You don't have another chance"
"You don't deserve one more chance"
  I can hear all these chants
  From all these crowds around this clown

Oh, Now I see a face so known
No No, I never thought you'd be here in this crowd
  singing these chants along with this crowd, around this clown

My Love, if you too think that I have no chance
Then what are my chances to have another chance

I say, I love these pills, even when they say it kills
I had the blue one, then the white one
And now I have this blood red one

I love this one, who saved me when I had no one
Embraced me when I lost my love to another one

Now it's time I say 'Once I loved these pills'
Coz' now I know it kills,
all they want to see is my blood spills

So they stabbed on the wound, the wound on my back
a left over from a few years back
then I turned back
They say " Our knife got broken by your back."
"We are leaving for now but for sure we'll come back"
"Till then you keep this souvenir on your back"

Feed me all your lies as I can bear another million in this life
And you know that I can't live anymore without your lies!

Today, You pulled me up to these skies, and told me ' You can fly '
Honey, you just made me embrace that lie
Coz', to be in your eyes, I needed to live with all your lies

But, now you tell me that I got wings, Just to throw me from these heights
You said, "I want to see you fly, fly in these skies like a kite"
"But, I know your are scared of the blue skies
that's why I brought you here at this night"

I know it's all over tonight and there will be no more days or nights
So I begged to kiss me tight, for the sake of all those nights
She said ' No time for snogs tonight, For I got someone else tonight'

'A little push is all I got for you, as there is no space here in this room for you'

I spread my hands as if it's my wings
Then I looked at the skies though I know that all I got is these grounds
Now I got that push, and there was no hush
I could hear their laughs as I reach that land
Still I can hear their laughs as I rest in this yard

I might suicide now
or I just want to die somehow

I can't bear this pain
as all my efforts go in vain,
as I find no help in these help-lines.

I am not scared of breaking this world's law
All I am scared of is breaching Jesus's law
I am too confused with all these laws
But my love, what else can I do when you are lost.

How can I start living again?
How can I be happy again?
Where can I find peace again?
Will I get a chance again?
Will you be giving me a chance again?

There should be an answer for all these
For all these questions at least.
I know that I will never find an answer for this
as nobody gives any sh*t.

May be I should suicide now
though I don't wanna die now
All I now need is that moment
Huh, I wasted that second, again
I got lost and just found myself still alive
That ain't good, that ain't right as I am never gonna be alright.

May be I should suicide now
Even I think I wanna die now

Honey, Don't you think that you should help me die
As you are the only one who told me to go and die!

Dear Lord, hear the cry of your child here
She can't defy, please, slay down her fear
bless her now, lord, with your mighty faith
so never shall shake, she in this wraith.

Dear Father, you are the real healer
fend for her, Abba, as you need her
Guide their hands, in her operation
Guide her spirit, in her salvation

Lord, the father of the fatherless
reckon your daughter in her distress
the miracle, it isn't from the doctors
not their will, mercy, but her father's

Let this day be her testimony
for you saved her from her agony
the cancer in her flesh, you designed
for her good, she knows, so will not mind

All in this world prays for compassion
Father, let them see her, your creation
Let them read her life, your rede to them
Abba, claim her spirit, sign with your thumb

It's been a long time, on this bed,
        listening to all these songs of the dead
May be I should play something else instead,
        a song that could make everything redd.

"Dear, Do you remember any such song,
        that could make me forever strong?"
"Oh Joe, You waited all this time long
        for a notion which you'll never get along."

May be that's where I went wrong,
        I regret begging you to remember that song.
All I wanted was to try my luck before it's too long.
        I thought you'd remember, that your love was that vigorous song.

So now, I am back to the songs of the dead
        wishing for that day to come with no dread.
I hope for that day, a day with no more worries ahead,
        on which I get that final mend, for all these wounds in my head.

Now I can't feel a thing in this body
          Now I am nothing but a dead-body.
oh God, don't breath a new life into this body, of this noddy
          Just let me stay in this lifeless body, to lead a life with no jeopardy.

Huh, Get me out of this race, I am too tired to chase
and can no more outpace, all these rats in this place.

God, I'm running out of dates, running out of grace
and now there's a war in my brains, I can longer face.

These were my thoughts of those days, thoughts of that phase
a phase with all the haze, huh, really my dog days.

You eve' had a thousand days, stuck in a maze,
and all the people say, you are a ******, buttface!

Oh, you know, all those Sundays, and your pastor takes
a bible to praise, and shoves on your face, with a freaking verse.

Sorry, It's time I replace, a 'God' that brings disgrace.
It's time I erase, the 'you' in my brains, without leaving a trace.

No please God, Why don't you come out of space, to this base
and do what it takes, to make this g'**** world amaze!

Oh my Lord, It's too cruel to stay, with all your plays,
in that space, when your race is in search of a brace.

Lord, Just open the gates, get us out of these straits,
to a whole new place, Father, with all your grace.

Lord, just in case, if you can't deal with our mistakes,
just bury us in your rage, but please don't leave us in these Hades.

