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imadeitallup Jun 2013
we were left here
empty and ready
to fall into decay
used to be so much life
and in the dark,
there were bright lights

the home we built
caught on fire and
burned to the ground
there's just a skeleton
a naked foundation that
used to hold our dreams

we were torn down
condemned to demolition
we tied the knot to
the chain on the wrecking ball
we crumbled
under...

the roads we pioneered
are long overgrown
but we still know
the way by heart
a rhythmic pounding
from my very bones
imadeitallup May 2014
violent
beating
our hearts
bleeding
together

go ahead
and run
for your
life
you know
I'll find
you again
but I can't
promise
I'll be
the same
person when
that happens

torture
stonewall
captive hearts
breaking
apart

so we
meet again
but now
we're standing
on opposite
fences
and I got
the feeling
I'm staring
down a barrel
you've got me
in your sights
but do you
have the guts
to pull
the trigger?

vacancy
strangers
familiar hearts
begin to forget
what it felt
like to not be
empty
Not quite sure if this is a song or poem yet. I just wrote this earlier this morning. :)
imadeitallup Oct 2012
if you get close enough to me
I'm not free
I'm not free
if you make a home for me
I'm your pet
I'm your pet
I don't wanna be that
I don't wanna be that
won't be the calm
before your storm
I won't be the nails
that you hang from
I won't be your anything
I'm nobody
I'm just roaming the streets
trying to stay alive
if you start feeding me
I'll crave you
I'll crave you
if you start taking care of me
I'll need you
I'll need you
I don't wanna do that
I don't wanna do that
won't be the calm
before your storm
I won't be the nails
that you hang from
I won't be your anything
I'm nobody
I'm just roaming the streets
trying to stay alive
imadeitallup Oct 2012
indulge in the days of your youth
for they are few
they are futile
rejoice in the insanity of today
for you will miss
all of it someday
is that you pulling on my sleeve?
or am I just caught on a memory?
all I have left of the year
I spent under your spell
is that big dent in my car
and a hole in my heart
run the cities streets until
you wear the shoes
off of your feet
make the most of tonight
because none's promised
the morning light
is that you pulling on my sleeve?
or am I just caught up a memory?
all I have left of the life
we built with our blood and tears
is a scar on my arm and
a chill in my spine
imadeitallup Nov 2012
you can show your teeth
alpha male
you can growl at me
alpha male
you can chase me away
alpha male
but if you follow me
alpha male
I will fashion a coat
from your skin, tiger.
RAWR!
imadeitallup Oct 2012
you can show your teeth
alpha male
you can growl at me
alpha male
you can chase me away
alpha male
but if you follow me
alpha male
I will fashion a coat
from your skin, tiger.
RAWR!
imadeitallup Oct 2012
I knew it was close to the end of the world
I saw the fire in the sky, felt it in my bones
I felt myself being judged for all my sins
you were a devil, with an angels wings

we are never gonna see eye to eye
your always looking down on me
I'm always looking up to you

I always knew that you were the knife
so sharp, so cold, never turn my back on you
I felt you slipping under my skin
no pressure applied, effortlessly cutting me
into a million pieces

I knew the battle was lost long ago
ran out of ammunition, a cause to believe in
I caught myself surrendering
swallowed my pride, got on my knees

you were never really gonna change
you're like a shapeshifter,
you always go back to the way you were

