why cant we just get along?
for: al, anr, sh, mra, dmc, sn, cl, ld...
dragged me over the couch,
making fall on the wood tile.
"PLEASE NO PLEASE STOP STOP STOP PLEASE NO"
as he reached for my arms
i want out.
daddy please stop,,,
i’m one month clean.
soon to be ruined because it’s unhealthy and i’m all about slowing killing myself.
brb. . .
going to throw up . . .
jokes. but not really
Does it ******* up?
Though it doesn't do **** when I drink it.
i can’t eat an apple without feeling like i’m about to throw up so i just chew it up and spit it out
it’s just so hard. i cant-
you were supposed to take me to the arcade before school starts up again.
i guess you didnt have time.
i guess you didnt want to.
i was looking forward to it
I ******* love you as a friend.
Honestly, one of the best internet friends I’ve ever met, and guess what?
You’re friends with people at my school and you know we exist.
One in a ******* million.
I could meet you, the first one I’ve ever met.
We’re both gay ******* going through school, dealing with absolute ****.
We live hundreds and hundreds of miles apart, but *******,
You’re so close yet so far.
For: Ben Roberts, thank you. Thank you so much for popping into my DMs and talking to me.
im just finding all the ways to finally end myself
i know you are
just wish you’d just say “yo i don’t wanna be friends anymore”
but you didn’t.
so i deal with your silence
that was us.
but someone has taken your place.
you gave it up.
its her turn now.
did you ever love me from the start?
i’m sorry, i’m doubting myself.
i just want you to be happy.
if this is how you’re happy then,
i hope you’re happy.
do you even want me back at this point?
i felt like you never liked me anyway.
when we got back together i didnt think you liked me so i was like "oh okay. this'll probably end soon" because it felt like you were never into it. i liked her for 3 years, just been ignoring it. and i've gotten over that since i realised that we're lowkey just homies now. i dont like my feelings. cant control them . shes really pretty and nice though, you should go for it.
sh , ld , anr
i blocked all of my irl friends to save me from
"yo are you ok??"
"i saw ur poem, u good?"
im not okay.
im not good.
but i dont want to worry you
anr, mra, sh, ld, cjr
Boys, boys, boys.
I like boys, boys, boys.
I like everyone.
Boys are annoying.
Boys are cool!
Boys are heartbreakers.
Boys are cute!
Boys like hurting me.
Boys, I like boys!
the word makes me sick to my stomach i wish i could just never eat and i’ll be fine! i’ll be skinny again and boys will like me, my friends will like me, the popular kids will like me. if i were skinny, i’ll be “happy”
i feel like i messed up, threw the friendship away to the back of my head for some stupid girl who broke my heart.
but there are those days where i feel as you did the same
and i don’t wanna tell you that god i wish you never met them cause you look so happy with her
so i’m pouring my feelings out on this dumb website like the dumb little girl i am
because i miss you
i love you
but this ******* pain won’t go away
do you wanna try being friends again? i’m sorry, i really am, i don’t know how to control my feelings, so say no, it’s my fault anyway
i finally feel comfortable with wearing my binder outside of home
i’ve stopped falling for her,
or so i think.
i’m done with relationships.
i hate getting my heart broken
anr, sh, ld
oh, how i remember us,
v ^ v > >
dancing in your room
v ^ v > > \ \
now , , , she's taken my place,
v > > > ^ v v v - - - \ v - - -
oh, have you heard?
^ ^ ^ \ \ \ - - -
have you heard?
\ - - - -
^ \ \ - -
^ \ \ -
- - -
wrote a song, never finished it because holding back the tears was too much at this point
and i realise that i dont mean anything to you anymore so whats the point in living?
cause all you say is that we're using you and that we're toxic. you don't even care about me so, hey, waste these 9 years of friendship and ******* replace those 9 with the dumb girl you "fell for" i hope you *******-
ive moved my feelings to twitter. im still mad, upset, jealous, replaced
bro it's been what now, 8 years?
