I was sitting on the windowsill
crying after having a bad day
He came home from work with takeout and flowers
and asked me if I was okay
I quickly wiped my tears away
I did not want him to see me cry
I told him "hello" with a fake smile
that you couldn't ignore if you tried
As I was taking the food out of the takeout bags
he looked at me so serious
I asked him what was the matter
he answered do not be ridiculous
I felt stupid for hiding my sadness
I felt even more dumb for being sad in the first place
As I cleared my throat to tell him what was wrong
he kindly put his hand on my face
He said "I do not know what is making you sad
if it is something I can help you with then please let me help
I know how much you like to do things on your own
but sometimes we all need to lean on somebody else
I am not here just for the good days
I am here for the bad days too
and if you want to sit and cry
then I will sit and cry with you
Do not be ashamed to tell me how you are feeling
I won't be angry at you for being human
I will hold you for hours if you want me to
while I list off the reasons why you are an amazing woman
I will spend hours being a goof
until I get you to laugh
or I will lay down with you in bed
and watch you sleep as I caress your hand
If singing you a song will make you feel better
I will sing every song that I know
If I could go to space and bring you every single star in the sky
I would do that if it will make your smile glow
I am sorry you feel this way
I am sorry your day ******
I will do everything to make you feel better
because I love you that much."

i got really good at living in my head when i was a kid
and now i can't seem to find my way out.

how much is reality?
which parts did i wish to see?

… and though it became void and formless
I knew that it was good
for the same as my conscience lives
so to as the light upon our bodies would
if only we could accept it into our lives

… as I looked upon silence where there was sound
I knew that it was good
for the same as I had witnessed a moment before
so too the shadow upon the moons face should
revealing how my soul bleeds as my body in the night

Nothing works out in the end.
All of us will be gone.
Our name will not be remembered.

The signs and lights will fade to black.
The Hollywood sign will collapse of old age, like us.
Poppies shrivel up, their red coats falling onto the scorched earth.
Grapes transcend into wrinkly sacs of bitter wine.

The way your hand slipped in mine,
the fingerprints will rub away.
Our heart beats slow,
diminish.
Our laughter evanesce,
wanes
as our voices descend past the Pacific ocean.

They say that the Arizona trout is found
only in this state,
and I wonder if I had not found you
who else would have taken me in?
The sore problem is maybe
you have discovered me on accident
when there was someone else out there
that needed you instead.
I'm petrified at the thought
that if I swim away,
no one would ever find me again.

It's getting easier to say goodbye to you.
Every time I migrate away from home to find warmth,
leave you behind in the cold,
I am taking back a piece of my soul
that I have left in your icy hands.
You still have the same hold, the same capture,
but I am learning that it's much easier
to keep my heart to myself.

Sitting in the park
I am the only one here
I am drinking a sweet tea
pretending it is a beer
The weather was beautiful this morning
now it is hot as a *****
It is making me cranky
I hate days like this
Today I ditched school
because I am tired as ****
When I go to bed early
waking up is a pain in the ****
I must have insomnia
I really need help
I am getting physically sick
I do not know what to do with myself
I know once I go to sleep
I will wake up again
For now I am stuck in this park
until the school day ends



I had quite a mouth on me in high school...

I think love is stupid sometimes
The way it messes with your emotions is not right
I hate when you fall for someone
you think they love you back but they don't
The only reason why you know that is because you caught them somewhere with another girl
Did it break your heart?
Did it make you cry?
Did seeing the one you love with someone else tear your world apart?
Yes, yes and yes
Do you still love that man?
Yes.
Why?
Why are women like that?
Why do we waste our time loving men that don't love us?
We ask ourselves these questions and our answers are?
We don't know.
Why is love complicated?
Nobody knows.
That is why I think love is stupid...

Sometimes