i made this account
to tell her how much i
i wish we never met
maybe i am finally happy.
finally happy with myself,
im starting to think that she doesn't love me anymore.
but maybe he does.
poly relationships are confusing, though i love you both. maybe you dont love me back.
ive moved my feelings to twitter. im still mad, upset, jealous, replaced
cause then i wouldnt have met you
yet youre the one hanging onto us.
because i thought we were over.
and you messaged me.
the sick feeling in my stomach wont go away.
sh, leave me the **** ALONE.
and that’s all that matters
please don’t die please i need you i love you i haven’t met you yet we haven’t met yet we haven’t walked under the cherry blossoms together yet we haven’t hugged yet you haven’t seen me yet
i ******* promise you that you’re doing so well you’re doing great you’re improving. getting better i love you i love you i love you
mysti. or should i call you danity?
i want you against me
i want to see you
i just wanna have you fo a day or two
about the fights
no ones perfect and i don’t expect you to be,
i wish you would talk to me more,
hug me more,
look at me more,
is this a sign of “hey,, i love you?”
god i don’t know anymore
i’ve broken my heart so many times
you’re all that’s on my mind
god i wish i could see you one more time
but youre hers.
and she’s yours.
i’m not sure if i’m hers.
feelings are dumb
feelings are stupid
i really do think i love you
but as you said
“i think it was platonic”
“i think i lost feelings”
i don’t blame you after all
it was 3 years ago
i just wish i had you all those years
i wish you were my girlfriend?
maybe it’s the loneliness.
maybe it’s the mood swings.
maybe i don’t want anyone right now.
i honestly don’t know.
but believe me when i say,
i love you
i remember your little smile before we found others
it was us 3, walking around the playground.
then 3 turned into 4
then 4 turned into 6
and then we gained more and more
until we snapped.
and we’re back to 3,
but this time a broken 3
i feel like i messed up, threw the friendship away to the back of my head for some stupid girl who broke my heart.
but there are those days where i feel as you did the same
and i don’t wanna tell you that god i wish you never met them cause you look so happy with her
so i’m pouring my feelings out on this dumb website like the dumb little girl i am
because i miss you
i love you
but this ******* pain won’t go away
do you wanna try being friends again? i’m sorry, i really am, i don’t know how to control my feelings, so say no, it’s my fault anyway
because i thought of you when i made these dumb accounts
the more i realise how much you mean to me
and i realise that i dont mean anything to you anymore so whats the point in living?
cause all you say is that we're using you and that we're toxic. you don't even care about me so, hey, waste these 9 years of friendship and ******* replace those 9 with the dumb girl you "fell for" i hope you *******-
but don’t ******* worry about it,
just keep on talking real sappy about you and your little girlfriend.
i don’t talk about mine because i care about you guys and i wanna spend time with you because i don’t know when the last time i’ll do this is. so *******- shut u p..
i’m really feeling like i wanna ******* die rn but i’ll just do what she does “oh i’m fine lol i’m just a little sad.” “lol mood tho” “i’m fine, i wrote that months ago”
and i hate it but you “love” each other so **** IT MAYBE I JUST WONT ANYMORE BECAUSE IF IT WAS THAT EASY TO REPLACE OUR 9 YEARS WITH HER THEN SO BE IT.
******* hope you’re over soon cause ever since she popped up in your life i have been disregarded and it’s like you don’t wanna ******* talk to me anymore. but it’s whatever, like you said, she’s better than me anyway
but youre not listening and i don't know what to d o
makes me feel giddy and happy.
my heart is just-
wanna hang out sometime?
why should i ask you if you’re okay if you’re already- probably- talking to him.
i thought you said you trusted me more than him
that i was here longer than him
i’ve known you longer than him
so why am i being pushed away?
to: someone deep down in my heart, do i love you in the romantic way? maybe i don’t know yet but you don’t like me that way so i don’t see what the point is
i cant tell if im falling for you or not.
i cant tell if i love being your friend or if i love you
i dont have a chance.
its not- its probably not gonna work out
so whats the point?
i̸̧͈̣̳͔̮͚͙̘͂̾̏̌̋͠m̸̨̨̝͍̬͑͂̀̇̾ ̸̢̫̼̝̩͉̗̦̈́̽̾̀̑̚͜͝ģ̸̯̤̱͕̤̣̰̲̞̍̃͝ơ̵̯̊̎̎͊̏̊͋͠ṋ̸̈́̌̿̀n̴̨̼̗͓̬̼̆͌̌͆̈́̓͝a̶̧̞͍̹̰̗̤̖̟̘͗́̇̿̈́͗̕͝͠ ̶̡̛͙̮̿̿̈́́̓̒̿͝ǩ̸̡͍̼̟̝̈́́͒i̵̻̭̘̯͆͑l̸̛̤̱̖̣̞̠̓̀̓l̷̡̻̰͎̾̐̒̌ͅ ̷̡͙̜̰̞̪̜͓̀͑̾̈́̋̐̾͜͠m̵͚̗͚͕̣̓y̸̛̠̥̻̠̝̬̋͆́̃͊͝s̶̡̡̨̛̲̞̬̻͎̟̚ͅé̷̢̼̝̈́̆̚l̵̝̭̠̬̬̠̫͈͊̇͛f̴̬͖̬͂̌̒̓̍.̷̢̛̛̳̦̣̟̖̬̘͒̋̊̈́̔͘͘
"youre not trying hard enough"
"you need to actually try"
"were just gonna do it without you"
"youre not contributing"
maybe if you thought about how i felt about everything you wouldn't have said that.
the lines are doubling
doubling in despair
the pain isnt going anywhere
it has no where to go
so why should i stop?
when i can just keep going
and ill be fine.
everything will be fine. i wouldn’t ******* be-
the word makes me sick to my stomach i wish i could just never eat and i’ll be fine! i’ll be skinny again and boys will like me, my friends will like me, the popular kids will like me. if i were skinny, i’ll be “happy”
and now i don’t know where you are.
what? no one will notice unless they see this.
i don’t wanna talk about it.
just one cut don’t worry about it
you told me about how they broke you
you've never broken that much before.
the worlds ****** man.
i cant believe i trusted him either.
i cant believe they did this to you.
i love you.
to: mysti. im so sorry that they broke your heart like this. they can rot in hell.
i wanna die
“no you don’t. you’re asking for attention.”
let me **** myself
“deal with it. you’re getting fat anyway”
you let him eat. ooh fun.
he makes mistakes, it’s fine. you’ll help him without yelling.
you don’t let me eat. i’m ******* starving
i make mistakes, ITS NOT ******* FINE YOU YELL ST ME AND CALL ME NASTY WORDS. HELP? PLEASE ITS JUST YOU MAKING THINGS YOUR WAY.
i’m gonna ******* **** myself man
i just wanna eat.
i’m so hungry
it’s 2pm, i’ve been awake since 9am.
haven’t had food at all today.
don’t tell me to eat because the only thing stopping me from doing just that is my dad.
just feed me please i’m so hungry
*******'re really dying huh?
no no no no no no no no no no non onno no...
alex dont leave me
dont leave us.
we love you so ******* much
we need you?
we need you.
i hope youre well.
you'll be in a better place.
i dont want you to die.
for: alex <3
why cant we just get along?
for: al, anr, sh, mra, dmc, sn, cl, ld...
your friends are leaving you left and right
when will you change?
i can’t believe i fell for you or even trusted you