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Jack Jenkins Jun 2018
I throw paper airplanes at the moon
All the poems and love meant for you
All the wishes on shooting stars
Folded and flown into the wind
Release
In the quiet peace
Find freedom in letting go
You don't talk about the hurt you carry
You just learn to live with the pain
Jack Jenkins Jun 2018
i hurt
because
i know i
hurt
you
Jack Jenkins Jun 2018
Drink the pain that is sweet to the heart;
Ease the ache of what was lost,
With sharp words;
Enjoy the tears down my cheeks,
When I recall with fondness,
The feeling of your heart
&
Mine
Great happiness and pain came together when it came to me and her. A perfect storm of lace and lashes and I loved it and hated it.
Jack Jenkins Jun 2018
You're the kid
Who didn't have anxiety
Growing up

You're the kid
Who was never abused
Parents didn't lay a finger on me

You're the kid
Who didn't fit in your Christian family
Black sheep

You're the kid
Who saw everyone else suffer
But not you

...not you...

The few friends you had
When they left, were they worthy?
Or did you **** it up again?

Your faith is misfired, again
Schizophrenic
A brittle child and a brute

Did you spare your skin the razor
Just to cut your heart on glass?
Chew and swallow every shard

You're four drinks in tonight, Jack
Your mind on repeat
Thinking of lost things

...fleeting things...

Jason Mraz serenades your
Buzzed mind
"I Won't Give Up"

That was "the song" for her
You gave up Jack
Pour the fifth glass

You're just a kid
Playing catchup on anxiety
Growing old

You're just a kid
Savoring every sharp word
Disappointment

You're just a kid
Quitting faith when it's hard
Begging for love when you're alone

You're just a kid
Suffering and nobody sees you
Just me

...yeah...
Jack Jenkins May 2018
I framed the stars in the sky above,
For you,
Once upon a time,
In a time far, far away;

Every star was a poem shining for you,
Meant to fall on you,
Across moonlit shoulders,
Dedicated to your beautiful soul;

The wolves saw the light as well, they came,
Gnashed teeth severed,
I tasted bitterness & swallowed,
Jealousy & anger flashed in my skies;

The stars framed in the sky above,
For you,
Bled red with rage,
The poems stopped with my love;

I dwell in this created darkness,
A wasteland,
Too scared to create stars,
So sorry for everything I have done.
Jack Jenkins May 2018
The leaves of life, fallen from their homes in the branches, blow through my ribcage (because I feel so empty)

Bid farewell to love, never to feel your thorns on my heart again; being alone is safer in the solitude of madness

Let me swallow the sand from the hourglass of time, so that it can be empty like me (you're on my mind lately)

Words are printed from a machine like they are nothing but a receipt; simple sounds, words, without talking

It was too far to fall away, crashing through the solar system to die a million miles away (you were my star in the sky)

Sometimes I sit like I'm in a tranquil garden and let the memories of our friendship wash the pain from my eyes; I have not forgotten who we once were

I want to hold your hand in the silence of the night and let the static from the TV blanket our ears (I miss our heartbeats, when did we lose them?)

We trusted love to the wrong people who didn't know what it's value was, and it ripped us apart like a bacterial infection

Now I breathe your smell, and I see the bloodied remains I made you, and I'm sorry; I'm so sorry. (This wasn't how it was supposed to end)
The lines in the parentheses can be a poem on their own.

This is about you, and it's taken me a year to understand I ******* up. Letting go of my anger was the hardest thing I've done and I still have to do it daily. But I still remember fondly how we used to stay awake talking to each other. I miss being close with you...
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