You don't know loneliness Until you've sat outside In your car in the pouring rain Because the house you live in Isn't your home anymore Until there's another woman Where your mom once stayed Until you hear her moving through the house The way your mom did Until you realize it's not a comfort to hear it Something once so familiar It's painful A reminder that she's gone Because it's not her Not the one you want it to be It's her replacement Her wannabe Your father's fiance He forced into your life Long before you were ready You don't know loneliness Until you'd rather sleep in your car Than go back in that house you used to call home When your family was whole
Depression will stay inside of you, it will be a part of who you are, and it will be an extension of your soul.* *So you have to learn to live with it.
An excerpt from my new spoken word poetry piece :)
I'd see the smiles of betrayal And greed in the most innocent faces. Voices of cruelty and abuse Echoing like music in a ballroom. I stand in the center, surrounded by Shadows and screams.
It's possible I could run, But the ice of your heart Beneath my heels keeps me Frozen in my sorrowful doubt.
Can we just Slow down Going 90 in a 35 Pushing to get there But what about here Enjoy where you are Don't try to be first Can we just Slow down Stop to smell the roses Sight see a little Before we move on Take a few steps back I'm not going yet It's all too fast Can we just Slow down I'm moving at my own pace Turtle pace Taking my time Trying to enjoy myself Before it's too late Can we just Slow down I don't want this Rushing and speeding Take a few hundred Steps the opposite direction Can we just Slow down Leave it where it started