You know these kinds of thought,
                  like 'Mahathma Gandhi' once wrote
'You have to be that change,
                  if you want to see the World change'

Don't you think that it's so strange,
                  as we still haven't seen any change!
Now I know what 'Nehru' tried to state,
                  when he said 'ignorance is scared to change'

No No, I have nothing against you, My dear,
                  I just want you to come out of that fear,
that pinned you for so long in this chain,
                  from breaking out to the 'World of Change'

I hate that part of my life's plot,
                  that'd put me in a tight spot
That pity plot was made out of this thought
                  that I will never find 'hope in my Lord.'

I never saw that my perception was wrong,
                  and I made it my life's song
So that I can trip the light fantastic toe
                  and to sing that 'despair is my Lord.'

I laid all the blame on the son,
                  not knowing he is the one,
The only one that could guide the sun,
                  to shine upon the 'words of my Lord.'

Now I love this part of my life's plot,
                  where my Lord knocked off my dead knot.
I clinched all the words he spoke,
                  and now I know that 'hope is my Lord.'

Now all I want is to shout,
                  shout out loud without a doubt.
'You can bolt down this song for the faults,
                  yet your 'only hope is in my Lord.''

I still remember that night,
A picture on my screen, of a bride
With her groom, in so delight
Honey, I still remember that **** night,
the night that dropped a dark light,on the hope that we will reunite.

I held all the pills in my hand
No longer worried about it's bland
That thought no longer seemed offhand
My wet eyes joined my bleeding heart, in the joy of eluding this wasteland.

But my Lord was never done with his work
He told me that I am being a ****!
Then he decked the devil, as I look
On that night with the December's murk.

I wondered why he gave me that hope
Until I saw that text on my screen starts to pop.
Now my wet eyes joined my lull heart, and both started to *****.

I clicked on that message
made sure that it ain't any mirage.
I saw the face of this girl, a little older than those in college
Still she looked so much younger than her age.

She said,' My name is Helena'
'I no longer can bear this night'
'I saw a picture of this groom kissing his bride'
'He is the same person who promised me last night,
'that he will never ever leave out of my sight'

We had a same story-line for both our lives
Which dried all the tears in our eyes.
We gave hope to each other to survive,
to survive this night, and all the rest of the days and nights.

(There is a sequel to this one which has not yet been penned)

Do you remember what I'd told
That getting over you is my only goal
But forgive me today for playing foul
Now getting over what I'd told is my only goal.

I've been walking this same road,
Never had a moment to feel some proud.
I have no problem in saying that loud,
Joe, You can no more control this shroud,'
'It was the wrong King you ever bowed, for the past Six years'

'Huh, I've not heard of any other King,
and never kissed any of those 'Saints'' ring.
It was Jesus on whom I relied to bring,
a bit of peace of mind when I'm not winning.'
'Ei, It never ringed in the ears of your king, for the past Six years'

'Hm, That's why you're stuck in this road,
and it seems like you have not at all grown.
It was you the one who, fell for that crone,
buried the lord once you smelled her cologne.'
'Joe, It was my King who wept all this time, for the past Six years'

'Now It's time you get out of that road,
All you need to do is to seek for 'the God',
give him that confession you owed.
Ask 'the spirit' to guide you to decode,
all the words of the God, veiled from you for the past Six years'

Do you remember what I had told
That getting over you is my only goal
But forgive me today for playing foul
Now getting over what I had told is my only goal!

Oh Lord,
you know what this is all about
yet no word from your throat.
Is it that I'm so deaf!
Or is it that I'm all dead!

No No May be you're just indifferent.
May be you think I'm so irrelevant.

huh, okay, I know, I am no president,
May be not that elegant and a little bit arrogant
but still my lord, my tongue was so eloquent
I know, it reached your ears, my cries of all these years.
So may be I ain't the one who's deaf, and
may be it's you who is dead.

Forgive me, my Lord, for being this raring
Don't push me down again for this daring
It's just that, huh, it's too much.
I am so trapped in his clutch.

Lord, Why are you so indignant!
Is it because of me being so languish
for your touch that is so delinquent?
Hey, Don't you hear me, the mighty father, am I speaking Spanish!!

May be I'm the fool, coz' I believed you
I believed that you were the break through
May be it's time I do a review,
may be a search for some other Kings too
People say, that they are all tried and true!

No Oh no, You are my only master, my Lord
Ah, I just can't believe that I tried to switch this board.
He made me believe that I am ignored.
Forgive me, Lord, as I'd fallen into his hole.

All I wanted was a name, a name with all the fame
as I was so tired of all their blames.
So I set it in my brain, set it as my aim.
lord, it was all part of his ****** game.

All my worries were on this life, and I gave in myself to the butcher-knife
wanted to be renowned in this city,
never saw that I'm being an unknown in the holy city.
Now I see, as all my worries were of this life,
I should be of all the men to be pitied,
I should've remembered the crucifixion and your resurrection,
No objection, it's time I make that correction
to lead a life as your reflection.

breathe life into me
you sell your white elephant
a pie in the sky