Pain is...
Being able to imagine a future with him
Someone who will never love you.

Pain is...
Loneliness
Sadness
Being overlooked
Wishing for the impossible
Seeing everyone run from you.

Pain is spirit breaking,
Tear jerking torment.

That's what pain is.

Saying goodbye
To someone you love
Is like reading the final page
Of an amazing book.

As the last chapter ends
You begin to notice
Just how beautiful
And perfect
The plot always was.  

You appreciate the joy
And even the pain
As you read and thumb
Through every page.

Finally understanding
The moral of the story,
You realize you've reached
The end of this journey.

Although the last sentence  
Is the most difficult to read
Another great book awaits
Once you turn the final page.

Eventually you may stumble
Upon yet another great find.
Or maybe you'll return
To the book you left behind.

You may just discover
Once all is said and done
That this particular book  
Was your favorite story
All along.

Would you be my Valentines?
Just for tonight?
You can leave me in the morning
I'm used to it, i wont mind.
Go ahead and leave,
Your shoes at the door.
In the morning i wouldn't want
To see the memory of you on the floor.
What do we do now?
Do we sit by the fire?
Does the warmth between us,
Give us a temporary desire?
Lets watch the fire roar,
Let it sizzle, pop, and burn.
Lets enjoy this night,
Something we both have earned.
Would you listen to my story?
Or show me yours?
I can get kind of boring,
But ill fake it for you, of course.
I sing to you a song,
One you will never forget.
I can sing you the song
Until the sun sets.
Ill give you sweets,
Not as sweet as you,
As a token of our one night relationship
A promise of half truth
So would you be my temporary Valentines?
Just for tonight?
Tomorrow you can leave.
I'm used to it, i wont mind.

I see you talking to him
over the phone and you are smiling

I wish I could make you feel that way,
that my voice would be enough to make you laugh
that even the most senseless topics will make you smile and jump
that just by being with me would make your time stand still and stop

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
See the spark of light  that I see within your eyes
See the beauty that lies within your soul
See the person I learned to love with my all

I see you talking to him
over the phone with a smile on your lips
I recognize that smile,
for I have the same one on my lips..........,

the same smile.........when you look my way.

color me turquoise
the color of serenity
the color of healing
the color of heaven
the color of positive energy

color me indigo
the color of mourning
the color of reminiscence
the color of melancholy

color me blue
color me with the silk lips that have kissed all that is beautiful
color me with the fluttering eyes that could tell unlimited tales
color me with the tip of your finger that traces every pore of my ivory crème skin
color me with the blood that bleeds through my heart like honey

color me with the color of gaiety and sorrow
therefore color me grieving
and color me euphoric

you are solely responsible for dyeing my dominant scarlet colored blood a puzzling sapphire hue.


nevertheless, color me blue.