The pressure on my chest,
Before I took the bow,
The final word conspires
Against a holy fire.

Can I breath again?
My lungs fill with fire,
This time is ever so dire.
Can I breath again?

Bodies piled in the corner of my closet,
Masks hang the row above my bed,
A faucet that always leaks, hanging out of my eye.

Can I breath again?
My legs are crumbling under,
Cause I'm such a downer.
Can I breath again?

My drunken affair
Lying in bed, two days out of every week
Thinking, wondering
Living for the now
But worrying about the future
And being scared of the past
Feeling consumed, engulfed by the flame
That was once
A confusion
I find myself crying at the thought
Of life not being as authentic as it can be
The bridge that I once crossed has torn
Yet I find myself more accustomed to it
Than ever before
Like a hawk
I plunge down toward the earth
And gather up what I can
To survive

Parties are fun,
But then I don't like them,
An introvert does not like it because,
They have no one to walk beside them,
No one to follow,
Strangers face all around,
No groups to join,
No one I trust,
And it eats me up from inside,
To watch others have fun,
Laugh and dance with loved ones,
And I feel jealous,
Angry and sad,
To them I envy,
Sit alone in a corner,
And be polite,
And not scream out of,
Utter frustration,
People everywhere,
Not a single friend there.

i sent flashing lights to his door,
i didn't want to risk it.
the image of those pills and that deep brown coffee liqueur scared me, the thought of him filling himself with it.
he told me he wasn't mad at me for it,
he told me everything was okay and not to do it again, though.
i guess he felt too bad,
i guess it hurt him like last time.
she sent the flashing lights to the forest,
she told me that things weren't looking up.
my cheeks are tacky with tears,
my nose is stuffy.
now i'm just waiting all night,
now i'm just waiting until i get a message that they found him in the forest.
i can't sleep knowing that i'm part of why,
i can't sleep wondering if he'll be okay.

My words now
Seem only
Adequate
But I cannot seem to adequately
Put into words
What I want to say.

i want you
in every way there is to want a person

from lazy rainy days
sitting around in underwear
wrapped up in the covers
enveloped in each other

to lustful late nights
high happy and in love
too absorbed with each other
to focus on anything else

i want you
and i see so much in you
that counting all your perfections
would be like counting the stars
there's too many to keep track of
and they just seem endless

i am utterly in love
with every inch of your being
every corner of your mind
and everything in between

i might not know what i believe
or where i'm going
or what i'm doing
but i do hope
you'll hold my hand
and wander blindly with me
because as long as i'm with you
i don't need a destination
you are the journey

i am simply enamored with your entity
captivated by your character
fascinated
infatuated
amorous
in love