You wake up
Do you feel jittery?
Panic runs through your nerves
Tired and restless
Heart pumping wildly
8 hours, 10 hours, 12 hours sleep
Still feeling choked by a headache
Numbness filled the back of your mind
Watery eyes from fatigue

Time for work

Getting called in
Do you feel the anxiousness?
The tension in the air
Sweaty palms and feet
As you drag yourself in

You're in
Do you feel calm?
Empty and a lil nervous
The thought of 'I dont give a ****'
You knew where this is going

He screamed
Do you feel upset and angry?
With the demeaning insults
Threats after threats
And you sat there silently
Allowing him to

You left
How do you feel?
Helpless
Agitated
Powerless
Breathe...

Your day begins
Do you feel better?
Work after work after work
Piling up like hills so high
Jittery feelings return

Home
Do you feel dead?
Exhausted and drowned with work
It does not stop here
Unfinished business to continue
Type away with blank stares

Crash.
Your day starts again.

Pedestrians hustling in and out of the buildings
Cyclists, motorists, drivers rushing with time
I, standing in the middle of the busy street
Watching them as they go

I imagined various colours within each passerby
And identify the colors of their soul
Red, purple, blue, orange, gold, silver
What are the vibes? What do they mean?

Does red mean someone is upset, angry or frustrated?
Does blue mean someone is sad, depressed or sick?
Does gold mean someone who is kind, caring or loving?
Does green mean someone who is calm, patient or free?

I wish I can read the signs.

Dancing unicorns and colourful butterflies
Crackers of sweet honey and bubblegum flavour
Chocolate streams and ice-cream trees
Carousel of cupcakes and bacon hams

Glitters and sparkles rained down on little elves
Mermaids and fairies grew magical plants and food
Everything is so beautiful and other-worldly
From afar, it looks like a fun fair heaven.

I sat at the top of the hill watching with ease
Enjoying the whistling wind under the warm moonlight
Biting a mouthful of bread and butter
"I want to be there" I mouthed

I extended my arm towards them with a hopeful wish
The fairies pranced towards me and gathered
They took my hand and put it towards my heart
With a whisper they said close to my ear

" Love and accept yourself first. Once you do, your vision will be clearer. It's not all fairy dust and roses"

And I realise. I glanced at that wonderful place again.
Fairies showed me the other side of the coin
The gold place slowly turned dark, grey and gloomy
Still every being is happy but with a tragic story carved in them

I see it now.
I see.

I walked into the dark forest willingly
My heart was numb, broken and weeping
Head filled with agonizing thoughts and negativity
Yet, I continue strutting like it was nothing

Slapped by twigs, pierced by sharp rocks
As I walked deeper into the forest
I bleed and healed with visible marks
It doesn't hurt, thus I need no rest

The journey continued and I saw a shadow
We draw close and I stepped back with caution
From the corner of my eye I know
That this shadow is no simpleton
Nevertheless I tried to play along with this foe

Shadow feeds sweet seeds of poison that the trees believe
And everything was masked by a mountain of lies
And that I was continuously hit by a branch, root, and a leaf
I kept falling over till my mind, soul and spirit dies

I lay on the ground motionless and broken
Wondering if I should give darkness a second chance
It's a game of 1000 vs 1
A game full of prejudice, unjust and angst

I stood up and persistently hold my broken pieces together
Tumbling, falling and plunging into casualties
Still I positioned confidently like no other
I safely walked away from the evil shadow beast

As I smile with freedom, I was greeted with warmth
In this dark forest I nestled with tender fairies
Soon darkness came with another shadow like death
Full speed headshot knocking you off your knees

Unwelcomed, I escaped and ran for my life
Exhausted and in pain I saw my refuge drawing close
A ball of light getting brighter as I run with time
Squinting as I pushed myself into that brilliant safe house

Out of the dark, I found myself
Older and wiser with wonder scars
Hopping forward like a happy elf
Opening another chapter without wars

Home
Is where the heart is
Where warm arms embrace me
When glorious food filled the table
With beautiful wallpapers giving it life

Home is not only shelter
But it has all the love everyone needs
Comfy beds and childhood toys
Holding all the memories filled with wonders

Stepping out of my home
My eyes glow to the sight of
Sunkist skies on a Monday evening
Puffy clouds roam along with pigeons and larks
Clean pavement with nothing but dry leaves dancing
Old and new cars and an outgrown mango tree
I enjoyed every scent around my home.

When the day falls into darkness,
Shimmering stars shine upon me.
As if, I was the only one admiring their beauty
Walking beneath them is an honor
With every light steps,
The stars and moon watch over me,
Never leaving my side...like family

Now that I am no longer home,
Happiness has disappeared
Creases on my forehead increase
Being a vulnerable person out in the world
I became an easy prey, target
To be the one to absorb all the negativity
Possessed by city-born humans

Love is not around anymore,
Stars and moon shy away from the skies
Hidden behind the grey crowd
Filling humans' lungs
And causing disease
Adding on sadness and despair

I miss home.
Where love originally came from.

Wicked, as was said
Demeaning as she uttered
Insulting as she spoke
Disrespectful as she claimed us to be

Wicked, she may not be
Panicky is her personality
Yelling as much as day
Agreeing to everything that was said

Wicked, she seemed to be
Words can't describe her
Actions can't move her
Sturdy as she always has been

Wicked, she wouldn't want to be
Emotional for her own reasons
Sensitive in her own ways
Neglecting the circle around her

It's a pity

Work
Drains your energy
Leaves you restless
Keeps you awake

Work
Stays with you
Chases away life
Putting you down

Work
Why are we doing it?
Why are we not happy?
Why are we lost?

Work
Gives satisfaction
Gives happiness

If you find the right one