below
I might never reach the top
to play in the snow
to hold the coldness in my hands
but I hope to grasp at least the words it lends my ears
Wind howling through the saplings
You soothe me
You make me realize my inadequacy
and you make me crave for more
Lustfully, beautifully, intelligently
I thank you,
As you watch the leaves of your tree
Fall and decompose this autumn
to feed the parched soil of my heart.