I'm so not okay.
stop forgetting all the nasty things you tell me,
like "*******" or "selfish *****".
I'm so not okay.  
my throat is dry because I can't cry and my stomach is sore because I can't eat.
I'm so not okay.
I want someone to love me, but the only thing I am to another is a *** toy.
I'm so not okay.
I'm an entire year behind in school and I have to fake being all right to make sure I finish all my classes before next year.
I'm so not okay.
maybe another bruise or another cut would make me okay.

Knitting yarn, she used to say
Son, your karma will always pay
Sooner or later, it doesn’t matter
False pride always fade away

Knitting yarn, she used to pray
May my child be healthy!
And will always be
Alongside me

Knitting yarn, she used to take nap
For filling rest in the gap
She closed her eyes for the time being
And I admired the most beautiful human being

|AB|

Who am I, to tell you what it feels
How to be an ideal human being
Who am I, to make you believe
All the things which can't be seen

Who am I, to cheer you up
When all you wanted is to weep
Who am I, to pamper you
When you don’t even need

Who am I, to say
That I love you
Well, I am just another guy
Who’s going to try

|AB|

I want to hold you in my memory.
I want to hear you in my words.
I want to bathe with you, in warming beautiful seas that swell.
Find echoes of you in curling seashells., washed up on the shore
I want to play your magical music, in a modern day movie score.

I want to hear your music carried on the wind.
I want to hear your voice when the telephone rings.
I want to look in the mirror and see you standing behind me peering over my shoulder.
That's my fantasy.
What's yours?
(c)Livvi

In a childlike state of mind
Slowly my mother drifts
Her thoughts are hard to find
As the sands of time sift

With the loving mother that I once knew
In the hard times she saw me through
But now her mind drifts to something new
To a place where I can’t find “you”

I see a lost “you” with your childlike eyes
As you drift towards a dementia side
Not realising the pain you left behind
Soon the mother I will no longer find

In a childlike state of mind
Slowly my mother drifts
Her thoughts are hard to find
As the sands of time sift


Slowly losing you to dementia Mum I will always love you X