It hurts when you're dying inside
And when you're slowly running out of places to hide
They tell me it's all worth it
Maybe in its time
But all good things must come to an end
There is on bright light around this bend
Only the suffering stays
So don't you dare tell me this is just a phase
Where is my sweet release?
Don't tell me it's under this blade
I deserve peace
My very soul has decayed
There has to be more than this
Where is my saviour to pull me from abyss?
Tell me why it *hurts so much
Tell me why it won't leave me be
Tell me why there are days when I crave its touch
Tell me why it craves my debris
Please, make it stop!
Please, make it go away
*How loud must I cry?
MAKE IT GO AWAY!

but
     I
      want
               to
                 sin
                     on
                         every
                                  inch
                                        of
                                           your
                                                 body.

You must understand

                                        My friend

That I    never    wanted you to save me

                         I never meant to bring you down into this hole I had created

          I never wanted you to drown in the undertow I had predicted

                                         I do not mean to be your anchor and take away your breath

       I never asked for you to save me

I never wanted a reason for life

I just wanted you to listen,          and maybe understand

               But if you don't yet, let me try

I may be dying everyday

But so are you

                                          And sometimes I forget how easy it is to make you cry

And sometimes I forget that you actually truly care

             But I am doing just fine down here

And your reflection in this water is more than I need

          Do not try to save me, my love

Because you'll only **** yourself

                                          Just be there when I am wet and cold

And be there to dry my eyes

You are not responsible for my suffering

You are not responsible for my death

       And I know that it still hurts you
       And knowing that hurts me too

But please, do not try to save me

          This is my battle, and this is my war

              So stop worrying about me

Because I know that I will win

              And I want you to be there with me when I drown this little monster

And I want you to be there with me when I go out for drinks after