I always knew that you were the knife
so sharp, so cold, never turn my back on you
I felt you slipping under my skin
no pressure applied, effortlessly cutting me
into a million pieces
imadeitallup Oct 2012
You're just a scab that
I pick until it bleeds again
You're just a hole that
I stick my finger in
You're never going to
be what I need
You're never going to
see what I see
You're just a torn out
page in my history
You're just a generic
hard copy mystery
You're never going to
be enough for me
You're never going to
hold my curiosity
You're just a blemish
that I have to cover up
You're just the dirt
that I sweep under the rug
You'll never clean up
the mess you made
You're the stain that
will never fade
imadeitallup Oct 2012
Please don't do this
Don't run away again
Your immunity to my tears
Drives me ******* insane
Are you really going to
Make me watch this die?
Are you really going to
Tell me another lie?
Everything you ever gave,
Pales in comparison to what you take
Everything we every made
Pale in comparison to what you break
Please don't leave like this
Don't walk away angry again
Your thirst for my blood
Is beyond what I can explain
Are you really going to
Treat me like you hate me?
Are you really going to
Hold me down and **** me?
Everything you ever gave,
Pales in comparison to what you take
Everything we every made
Pale in comparison to what you break
imadeitallup Dec 2012
she said,
"keep your
pretty little
head up"
don't cry,
don't waste
your mascara
you better
believe she's
not crying
for you
you better
believe she's
not dying
to be
with you
get up
on your
feet and
make her
see what
she's missing

you wrap
around me
like a snake
I can't breathe
I can't move
I'll suffocate
if I don't
get away
from you

you used
to say
we're never
gonna be
like everybody
else is
we're never
gonna take
each other
for granted
you're never
gonna stop
holding
my hand

you wrap
around me
like a snake
I can't breathe
I can't move
I'll suffocate
if I don't
get away
from you

if I don't
get away
from you...
imadeitallup Oct 2012
I'm not a tree
for you to mark
you're not gonna
cut me down
and burn me
for warmth
you don't have
to push me
I've already fallen
you want to
cut off my limbs
and leave me
defenseless
I could've been
a breath of
fresh air
you held your breath
and now you're
unconscious
I'm not shading
you from the light
and the storms
anymore
you have to see---
and if you burn
get struck by lightning
just let it be.
imadeitallup Sep 2013
I know why
you stand so far
away from me
cause there's
someone in
between us

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

you can't  kiss me
goodbye with her name
on the tip of your tongue
you can't see me 'cause
she's caught your eye

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

I won't watch you
look for her in me
I don't want your heartless
body lying next  to me
I'm not sorry that I
won't be that girl

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I
© Ghosts of Punk 2013
imadeitallup Oct 2012
I don't think, I know
that I'm smarter than you
you think I'm weak
cause ya saw me lickin' my wounds
now you're prowlin the woods
lookin' for little miss not quite as good
but I got news for ya baby
I'm the big bag wolf
and I'm coming for you.
when you sleep, I'm out
feedin' the animal inside of me
you think I'm crazy
but you haven't seen **** sweet baby
no, I'm not howling for you
I'm devouring the innocent
to fill the hole you left
but I got news for ya baby
I'm the big bad wolf
and I'm coming for you.
imadeitallup Oct 2012
You move through me like blood
Always in and out of my heart
If I lose all of you
I know that I will die
The sun rises every morning
But there is no light
And when it goes down
I lose myself in a crowd
And I don't dream anymore
I just playback memories
Like a movie I've seen before
Am I like the drag from your cigarette?
Blackening your insides
You **** me in, you ******* out
You know you should stop
But you're addicted
If you quit me completely
You'll be going thru withdrawal
you can pretend that your
body isn't fiending for me
when you're not on me
you feel nothing
imadeitallup Jun 2014
She was more pure of heart than she let on.
More beautiful than she believed.
The sun itself would be envious
of the light in her eyes.
She was a lady of many hats,
all of which she wore elegantly.
But there was an emptiness within her
that's gravitational pull was so intense,
not even the heaviest of hearts were safe.
She, with the smirk of a fox.
She speaks my thoughts out loud,
she faces my worst fears,
she wanders like I do...
"Run away with me", her eyes scream.
Her mouth whispers "If only".
Simultaneously giving and taking hope.
It was a tear in the universe,
a glitch in time, a crack in faith.
This was not supposed to be.
Not now.
For her the wedding bells toll.
For I the silence of singularity.
I watched her eyes start to shimmer,
and flood with confirmation.
She caught herself, and smiled.
"We will meet again...someday." She shouted,
as she disappeared into the crowd.
It was time for the father, bride dance.
As she walked away...I thought,
"I am quite possibly watching part of my soul walk away."
"Of course, I would meet someone who is perfect for me on my wedding day" She said. xxxx
imadeitallup Apr 2013
I wonder
will I ever
understand
why you took
what you took
from me?

