One day I realised,

I was only ever
afraid
of
myself.

It terrified me.

I'm afraid of myself because of what I might do
I am afraid of myself because of what I can't have
I am afraid of how I will do
And how I will do it too
*I am afraid of everything
I just won't let you see

you said you wouldn't hurt me,
but your words left bruises.

i'm not going to
bury the past,
i just need a
change of setting.

Butterflies everywhere in my body
No, not only in my stomach.
Warm feeling rushing through my veins
Just as I feel your arms around me
Hugging me from behind
You make me happy

Kisses on the forehead
Still holding me close
The fact that you aren't afraid
Afraid to show it to the world
Makes me heart flutter
You make me happy

I am not afraid of love.
I am afraid of being hurt beyond repair.

I am afraid of giving my all to one,
Who may not always be there.

I am afraid of losing myself
And never finding my way back.

I am afraid of falling in love--
If you aren't falling back.

Chase me
I will run
a dangerous race.

Praise me,
I will ignore headlines
and writing in the sky.

Anchor my heart
against insistent
waves.

Quell my
woody-stemmed love
afraid to grow.

Show me knowledge.
Contain my spirit.
Stay near.

Capture me
with tender hands.
Knead my soul until I rise.