When you texted me back
and said you were in the building,
my heart skipped.
I couldn't tell
if it was from relief that you responded,
or anxiety that you were so near.
I knew that if I saw you
I would either break down,
or become too numb to function.
But if I did not,
my mind would think up awful situations,
and send my panic level to the stars.
I can't help but wonder:
if we weren't so close,
would things be different?
I like to think
that if we were further apart,
I would have gone out to find you.
But instead, I stayed where I was.
Hoping you wouldn't pass by,
while at the same time needing to catch a glimpse.
You didn't text again
Summer poem I found while looking through some notebooks