did it ever
occur to you
that maybe
I just want
an answer
so I can
move on?
I loved you
so much
oh why?
because your
black heart
can't see in the dark
the gold you
struck to create
that spark

so tired of
feeling low that
I just want to
be high
all the time

I wish that
things were different
but they're not
should've told
you all of this
when I had
the chance
instead of
drinkin and wishin
I was dead
but I won't
waste my last
breath

I'm tired of
feeling what
you won't
come now,
who's the
broken one?
imadeitallup Apr 2014
looking at you now
I don't see how
I couldn't see through
your veil of lies
I look into your
cold dead eyes
and I don't want
to love you
I want to
bury you

oh, it makes me crazy
thinking about how
you got away with ******
but I'll tell you this,
if you ever hurt her
again
just know that I know
how to keep a secret
buried

saying it aloud
it seems crazy
to me now
how I love you
in spite of the way
you brutalize me
what does it
say about me?
that I can
bury anything

oh, it makes me crazy
thinking about how
you got away with ******
but I'll tell you this,
if you ever hurt her
again
just know that I know
how to keep a secret
buried
This is another poem turned into a song. One day I'll release the song ;)
imadeitallup Dec 2012
when you come home
will I recognize you?
all of these things that
I know you're missing
ripped the clocks off the wall
I can't take the ticking

I know every word
I know this dance
I know this story
by heart

you didn't get
the best of me
but you could of,
if you didn't give
the worst of you

when you come home
will it be boarded up?
because I feel so vacant
and I want to fall apart
I closed the curtain cause
I can't play this part

I know every word
I know this dance
I know this story
by heart

you didn't get
the best of me
but you could of,
if you didn't give
the worst of you
imadeitallup Dec 2012
your eyes
were the
only light
that pierced
the midnight
you words
were the
only sound
that pierced
the silence

I'm tired of fighting
fighting with you
fighting for you
fighting with myself
I'm tired of lying
lying for you
lying to myself
lying to my friends

your kiss
was the
only touch
that penetrated
my walls
your revenge
was the
only blow
that penetrated
my defenses

I'm tired of fighting
fighting with you
fighting for you
fighting with myself
I'm tired of lying
lying for you
lying to myself
lying to my friends

think it's time
for me to call it a night
I'm exhausted and
I'm all out of fight
imadeitallup Oct 2012
convince yourself that I'm nothing
camouflage like the coward you've become
if you're not afraid of anything,
than what are you running from?
pound on your chest and roar
make yourself seem begger than you are
if you don't want me anymore,
what do you mark your territory for?
I've got your number
I've got your sign
no I'm not yours
but you were never mine
One more excuse, for the road
You can't tell me, I already know
A few more tears, to lubricate
One more kiss, to seal my fate
convince yourself that I'm to blame
live a lie for another seven years
if you're so happy without me,
than why are you drunk all the time?
watch me like a predator stalking prey
please get your claws out of me
if you're not out for blood,
than why are you always cutting me?
I've got your number
I've got your sign
no I'm not yours
but you were never mine
One more excuse, for the road
You can't tell me, I already know
A few more tears, to lubricate
One more kiss, to seal my fate
imadeitallup Oct 2012
everybody's creeping
and cheating
everybody's lying
and crying and
dying inside
all we really want
is to feel alive again
this city's seething
with faithless believing
that things are gonna change
while we still stay the same
this is all pointless
be with who you miss
lay the past to rest
or bury the path to happiness
these feelings are residual
repeating and leading us
straight to hell
what you hate you used to love
screaming and bleeding
until theres nothing left of us
everybody's faking
and breaking and
pretending their hating
everybody's chasing
and free basing
when we don't really
want to fall in love
we want to rise above and
reach for what we really want
this is all pointless
be with who you miss
lay the past to rest
or bury the path to happiness
these feelings are residual
repeating and leading us
straight to hell
what you hate you used to love
screaming and bleeding
until theres nothing left of us
everybody's running
away from something
and putting on a front
everybody's hiding
and trying to find
someone they can confide in
when the truth lies in the dark
close your eyes and follow your heart
it's not about what you want
it's about what you can't live without
this is all pointless
be with who you miss
lay the past to rest
or bury the path to happiness
these feelings are residual
repeating and leading us
straight to hell
what you hate you used to love
screaming and bleeding
until theres nothing left of us
imadeitallup Nov 2012
my head burns
I need a cigarette
Stop staring at me
I won't look at you