8. *******. years.
i still like you.
just been shoving it down for the longest time.
i know you dont feel the same way.
for: you. anr.
i joke about how i eat so much.
its funny until i actually have to eat.
god i hate it so much
having to chew on an apple slice until i feel like i can swallow it.
and then spitting it out because i cant
before i throw it up again
I'll say goodbye soon.
Though it's the end of the world,
I still love you.
And since it's true,
I'll surround you and
give life to a world that's our own.
I'll say goodbye now.
Since it's the end of the world.
Don't blame yourself.
And if I love you,
I'll hug you.
And never let go.
We could be free.
Nothing would stop us now.
Nothing WILL stop us now.
Even if it's the end of the world,
I'll surround you.
And give life to a world, that's our own!
I could never live without you.
Let's be free.
I will save you.
Let's run away
with no plan.
Let's not say goodbye now.
It's the end of the world.
And make our own world.
I'll miss you.
Based off of Goodbye to a World by Porter Robinson
the way you sing along to your songs.
jam out like its nobody's business.
i wanna hold your hand
for: ? <3
Daddy's drinking again.
When will he stop?
you let him eat. ooh fun.
he makes mistakes, it’s fine. you’ll help him without yelling.
you don’t let me eat. i’m ******* starving
i make mistakes, ITS NOT ******* FINE YOU YELL ST ME AND CALL ME NASTY WORDS. HELP? PLEASE ITS JUST YOU MAKING THINGS YOUR WAY.
i’m gonna ******* **** myself man
met her first.
got here first.
loved her first.
hugged her first.
watched her cry first.
comforted her first.
saw her first.
cuddled with her first.
played games with her first.
spoke with her first.
and everyone else came.
and i lost her.
you made me fall for you.
so ******* hard.
i thought you loved me back.
it really was fake huh michael.
those i love yous
those i wanna hug yous.
michael i ******* love you.
and i didn't think that it would mean nothing.
thanks for the rejection anyway..
he was ******* with me and was joking.
im crying but i got the best present ever
to: MICHAEL DEROSE >:((
Am I a girl?
Or a boy?
Mummy says I'm a girl.
Mummy won't believe me when I tell her that I feel like a boy.
I wanna be a boy.
I am a boy.
I'm not a girl.
Is Robin a girl's name?
My name has been Robin ever since I was born.
Mummy says that only girls' names are pretty,
that only girls wear makeup,
that only girls wear dresses and skirts,
I don't like that.
I don't like wearing them either.
My name isn't pretty.
I am a boy.
I am a boy.
haven’t felt this one in a while.
Please... don't find me.
I want to keep my hole to myself
who he visits at least once a week,
we drop him off, we pick him up.
he gets picked up, he gets dropped off.
short with bangs.
long straight black hair.
young love they call it.
i wish for someone to look at me the same way they look at each other. with warmth and love.
sh , anr , mra , dmc , cjr
Where is home?
What is home?
Where in the ******* world would make me feel at home?
I want to feel at home for once.
To feel as if I won't get beat.
To feel like I can walk in and be fed.
i wanna be in your arms
in your hoodie
snuggled up tight with you by my side
small i love yous before we fall asleep
in each other’s arm
is that too much to ask?
anr, sh, ld
if you can’t tell, i’m sad lonely gay and single
how does someone tell the authorities that their father is abusive without getting said father arrested
How could I forget the first time I met you?
How could I forget you?
and I won't.
why should i ask you if you’re okay if you’re already- probably- talking to him.
i thought you said you trusted me more than him
that i was here longer than him
i’ve known you longer than him
so why am i being pushed away?
to: someone deep down in my heart, do i love you in the romantic way? maybe i don’t know yet but you don’t like me that way so i don’t see what the point is
the aftermath of a break up: stage 2
and now i don’t know where you are.
so you've been thinking about it?
ive been thinking about it too.
for 3 years.
i dont say anything because i know you dont like me like that.
i know you dont
so dont lie.
things would change though.
id be able to call you my gf.
these moments we share,
could be our moments.
they arent :)