you said we all have trials
i think you forget
there's no court of law
for the demons in your head

and if there was, i'd be on bail
with a psych eval due
struggling to swallow sadism
and thinking of you

he told me we're toxic;
she told me you're a liar
you bring out the worst in me
set good intentions on fire

i've never burned more
than when i'm losing sleep over you
if you were petrol, i'd drink
and finally we'd be through

i can't stand the way i hate you
and i love you just as much
i'm tired of hurting
and being used as a crutch

i don't believe it when you're sweet
can't stomach it when you're mad
sometimes you're an angel
but almost the worst i've ever had

in the past, i was empty
seven years without crying
now i'm swelling with anxiety
but at least i'm trying

told me you'll never stop
god knows i don't want you to
but maybe i need it,
a break from what you do

i'm softening the tone
with half-assed rhymes
to sound like i'm okay
with the fact you aren't mine

though part of me thinks
for what it's worth
that i got lucky to miss a shot
and dodge a bullet, dodge the hurt

it feels easier when i'm around you;
talking to you soothes the worry,
eases the anxiety

every time i'm away, counting
3, 2, 1, and you'll forget about me
just another filler chapter in a heart-wrenching story

i'm sorry; i'm just so needy
convinced that everyone who loves me
is never gonna love me

for children, they call it separation anxiety—
i call it abandonment issues,
and i've got a lot of traumatic memories

i just want you to stay, to-- to be here with me
if i were a mattress, i'd be stained and rickety
but i'd still keep you warm and comfy

i can hold you and kiss your soul,
lie with you, protect you as you sleep: gentle, easy.
just stay with me.

Goodbye.
That's all.

Surrounded by a bunch of fake friends, claiming
"We don't talk like we used to anymore,"
Passing blame like cigarettes,
And stifling the urge to choke:

Strong men. Even the sponge of our lungs is hardened
Stainless steel because no broken promises
Are gonna mar the way we breathe,
**** panic attacks; just contain it 'til we implode

Volcanoes collapsing in on themselves,
Chests crumbling, collapsing, converted into ash
Blood turned lava, thick like the way we all used to be
(Thick as thieves, thick as thieves)

And hot as the temper that erupts in me
Every time you fog my head with morphine,
Numb the pain your lies have caused me
Have me lie back and swallow down pills

Am I supposed to just take what you've given me
And ignore what you've taken from me?
Thick as thieves, thick as thieves:
Why'd you steal from me?