I'll have another drink
Fade into another world

If we make eye contact,
I know that I'll forget
Crimes your hands commited
Lies your lips whispered

how many times
can we play this game?
we beat each other
over and over again

I'll have a few shots
Do my second line

If we make eye contact,
I know that I'll forget
Crimes your hands commited
Lies your lips whispered

I can't get enough
I can't wait for this
night to be over
And I'll wake up
Hate myself, and
carry on...

If we make eye contact,
I know that I'll forget
Crimes your hands commited
Lies your lips whispered
imadeitallup Jun 2014
Just one bat of her lashes, and every neuron in my brain was conspiring to steal her heart. So I became a thief. I become a lot of things in an instant, the way a chameleon changes colors. Her heart was reduced to a jewel, courting became a heist, and possession was just the *** afterwards. She was nothing more than a crime. A terrible thing that I committed.
Inspired by a night with an unavailable soul mate.
imadeitallup Apr 2014
yeah, you're beautiful
you're a dying star
you're just burning up

knowing
doesn't make you
wise
surviving
doesn't make you
brave
what makes
the man
are the things
he'll never quite
be

yeah, you're beautiful
you're a dying star
you're just burning up

loving
doesn't make you
kind
honesty
doesn't make you
true
what would've
made the difference
are the things
you'd never
do

yeah, you're beautiful
that's all you are
it's all you are.
I wrote this little bit this morning while watching BBC. :)
imadeitallup Oct 2012
I'm not perfect,
But I'm perfect for you
I don't deserve it,
But I deserve you
I don't want to die,
But I'm dying to
I'm not good enough,
But I'm good for you

Time heals
Broken hearts
Time steals
Beautiful parts

I don't want to fall in love,
I want to rise above
I don't wanna get over you,
I want to get under your skin
I'm not getting over it,
I'm so much bigger
I'm never gonna change,
But I'll never be the same

Time changes
stubborn minds
Time strangles
us from behind

I can't stand
to take this lying down
I won't bend
so I can wrap my mind around

love steals
more than hearts
love reveals
our ugliest parts
imadeitallup Dec 2013
the first time
that I felt
your gravity
our worlds
collided and I
was devastated
but I stood
in the ashes
and I had
faith in...
you, me
this, us

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road

now I don't
know who
you are
and I don't
recognize
myself
don't know
what this is
I can't even
remember
what we
were like

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road
if you do
you'll be
going alone
I song I wrote for Ghosts of Punk.
imadeitallup Oct 2012
You used to show up at my door,
broken, and defeated by the world
And I'd take you in like a stray,
feed you, give your head a place to rest
My arms used to be a cradle,
A warm, safe place for you to dream
Somehow they became a prison,
Captivation, soon turned to captivity

If I could've stopped this casting
From changing our characters
You wouldn't be a liar
And I wouldn't be a fool

You used to undress in front of me,
Disarm, expose yourself to me
And I'd kiss all of your wounds,
dress them, give you something for the pain
My eyes used to be your windows
They used to be open, and full of light
Somehow they are just holes now,
Something you can't get out of

If I could've stopped this devolution
From taking us back in time
You wouldn't be a stranger
And I wouldn't be a stranger
imadeitallup May 2014
If only I could bore
Into your skull
Hotwire your thoughts

If only I could crack
Open your chest
Steal your heart back

If only I could tap
Into your spine
Turn that noodle to stone

If only I could slice
Open your belly
Show you what guts look like

If only I could tear
You another hole
Would you put my love there?
Just a fun, cheeky little rant. :p
imadeitallup May 2014
I can't reach
consciousness
untethered
falling deeper
into darkness

and they try
but I just can't
I don't know why
It feels wrong
to love anything

but I remember
smiling and dancing
sweet salty September
oh, everything...

