I know my insignificant soul
and these poems
that are my lifeline
will melt into oblivion

but it just makes life so much easier
so much more
beautiful  

so much more
worth

living . .

and although I post them,

I only every write these poems

for me .

despite my parents beliefs,
I have always considered myself
a believer of everything .

with an endless universe,
surely there are endless possibilities .

but I knew there was a god
the first time
you smiled in my direction;
because how could humans create anything
of such beauty .

with each lonely night
I could feel the
cold of nothingness
ease its way into my bones .
and to be honest,
I don't think I have any strength left
to fight it ;
I don't think I want to .

days like these
I can't help but feel
as if
i'm just
existing ;

and that is all .

~ the girl who knows she has a purpose but doesn't see the purpose .

I learned at a young age,
that the only person that is ever going
to always be there for me,
is me .

~ the girl abandoned too often

once I come across a song I love
I stop listening to it,
I fear
I will get tired of it .

but I still melt whenever the melody that is your heartbeat plays
and your voice--
******* your voice,
still makes me want to dance.