gray rain: Poems

283 · Aug 2016

Results Day!!!

gray rain Aug 2016

Results Day!!!

Everyone anxiously opening envelopes
to reveal a set of letters
some cry, some smile
then they go tell everyone.

I got a B in core science if anyone wanted to know.

282 · Jul 2016

Bottled Soul

gray rain Jul 2016

Bottled Soul

I'm not an archetypal person
who cries when they're upset.

I never talk or say anything
thats one thing I regret.

I'm some where in this spectrum,
where I do not know.

I bottle up my feelings but
don't hold on enough for me to go.

282 · May 2016

Ghost

gray rain May 2016

Ghost

All you are is a ghost
from my past
But no matter what
you won't stop haunting me

#love #ghost #haunting

281 · Apr 2016

Trapped

gray rain Apr 2016

Trapped

Trapped inside my body
trapped inside my mind
no one wants to listen
no one hears my cries

#trapped

280 · Apr 2016

Taking Over Me

gray rain Apr 2016

Taking Over Me

Hands are shaking
breathing is deep
the anger is taking over me
writing feelings on a blank sheet
insanity creeping in I cannot speak
this language seems foreign to me
the one I use everyday of the week
my body trembels
feels strong but weak
no control
in how I act
cold shivers run down my spine
as emotions are running high
no control over anything
when the anger is taking over me

#anger

276 · Apr 2016

Give Up

gray rain Apr 2016

Give Up

When you feel like giving up
go to the mirror
and realise you don't give a ****

#giveup

273 · May 2016

Sun 4

gray rain May 2016

Sun 4

******* sun
stop seeping through
the clouds are back
but so are you

#sun

273 · Apr 2016

Battle

gray rain Apr 2016

Battle

Battle to the death
No one dies
Battle of strength
Skill
And mind

#battle

268 · Jun 2016

I had a dream

gray rain Jun 2016

I had a dream

I had a dream...

that Donald Trump was dead
and he had a Coffin with the union flag
and his face on it.

It was a dream but I actually thought it was real.

This is true I don't know why the British flag was there but it was

#death #donaldtrump

267 · Jul 2016

You Can Not Be One Thing And Not Be The Opposite

gray rain Jul 2016

You Can Not Be One Thing And Not Be The Opposite

You can not lie
Yet not tell the truth

You can not be wrong
Yet still not be right

You can think something
Yet have no proof

You can not be a pacifist
Yet still not fight

266 · Jul 2016

This Doesn't Need A Title It's Just Titles

gray rain Jul 2016

This Doesn't Need A Title It's Just Titles

Lose it
to
The sound

Just keep breathing
And
Dreaming out loud

I like music to much

265 · Aug 2016

How Did I Get Here?

gray rain Aug 2016

How Did I Get Here?

How did I get here?
The wind, the blue sky, the clouds
The view of fields surround
But how did I get here?
Did I actually leave my house?

265 · Apr 2016

Listening To My Head

gray rain Apr 2016

Listening To My Head

I'm stuck listening
to my head
telling me what to do
I want to follow my heart
but my head tells me not to
I want to fall so deep in love
where my head can no longer reach
where I no longer care what anyone thinks
where I no longer care what my head thinks
I want to fall so deep in love
where I get washed up by the sea
where it is only you and me
where my head cannot follow me

#love #life

263 · Apr 2016

Beyond Understanding

gray rain Apr 2016

Beyond Understanding

I wish my life was black and white
but it's full of vibrant colours
I wish I could be open
but my feelings are bottled up
I wish I could swim
but at the moment I sink
I wish I could be free
but I'm stuck in a cage
I wish it was just me
so I didn't have to worry about what people will think
I wish life was simple
but it's beyond my understanding

#life #simple

262 · Jun 2016

Writing A Story

gray rain Jun 2016

Writing A Story

The girl could have fallen in love with a girl or guy
but no, instead she just wanted to die.

Characters are created to tell a story, if the writer thought of a different purpose for the character the story would change completely.

http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1669837/the-girl-trigger-warning-self-harm-suicide/

256 · Apr 2016

Where I Was Before

gray rain Apr 2016

Where I Was Before

Swimming in the ocean
drifting far away from shore
alone and free
as waves push against me
and take me back
to where I was before.

If anyone can think of a better title please tell me.

#life #backtothestart

255 · Jul 2016

I Know But I Don't

gray rain Jul 2016

I Know But I Don't

Is it possible to feel something so much that you feel nothing?
I'm confused, really confused.
Or overwhelmed by all this
by the last few days
and what made sense now doesn't
and what doesn't make sence now doesn't
I'm confused, really confused.
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
when people ask what's wrong
because I don't know if it's real.
It doesn't seem real.
it did when I was crying
before it happened
but I didn't see it
so am struggling to believe it
to realise that you're gone.

My head cannot accept that they're dead

253 · Aug 2016

Lost

gray rain Aug 2016

Lost

The more I try to find myself

The                                              More

                    Lost
                                                              I
Seem
                                               To

                                  Be.

253 · May 2016

Four Walls

gray rain May 2016

Four Walls

Stuck in these four walls
for hours every day
outside the rain falls
then it's sunny again
when I get to leave

#sun

253 · May 2016

Disillusioned

gray rain May 2016

Disillusioned

I feel empty inside
but full with lies
told by people we are taught
their thoughts
their views
and our views
are supposedly wrong
and if in a song
these words are written
it is to society then hidden
and the message is not shared
and no one really cared

#lies #life #thoughts #ownviews

252 · Jul 2016

Nothing Interesting

gray rain Jul 2016

Nothing Interesting

I don't know what he's thinking
build a mountain of rubble
behind the school.
Is it a non-metaphorical mountain
you want them to climb?
Was the metaphorical one not working?
Are you building it for both schools?
They both have this mountain climbing metaphor engrained in their roots.
If you are we don't want to share the mountain with you.