I can feel it
drawing closer but
not close enough
I need it now
something to believe

and I try
but I just can't
understand why
what I think
isn't what I say

but I remember
laughing and crying
through each endeavor
and our love dying
in my arms

I loved you like
the sun loves a star
so distant and mysterious
but we can't exist
in the same galaxy

and we try
and we live our lies
but we always have an eye
out for that distant light
imadeitallup Oct 2012
doesn't matter how clever I am
I can't figure this out
doesn't matter how beautiful I am
I can't captivate you
doesn't matter how good I am
it's just all bad
you've stolen my smile
you smothered my laughter
you used my tears to wash
the blood off of your hands
all of the screaming and crying
all of the pushing and fighting
now you tell me there's nothing
left between us
doesn't matter how far I go
I'm still here for you
doesn't matter what I say
you're not listening
doesn't matter how loyal I am
You'll betray me
you've stolen my smile
you smothered my laughter
you used my tears to wash
the blood off of your hands
all of the screaming and crying
all of the pushing and fighting
now you tell me there's nothing
left between us
imadeitallup May 2014
I love it when
you stumble over
your words 'cause
I made your heart
pound so hard
your voice skipped
like a record

I don't chase perfection
I won't waste my
precious life chasing
dragons and unicorns

I love it when
you check your breath
and fix your hair
when I go
powder my nose
'cause you don't know
that I'm in love
with the man
behind the mask

I don't need a prince,
a crown, or a palace
All I need, all I know
when I lay my head
in your lap, I am home.
imadeitallup May 2014
her eyes turned black
her voice went flat
she stabbed me in the back
when I turned to run

she's a demon
she's a demon
I love your
darkness
pour it on me
like molten lava
baby, scorch me
I need to be clean

she stopped me in my tracks
stopped my heart just like that
she pulled it out of my chest
while I was sleeping in her bed

she's a demon
she's a demon
I love your
darkness
pour it on me
like molten lava
baby, scorch me
I need to be clean

D'exercice vous
serait blasphème
mais il vaut mieux pour moi
to exercise you
would be blasphemy
but it's best for me
I need to be clean
this is a really cool song I wrote on the ukulele for my "Ghosts of Punk Rock Project". :)
imadeitallup May 2014
it's not about
who's right
or wrong
who lost
who won
'cause when
you're gone
I feel so
hollowed
why can't I
help myself?
I want to
crush you
but I love you
...
It's not about
who ****** up
or who got ******
who lost it all
who lost the torch
'cause when
I'm gone
you're just
a shell
why do you
always run?
you know
I will not
follow

is this how
it will always be?
you vs. me
used to be us
against the world
how did we
ruin the perfect thing?
we reduced an
empire into ashes
over a text message
...
I treasure this little lyric <3
imadeitallup Jul 2013
I look down at my hands
try to feel again
what was once so heavy in them
but it's long gone
and the worst thing ever
watching the one
who loves you pretend
to love someone else
I don't dream anymore
it's too dangerous
to wake up with
the thought of us

if I don't ever listen
why are you still talking?
if you're gonna leave me
why aren't you walking?

look me in the eyes
and tell me that
I won't cry because I
know you're lying
I couldn't take another hit
never thought that
I'd ever raise my fist to you
we've crossed these lines
there's no going back
we're both in dangerous territory
which one will make it out?

if I don't deserve better
why did you fall apart in my arms?
if we're meant to be together
why did I have to become someone else?

all these questions...
we already know the answers.
imadeitallup Aug 2013
have you ever woken up
screaming?
have you ever wanted to
tear everything you love
into pieces?

nothing satisfies me like
it did
there's a mouth watering
craving that has
borne its way right
through me

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.

have you ever stopped
dreaming?
when you find out
nothing is what it seems
and it never stops
bleeding

nothing touches me like
it did
left a wound so wide
and so deep it never
closed again

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.
imadeitallup Nov 2012
I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost

These nights that we
haven't spent together
Nights I spent in the crowd
Trying not to feel alone
Haven't we already exchanged
these words many times before?
Maybe this time we can put
the puzzle back together?
Are we missing pieces
Or are they just lost?

