i fell for u more then most
the feelings that i have are no longer ghosts
once i confessed my love for u
i  finally found out if u felt it too
u told me u loved me but that was wrong
when i woke up all ur stuff was gone
i cried until i had no tears
and i realized that losing u was my biggest fear
and now there is nothing but darkness in my mind
and all i am now is someone who hides

My heart,
My biggest vulnerability.
But for you,
I’m exposed.

Because.

Put a smile on your face,
You're always looking so sad,
It makes everyone around you,
Sad as well,
but
Instead of that,
Why not say,
Why do you look so sad,
Is something wrong,
Do you want to talk,
Are you okay,
A smile looks good on you,
Try it out beautiful?
Not always about you and other people,
Because just what you don't know is that,
They could be hiding so much more then just that smile,
That you claim you never see,

Usually I lie
Whenever I say I'm fine
Except not right now

Tomorrow..
I'm braking all over again,
Crying my eyes out,
Crying to sleep,
Tomorrow,
Not feeling alive,
Because I realize,
Where are you?
Not here living,
With me,
Devin,
Why did you leave,
I can't take this pain,
I'm braking,
Ugh..

What they want us to do:
Be slimmer
Be smarted
Be self-confident
Be spiritual

What they ask:
"Why aren't you eating?"
"Why are you always studying?"
"Why do you dress like a "****"?"
"Why are you always in church?"

What I say:
...

What my mind says:
"I'm trying my hardest but none of you see it. Each word you dig into me drains me each day. I know I am fat, I know I am dumb. I am trying to be like you but..
I...
just...
don't...
fit...
in...