Windy November day
Kept inside by the warm embrace
Of heaters
And soft clothes
Scents fill the air
Permeate me
Fill me up
Mushrooms in a sauce pan
Pungent slices of green
Pumpkin
Light a candle to ward off tears
Smoke and steam meet
Like lovers in the air
Warm folds of grey and gold
Wrap up slanted eyes
And silken midnight fur
The gentle thrum of a feline chest
Keeps time with a
Cribbage board
Butter melts
The soft crackle of frying things
The gentle fragrance of tea
Three women together
While winds rage outside
Leaves, stripped from trees
Litter the sodden ground
Rain patters down
Tops of trees dance
But inside
We are warm
And together
And for that, I am thankful

Come now, darling, take my hand
Alight the trampoline
We can do much more than bounce
That much you’ll come to see

We can lie down, side by side
Cool mesh against your face
Talk about life, love, and such
And dream of outer space

See the gleaming morning dew
Smell the morning air
Feel you lying next to me
Not sure if you’re aware

I like to be by your side
I love to see you smile
Lie with me on trampolines
Let’s stay here for a while

You don't need
Black jeans and band tees
To be ripped apart on the inside

I'm sorry sweetheart
But this is going to hurt

There is something wrong
But what?
There is something wrong
But what?
THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG
WITH YOU
WRONG WITH YOU
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
THIS ISN'T YOU
**** IT
**** IT
HELP
help me
I can't get out
I can't escape this
ESCAPE
GET OUT
GET OUT
GET OUT
THIS PERSON IS NOT YOU
THIS IS WRONG
**** THIS CREATURE
**** IT
YOU HAVE TO GET OUT
PLEASE
LET ME LEAVE
I'M SICK
I'M SICK
I DON'T WANT TO DIE
I DON'T WANT TO DIE LIKE THIS
HELP
ME
PLEASE
HELP
**** IT
**** THIS
RUN
GET OUT
RUN NOW
RUN
RUN
feet on wooden rungs
RUN
GET OUT
LEAVE
**** IT
look for the plastic break
HELP ME
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
fingers glitter red and gold
HELP
**** IT
THAT ISN'T ME
I AM NOT HER
I DO NOT RECOGNIZE HER
**** IT
**** IT
IT WON'T STOP
IT WON'T GET OUT
IT WON'T LEAVE
LET ME GO
LET ME GO
LET ME GO
LET
ME
go

over
it is over
quiet
empty
numb
it burns a bit
don't mind
quiet
can finally sleep
nothing
nothing
nothing

Sunlight
Faint as ghost feet
Caress my brow
Hold my sleeping form
Dainty dust particles
Are the flies that fill my room

Dead dry earth
No snow, no birds
Just the click, click, click
Of keys and muffled screams
He's swearing now and
I leave
That room is dead to me

Each heart holds a song
The beat of life
Trapped in a vessel
Thump, thump, I sing alone
I am no one's song
I am no one's symphony

Feet move here
Wood cries out
We are alive but this house is not
No words, no love
Just a funeral song

Her eyes will not meet mine
My cold hands cannot touch her
We are all dead now
I wish I had left in November

Big brother
Where art thou?
In the coiling mess of confusion
Bloodied wrists and sunsets
Have you already forgotten?

Big brother
Feel my pain
Set me free to roam
Bathe me in ecstasy
Or let me fall

Big brother
Love your neighbor as you love yourself
Give
Give your life
Why do you hide from them?

Big brother
What is the veil you wear?
Dancing where I cannot see
Where I cannot roam
Scattered across the globe

Big brother
Forgive me for I have
Lost all hope and direction
Gotten swept away in the current
There is no love

Big brother
Hold her close with starry arms
And metaphysical limbs
Love her in the pages
Spread like a seed

Big brother
I do not love you
The leaves on the trees come to the ground
Is that the last bow of nature?
Or an unspectacular event?

Cold eyes wither me
Cold mouths touch my skin
Sweet words no longer reach my ears
Am I no longer kin?

Bitter tears streak my face
Midnight gathers on a page
Silence is the only solace
They only battle against the rage

Red runs like water
Blood thick enough to tear us apart
Maybe I’m a daughter
But I do not know their hearts