I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost

These fights that had
So many casualties
Fights that brought us
together and tore us apart
Haven't we already exchanged
these words many times before?
Maybe this time we'll finally
call the time of death?
Do we have a fighting chance
Or is this love terminal?

I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost
imadeitallup Oct 2012
She's got your eyes
She's got your smile
She's got your voice
But she looks for weakness
She lusts for my blood
She uses her tongue as a weapon
She's not the girl I know
I'm sorry I looked away
when you were searching
in my eyes for what you
couldn't say
I know I've made mistakes
but I've never ever ever
ran away
She's got my memories
She's got my heart
She's got pictures
But she wants to forget
She wants to break it
She wants to keep it in a box
She's not the girl I love
I'm sorry I looked away
when you were searching
in my eyes for what you
couldn't say
I know I've made mistakes
but I've never ever ever
ran away
imadeitallup Jul 2013
you are a
crisp white
tee shirt
I want to
hang you
in my closet
and only
take you out
to show
my friends
how good
you look on me
in a manner
of course
in which
I don't seem
to care
maybe I'll
throw you
on the floor
when I meet
some random
girl at a bar
you never know
you never know
until you're
lying there
watching them
so before
you treat me
like an object
remember
how bright
you are
how nice
you are
to me
and any day
you could fade
and I could
give you away.
imadeitallup Oct 2012
you spin your web
and I fly right in
invisible
weightless
captivity

I'm all wrapped up
waiting to be drained
suspended
helpless
weak

rip off my wings
and laugh in my face
predatory
poisonous
insect

cover my mouth
and strip me naked
*******
merciless
brutal
imadeitallup Sep 2013
I thought I had a fortune
I wrapped my arms around it
but it crumbled like the dust
it always was
if I keep digging
if I keep digging
will I find something?
I keep digging
I keep on digging
my own grave
I thought I had an empire
I stood before countless faces
but they all were blind like the mice
that they were
if I fall asleep
if I fall asleep
will I wake in a dream?
if I keep telling myself
if I keep telling myself
will it become true?
imadeitallup Apr 2013
oh, the sudden trauma of it all
out of nowhere we hit a wall
I'll stumble away from the wreck
and wipe the blood from my head

I'll be okay
Just wake me
up please

for it was not love, but *****
that brought us together
now almost 2 years have passed by
you're crippled, and I almost died

honey it was spite, not loyalty
that kept you next to me
and now that it's too late to
avoid this ****** twist of fate

I don't give
a **** but I'll
take one

for it was not love, but *****
that brought us together
now almost 2 years have passed by
you're crippled, and I almost died
imadeitallup Sep 2013
so tired of your excuses
and the truth is,
you're a liar and a coward
and you're never gonna learn

sing it like the gospel baby
I don't have a prayer
you come to me when you're broken
expecting some kind of repair

truth is, I'm not your savior
but I don't wanna come
down from this cloud
I called you a devil
said you never loved me
just didn't wanna be dethroned

so tired of playing someone else
and the truth is,
I'm too good of an actor
no one sees my real character

play the victim with conviction
get away with the perfect crime
you come to me when you're on the run
expecting me to be your safe haven

truth is, I'm not a fortress
but I don't want to be abandoned
by you rats on a sinking ship
I called you weak
said that you've been taken over
but all along, it was me

play me like an instrument
we'll make the most brutal music
cause we've got the same song
stuck in our heads
and we pretend we don't
know it by heart.
written for my project "ghost of punk" :)
imadeitallup Oct 2012
You crossed the line
No surprise,
You never could resist a line.
imadeitallup Dec 2012
I crawled into a hole
deep, dark and warm
I waited for the perfect moment
she pranced by like she was immortal

until she fell into my hole.
imadeitallup Jul 2013
she called me in a panic
begged for me to answer
So I did...
And we sat in silence
oh, I remember that
crazy free fall feeling
just waitin' to hit the bottom
and I seem to recall
the worst part of it all
when you spit in my face
told me I'd been replaced
all I wanted..
was to feel something
but you never let me.

