There's a manner in which you breathe
Or maybe a manner in which I perceive
When your chest picks up the covers
In harmony with the way your eye lids hover
That robs me of my own sweet and steady breath

I can always hear your heart pick up a beat
Like it's roaring defeat
When I rest my head on your chest

And I never fall short of noticing the small curls of your hair
Dangling above your eyes, moving well with the air

They wouldn't believe me if I told them
And I know you wouldn't condemn
But there isn't a moment in the day
When the light doesn't hit you at a perfect angle
And it makes my brain mangle

I love the way you love to touch my face
And give my scars a trace
Even though it rips me apart
To hear the crack in your voice
When you say it breaks your heart

"You are a beautiful piece of art"

Sometimes I wish you could stay
But I know you must always stray
You're not one to get too comfortable
And you prefer to remain untouchable

**But would it be alright
If inside your chest, I pitched a tent?
See I fear my fingers may blister
(I'm willing to pay rent)
Just for the winter?

tonight i realized
that you do not entirely belong to me

and that the best days
really are the first to flee

Oh, you Tiny Little Lion Man
You will never win this war.
You had lost it from the start.
Because, my dear
If you want to play a game
I want to win.
If you want to watch it break
I'll be sure that it's your spine.
You will always think you're one step ahead
When truly you're two steps behind.
Do you want to be a player, baby?
I'll teach you how to play.

I just want you to know:
There are days                where I forget to miss you
              and there are days           when I think my cuts and burns are finally healing
        But then             there are days             when the feeling returns

And there are days                                         where I see imagery of you again

Of you               behind the bar
           Pulling on a Camel Light

Of you                       standing outside my window
The sun           dancing coldly           on your skin
Of you looking at me
Just                          
                               ­       looking at me

And it was like         you saw                  straight through it all

You said                  it was going to be okay
                     And I've been repeating that phrase                  ever since
Because       no one      will     ever         quite          ignite         such great hope inside my chest
The way you could
But I'm just trying to       help       them
              The way you helped me
The way          I should have                  helped you
I miss you       more      and        more
                                Ever since I let myself think of you again
And I miss you         less      and       less
                          When I tell myself               you're just a dream
   But I guess      I just want to say
That it       kills me             everyday
                  Even now
To know that    I    did    not    save    you
       And I'm just so ******* sorry
I'm so sorry that I let you slip away
                          that i let you die
But now            you're long gone
So I guess it's too late
          And I    hate    myself for it too


                                 Just know that I miss you


              *I miss you so much

I want to be with you
Diving inside a sea of roses
Holding on tightly while my throat closes
Searching for your shoulders
The epitome of boulders
To bring me afloat
Enchanted by your endurance coat
I want your breath
To be the one to save me from my death
After drowning in your rivers
I'm aching with shivers
Your water is in my lungs
I'm speaking in tongues
Screaming out for love
For everything I am undeserving of
I want to be with you