Juhi Chavda

Juhi Chavda Sep 2014

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Relieve me.
Of the exhaustion.
Of the illness.
Of the conscious nothingness.
Of hatred.
Of pointlessness.
Of the want to be wanted.
Of the dependency.
Of thought.
Of emotion.
Of desire.
Of confusion.
Of pain.

#sad #death #depressed #tired #relief

Juhi Chavda Sep 2014

Your Armor Is Also Your Cage

Swinging is the closest I've felt to flying.
Closest to freedom.
And how can freedom be safe?
I can not fly safely.
I can not live safely.

No matter how beautifully it's built,
Even with the smoothest marble,
Or the shiniest metal,
Or the prettiest chains,

Your armor is still a cage.

#freedom #fly #uncertainty #cage #safety #prison

Sep 2014

Sjr1000

Hold On

Hold on
Hold on
Hold on to the light inside
before it's gone
Hold on to the love you feel.

Darkness is coming around the bend
The plagues are moving in on the winds
The wars are raging in retaliation’s name
The sun is burning,
shooting solar flares our way.
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on to the wisdom of your mind

Life is precious
Comes and goes
Time is an illusion
That we all know
Lovers, they also come and go
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on to the light inside
The mandalas in the faces of the flowers
call your name.

Against all odds
Against the deranged machinations at the hands of the gods
We’re mere humans
Standing at the rim of the stars
Staring out into space
In this brief
Time and place
Throwing sand at the waves
To protect the
Sand castle walls we built,
As children at the ocean.
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on to the light inside
Childhood joy and wonder
Before it to comes and is gone.

I weep these tears
For the innocent sorrow of all mankind
Who has always been so sick inside
And never remembered to hold on
Hold on
Hold on
To the momentary flickers of all those lights inside

Hold on
Hold on
We all know what’s coming
Darkness to each and every one.

Let’s make this pact
In this room
We’ll hold on to the light inside
Until the last candle is done
And the last breath blows out the light
And whispers lovingly
“Good night.”

Hold on

Steve's 185 Hippie Dream.

Juhi Chavda Sep 2014

Home

Take me back to the place
Where everything's okay.
Where a new day isn't a new illness.
And dealing with it does not mean
Losing every waking moment to insanity.
Where small problems
Are really just small problems
And not disguised as life long chains.
Where peace is just around the corner
And acceptance isn't an unattainable feat.
Where you can do ordinary tasks with ease,
And where death isn't such a tease.
Where your mother's hugs are
The only medicine you'd ever need.
Take me back home, take me home please.

#home #illness #hope #nostalgia #sick #tired #sickness

Juhi Chavda Sep 2014

Abyss

There I go falling again
Spiraling into the abyss.
Is this happening?
Or am I imagining things?

I can see you shout
You fail to filter through
My groggy melancholy
That I can't undo.

Even if you were to whisper
right into my ear,
I'm lost somewhere else
I can not hear.

What is the point
Of anything at all?
Are you tired of being around?
I don't hear you call.

So you've left and
I guess this is goodbye.
Too tired to stay
Too broken to cry.

#sad #depression #falling #melancholy #abyss

Juhi Chavda Sep 2014

Don't Do It.

Please don't **** yourself tonight.
Maybe you're tired of seeing the same faces everyday.
Maybe those faces don't care.
Maybe waking up is a task.
And you're tired of putting on the mask.

Maybe I'm no one to tell you,
And maybe you don't care anymore.
But look inside,
And ask yourself
Despite everything, wouldn't I miss myself?

Wouldn't I miss the mirror smiling back at me?
Wouldn't I miss singing at the top of my lungs in the shower?
Wouldn't I miss listening to my favorite song?
Wouldn't I miss talking to myself like I'm my best friend?
Wouldn't I miss having me everywhere I went?

Isn't that enough? Having you? You're the only one you've always had.
Will always have.
And that is never a bad thing. Please don't abandon yourself.
If you cant see it right away,
Look deeper. You know you love having you around.

Don't do it. For you.

#suicide #depression #death #yourself #dont