now you love me
now you're sorry
now you finally see
now you want me
I'm sorry but I
-I feel nothing

she said "c'mon
take a chance on me"
well, I did...
and it cost me everything
even if I wanted to
I've got nothing left to give you
and I seem to recall
that you "never loved me at all"
what's wrong with you?
that just can't be true
all I wanted...
was to feel something
but you told me to forget it

now you love me
now you're sorry
now you finally see
now you want me
I'm sorry but I
-I feel nothing
imadeitallup Jul 2014
Her wolf was circling.
The ***** didn't even know...
she was being sized up
by an apex predator.
She elegantly contained this
knowledge of future bloodshed
within her own head.
Never letting that *****
out of her sanguine glare.
She remembers only echoes
of noises that accumulated into words.
Annoying,
ENRAGING,
words.
The wolf pounced out of her control,
but not outside of her desire.
The ***** made a beautiful corpse.
That angered her.
She walked away with a villainous
smirk on her face, and a tumor
of darkness growing inside of her.
The wolf trotting along side her.
Trying something new with this style. :)
imadeitallup Aug 2014
I don't expect you to understand
Why I recoil when
You extend your arms and hands
Why I brace for impact
Within the trajectory of your touch
It is warm,
and I am cold.
It is wind,
and I am stone.
IF YOU STEAL THIS POEM, OR ANY OTHER POEMS OF MINE. I WILL FIND YOU, AND I WILL COME AFTER YOU LEGALLY. I AM SOOO SICK OF SEEING THIS POEM ALL OVER THE INTERNET WITH SOMEONE ELSE'S NAME UNDER IT. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN LIVE WITH YOURSELVES. STEALING OTHERS WORK AND CLAIMING IT AS YOUR OWN. BUT ALL OF THESE ARE COPYRIGHTED SONGS. SO YOU BETTER HOPE I DON'T CATCH YOU. P.S. THANKS TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE FINDING AND TELLING ME ABOUT THESE FAKES. I APPRECIATE THE LOYALTY. :)
imadeitallup Jun 2013
I didn't know when
you were giving me a light
that you would lead
me into darkness
I didn't think when
we were making out
I was making the biggest
mistake of my life

should've left me
before I loved you
believe me
I never wanted to

I never knew while
I was falling in love
I was falling into
the deepest hole
how could I know
you wrapped your arms
around me just to
stab me in the back?

should've killed me
before we built our life
believe me
I just wanted that night

can't hate you
for what you didn't do
can't blame you
for what I should've done

should've never
lit that cigarette
that ****** burned
my fortress down.
imadeitallup Nov 2012
I took a late night drive
Turn it up
Let the music say what
I don't want to feel
I know these streets
Like the back of your hand
I've been down every road
Why am I still here?

I don't need to hear
What you have to say
But you'll tell me anyway

It's gonna be a long night
Light it up
I wanna hurt myself with
things that I don't need
I know this feeling
Like you know what you're doing
Do you think that I could
Be that girl ever again?

I don't need to hear
What you have to say
But you'll tell me anyway

I don't need to know
That you feel the same
But you'll tell me anyway
imadeitallup Dec 2012
If anyone asks,
I was never here
what happens tonight
is neither here nor there

you put me through hell
expecting me to be an angel
you dragged me through the mud
expecting me to come clean

Tonight, I'm a ghost
You can't touch me
Even if you see me
You won't believe

If anyone asks,
I couldn't care less
What happened last night
Just whispers behind my back

you asked me for my heart
expecting that not to leave a hole
you stripped me of everything
expecting me to still have my diginity

Tonight, I'm a ghost
You can't touch me
Even if you see me
You won't believe

nobody gets what they deserve
nobody gets a second chance
nobody gets what they give
you get what you get

If anyone asks,
I was never here
what happens tonight
is neither here nor there
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