So this needs an explanation
My school and another school are on the same road. The former vice principal of my school (DTA) left 1.5 years after DTA opened to create another school (DMA) 2 years ago. The building DMA originally had was too big so they were demolishing part of it which now is a mountain of rubble. Which I found funny because both schools use the metaphor of climbing a mountain to University (which makes their goal for every student to go to uni). Not a very interesting story.

251 · Jun 2016

Confused

gray rain Jun 2016

Confused

Nothing
no feeling
confusion
hatred
confusion
do you like me?
I really ******* don't like you!
in that way at least.
nothing
confusion
what?
confusion
Why would you say that?
Do you like me?
I do not like you!!
lost
I don't know
confusion
I don't know what to write
or say!
I'm confused
and you don't even know.

I'm struggling to write at the moment and really confused by what my friend said.

#friendship #confusion

251 · Jul 2016

Good days fly

gray rain Jul 2016

Good days fly

Good days come and we want them to stay
then bad days come and they fly away

247 · Jul 2016

Morning turns to night

gray rain Jul 2016

Morning turns to night

Morning comes and turn to night.

I
Haven't
Seen
You
Since
The
Fight.

I'm waiting for you to come once more

To come
And knock
At the door.

I'm waiting for morning to turn to night

Without
                                                      A
                                             Knock
     At
                                          The
                Door
                                                 Or
    You
                                In
        Sight.

I don't know who I'm waiting for

247 · Apr 2016

Now

gray rain Apr 2016

Now

Don't look into the future
Don't look back at the past
live your life in the moment
because you don't know how long it will last

#life #now #live

246 · Aug 2016

Pain

gray rain Aug 2016

Pain

I'm disconnected from everyone around.
I'm in an ocean of life and I'm about to drown. I can't scream for help 'cause there is no sound and as my head's dragged under, still there's no one around. No one to save me. No one to to stop the waves in this sea. This ocean like blades on a knife stabbing me in the back, in the front I doesn't matter if they stop now 'cause the pain won't. It's still sharp and lethal and I'm waiting for the sequel of the story to cut through my flesh and puncture me. Or drag my head under and hold me down 'cause there's no way to stop the pain now as I'm held on the sea ground.

Just some words

245 · Jul 2016

Out Live Ourselves

gray rain Jul 2016

Out Live Ourselves

I don't know how long we'll last.
We won't die young but we'll live fast
So lets forget our past
And do what we want 'cause what we do will surpass

243 · Jul 2016

Something You Won't Understand

gray rain Jul 2016

Something You Won't Understand

Beauty comes from within
But I can't picture it without good lighting?
And I don't like going outside
And it doesn't exist in my house

242 · Jul 2016

Painting pictures, creating words

gray rain Jul 2016

Painting pictures, creating words

Words can paint a thousand pictures
Pictures create thousands of words to paint.

238 · May 2016

Sun 3

gray rain May 2016

Sun 3

The sun is back
and it shines
an attack
on my eyes

Sun
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1641142/sun/
Sun 2
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1641416/sun-2/

#sun #morning

237 · Apr 2016

Death Of The Unknown

gray rain Apr 2016

Death Of The Unknown

For the first time death occured
and I wasn't affected by it.
Maybe it's because I didn't know you personally,
maybe because it was expected,
you were sick, terminally.
I hope you had a great life. Rip. Eternally.

Sorry if this is kind of difficult to read, it was difficult to write.

#peace #death #remembrance

237 · Jul 2016

True Feelings

gray rain Jul 2016

True Feelings

I care too much to let you go
But I don't want to hold you close
I don't want my true feelings to be exposed
Because that is when I love you most

232 · Aug 2016

Fear (is the enemy)

gray rain Aug 2016

Fear (is the enemy)

Fear is the enemy
That punches you in the face
It freezes you up
Not allowing you to block with pace.

Fear is the enemy
That kicks you in the chest
Leaving you unable to defend
Because you're out of breath.

Fear is the enemy
That will **** you
With all the regret
Of what you didn't do

Don't let fear beat you up

#fear

230 · Apr 2016

Nightmare

gray rain Apr 2016

Nightmare

I can't stop the screaming
I can't stop the bleeding
I can't stop the screaming
I must be dreaming

#nightmare

229 · Jul 2016

Words

gray rain Jul 2016

Words

Words are just words when they are not defined.
Words can be feelings when bring back memories of past time.

Until this week I had not experience death and wrote this long before, reading it now I understand more than I did then.
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1614126/effects-of-death/

226 · Apr 2016

Fight

gray rain Apr 2016

Fight

I have this fight coming up
I'm up against someone who seems to be strong but I could be wrong
They seem to be set in their ways but they could be hiding something and not know what to say
maybe I can win this fight
If I think I can and use all my might
Maybe i can win this internal fight
between my heart and mind
And I hope my heart comes out on top
and my love for life will return and not stop

#life #heart #fight #mind

226 · Jul 2016

Possible Dreams

gray rain Jul 2016

Possible Dreams

We dream up the impossible
But it's not impossible if it already happened in our dreams.